The Simple Truth

2009-09-07T20:36:00.000+08:00

Let It Go

2009-07-15T21:42:00.006+08:00

I realised I've been MIA for quite a while both online and on my blog haha
my apologies, been busy with work during the day
and when i get home, the only thing I want to do is to relax
well, what's been happening of late...
there was a W480 vs W452 badminton tournament...at least it was supposed to be one until we just played for the fun of it XD
zu came along as well
waa..sure feels like old times during our sec school days when we would go play during the weekends XD
all of the pics are on fb alrdy so go take a look if you've got the chance
this is my favourite shot personally...although i'm not too sure who took it

i think the person who took the angle of this shot quite...abstract ar

"i take, i take, i taaaaake!"

then we had our (or rather my) first cgm at Maple's house after the SOS bs
hehe for the first time in my 1 1/2 years in CHC, cgm was soooo near!! XD
hopefully, the upcoming one I can drive there
still, thank you to Maple who opened her house for us
pretty quiet but nice place I must say

oh yesh, how could I forget
our W331 reunion with Elyn to celebrate her birthday!
she didnt look like she changed much after so long haha
except for the fact she looks very stylish with her specs and much thinner XD
we had steamboat at bugis last thursday
it feels so long since we actually all sat down together and had time to have fun :)
unfortunately our good friend Christina was quarantined at home *smack forehead*
nair mind, we will all get out together again sometime soon =D

its been so long since i felt this way once again
and I thought friendship was both ways, not just one person making the effort to know the other all the time
it gets discouraging at times
I do care about you...in fact, too much at times
but this...this has to stop
Its getting too tough for me to handle
all the thoughts of you at night,
wondering what you're doing or who you're thinking of...
its not easy but i'm trusting it into the Lord's hands

I'll just need to let it go

To Never Lie, Cheat or Steal

2009-06-28T22:31:00.003+08:00

if you must lie,
lie in the arms of your loved one

if you must cheat,
cheat death

if you must steal,
steal away from bad company

why does it take just a minute to say hello but forever to say goodbye?

2009-06-27T00:38:00.004+08:00

transformers 2!!! man,i think no one would disagree if i said it was one of the best movies this year
the effects are pretty stunning for a movie
its one of those few movies that left a deep impression on me
anyway, the college part in the movie...*evil laughter*
a handful of curious teenagers + their raging hormones...you do the math XD
i've heard....about things about the college life in the US :P
*singing busted's song* "thats what i go to school for.." XD
haha i was just kidding around
i shall not spoil it for those who havent watched it yet but its a must see movie...debinitely

i was just checking out the videos on youtube and i think you gotta watch this haha
those crazy arabs
i always wondered what they did with all the revenue they earned from their oil wells
perhaps you should turn off the speaker if you not a fan of techno music XD
but still its interesting..and there's more where that came from

2009-06-23T20:51:00.008+08:00

youch...thats gotta hurt when you land on your head like this XD
this one's gonna be a long post so bear with me
first up!! Josh's 21st!
we celebrated it on sunday night at jeremy's condo, backyard bbq style XD
sarah and i went there early to set the place up, blowing balloons, hanging up decorations, etc.
since there was no pump we had to blow the 20+ balloons ourselves
you shoulda seen our faces after we blown the balloons haha
our faces were so red!!! :P
thankfully, reinforcements (or rather without the 's') arrived :P

ta-da!!! our lovely christina arrived!!

but she did her cards first so aiya...nair mind XD
heyy...i just realized she went down quite a bit ar
perhaps the workout from the dance?? haha
speaking of the dance...oh shucks so sorry my dear,
i couldnt make it for the one tonight and i feel so bad about it =/
and speaking of going down...cindy said i grew thinner hahahaha XD
anyway back to it
His family also came all the way down from m'sia to celebrate with him too...awww
i didnt take much pictures because i ended up getting my hands dirty with charcoal and cooking the food
...as always, but its always better to give than take right? :)

the birthday boy's cake!

pardon the bad quality ar,
poor lighting and taken with phone camera = cant expect too good pictures
alamak, he was looking at a different direction
ahh nair mind
anyway, hope we made this birthday a memorable one and you enjoyed it brudda!! :)
May God continue to bless you in ebbreething you do!

its funny how our friendship started back in poly
in fact, he and i actually werent too close in the first year and even the first half of the second year
prolly because of our first lab assignment together
there were lots of misunderstandings then
and i have to admit i was also quite immature then along with the other guys
the other guys and i always thought he was kinda....crooked cause of his metrosexuality
ok josh i repent!!! dont whack me! XD
we were more of the 'hi,bye' kinda friends
but when the second half of year 2 started we started to grow closer through projects, fellowshipping, etc.
that was when he brought me to chc and i got saved....again
since then he has always been a big brother i looked up to :)
then came year 3...sheesh who could forget the days we reached school at 8am for lessons and stayed until 10+ or 11pm in school to do our fyp
then our favourite food for dinner at the SIM canteen,'auntie ar, wanton mee ji pao'
as the deadline drew nearer, we were staying later until we ended up doing till 4+am (at home of course XD)
i think during that time many friendships were really put to the test
it was either you make it or break it, not to mention that relationships that also ended
that was how huge the pressure was from all the competition
even after all that, i'm glad we still remained the best of friends

ok some people have been asking me about hannah, the gal you see in the tag area
she's a really good friend of mine, more like a sister haha =D
she and i go way back to pri school...pri 5 to be exact when we first became classmates
hmm..she was boyish in some areas but she's still a great gal in ways more than one XD
she always liked to play catching back in pri sch when we ran all over the school carpark with our other friends and were all sweaty after recess
what else...ahh yesh, she watched WWE also haha back then it was called WWF
and i think her favourite was the rock..."can you smeeellllll what the rock is cookin?" XD
not to mention she watches soccer too, die hard man-u fan
dun mind me talking about this han haha
dont let all this fool you, she's our pri and sec school 校花 if you will
very popular with the guys
how we got to know each other...i really think its God 's plan if you ask me
thing is a very close brudda of mine, zubin actually liked her a lot for quite long...a few years, cant really remember the exact number
and me on the other hand, had a crush on one of hannah's good friend for 8 years (0.o i know haha)
who is it? not important, she's a very spiritually strong woman now and happily attached too, i'm happy for her :)
so yeah, coincidental? the only reason i can think of is the one above :)

....cause who i am hates who i've been

2009-06-21T12:54:00.003+08:00

Happy Father's Day!!!!
make sure you remember to wish your dad XD
yesterday's service was a pretty good one haha
the drama was hilarious but what really left an impression on me was the sermon
although short but deep :)

sometimes i suppose we all let our carnal nature take over in more than one ways
and we end up demanding from God miracles, answers about visions, etc.
but have you ever wondered why He did things the way He did?
the answer: maturity
lemme give you the same analogy pst tan used...
he said his daughter always asked him for ice cream
and in exchange for that ice cream, she would have to do her homework
of course this is the part most kids hated, haha i was one of em
doing homework -> good results -> success in education -> good job -> good pay
and with the good pay...yup you guessed it,
you can eat ice cream everyday if you wanted
heck, no one will stop you even if you ate one each hour
its the same way with us and God,
we always want something immediate, NOW!!
try looking at things from His perspective,
all the trials He put us through is to mould our character and help mature us
as the bible says, God never lets a trial go to waste
what we want might not be for the best of our interest but hey, He knows best right? :)
its gonna be tough but patience is the key
thats something i'm gonna have to work on too XD

i'm a guy. Since when do we ever get things right the first time?

2009-06-17T00:39:00.002+08:00

i just got back from watching the taking of pelham 123 with kok and shen
and i still have work tomorrow!!!
shucks, at this rate i'm going
i'm gonna fall sick one day
the movie was quite interesting though surprisingly full of vulgarities and with an ending a bit too abrupt

speaking of work, lots of people have been asking me why did i take this warehouse assisstant job
alright just to clear all these...misunderstandings
sure its tough and the pay's a little low
but i dont detest the job and i also wont say i like the job too
both are too extreme words to use
i take it more as an experience, to see what one does in this kinda job
so that in the future,i can choose the job i want more easily :)
of course, being the motorhead that i am...my dream job would be a racer
anyway, back to what i was saying
the job is actually quite enjoyable because of my colleagues
they come from all walks of life before they got this job and not to mention they are pretty funny XD
my supervisor can shout from one end of the warehouse to another of his old kaki not to play around in hokkien and the other guy will shout back something funny
btw, my supervisor is a malay XD
i know whacha thinking...i dunno how he mastered mandarin and hokkien so fluently even sometimes i converse with him in hokkien as well
everyday there's laughter goin around and thats something i dont think you will find in most work places
so yeah...thats all i have for you

i'm trying to fight it but i just cant help it

2009-06-14T19:57:00.007+08:00

lots been happening this week and even more next week
sharon and elis left for HK yesterday morning,
saw them off at the airport along with elis's family and bf..turned out to be quite sentimental haha
i hope they are getting used to the environment there
and although its only like 2 days...i'm starting to miss her XD
angela and i did a card for her,
and i dunno how it got passed around until it ended up in someone else's hands instead of hers XD

this what i drew before angela took it home to colour and decorate it

unfortunately,didnt get a picture of the card when it was done
i must say we did a pretty good job and thank goodness sharon liked it
i was afraid she might find it too..kiddy XD
hui mien was asking me to draw her a calvin and hobbes card when it came her birthday haha
it wouldnt have been a problem in the past but now my drawing skills are not as good so we will see XD

celebrity weekend was great!!
although i'm not exactly a mandarin pop fan, it was quite an exciting two hours there in church with some of the big names like FIR, vaness wu, liu geng hong...
reminded me of new year's eve in taiwan when all the famous singers came out to perform at the parade square near the taipei 101 building :)
back then it was so crowded i couldnt even see my own feet!
and when the crowd was jumping to a song,you'd better jump along or risk getting knocked over by those crazy fans XD
after dinner, cindy was talking to me about um...a certain something
but it certainly did knock some sense into that thick skull of mine
what she said was very true and
i really thank God for giving me such a wonderful sister who always shared her thoughts and disciples me so patiently :)

anyway,today i went to mandai in the early evening to pay my dad a visit at the coloumbarium
after that i was on my way home when i decided to stop at the nearby reservoir to watch the sunset
must say it was a beautiful view :)
lots of couples were cuddling around the bench area so i figured it was better to view from the car :P

speaking of cars, a friend was asking me how did i pass the tp (traffic police for those who have no clue) test
and well...there was really nothing to say except to keep practicing
at least that was what i did, there was
even so,after passing the test i forgot most of the stuff that i learnt
i just look at the rear and side mirrors only and dont bother checking the blind spots anymore
i assured him he will prolly learn more bad habits than good ones when he starts driving on his own
what do i mean? some examples...
1)driving with one hand on the steering (guilty XD)

2)taking off your shoes or whatever you are wearing on your feet (not guilty)

3)the occasional cursing and swearing when a car suddenly stops in front to pick up or alight passengers (guilty)

4)exclaiming "confirm sure woman driver!" when the driver in front is hesitant in changing lanes or have problems parking (guilty, sorry to all those female drivers out there haha XD)

5)and of course who can forget the ever favourite: speeding (guilty)

shucks, 4 outta 5
i'm definitely not the kinda driver the government will want to use when promoting safe driving XD
alright thats all for now, i will fill guys in more some time later

Up Around The Bend

2009-06-11T00:06:00.003+08:00

i went with the W452 and W480 homies today for dinner at clarke quay
i shant go into the details but although i just saw them W452 homies last week, it feels like a long time
yesh i admit i do miss them one way or another but most of all i miss cindy!!!!
not to worry rou, u're still my respected cgl :)
we went to celebrate matt's upcoming...oops, no more upcoming,its his birthday today XD
and of course sharon's farewell dinner
after that, they went to the nearby pub called helipad for drinks 0.o
i know, the name sure sounds interesting aint it?
when i first heard it, i was picturing a couple of people squatting around an actual helipad on the roof of central drinking beers and your usual hard liquors like chivas, scotch yada yada XD
unfortunately i didnt go with em because i was feeling kinda tired from all the work

on the working side of things, the warehouse was busy like crazy today
constantly moving around with goods and pasting labels on several hundreds of items for the past 8 hours
shucks, my fingers feel kinda sore and some of the skin are actually peeling off!!!
i wanted to use the pallet jack as a skateboard when it was almost time to get off work but the thought of the executive supervisor catching me...well, didnt seem too nice XD

i wanna thank two people for helping me to understand some stuff if not i'll still be feeling dejected and lost
first up, ah tong for always being there to hear me out whenever i needed a listening ear and advice, you will always be one of mah besh sisters around XD
and yesh you too rou, for explaining and clearing things up...i appreciate it :)

i'm sorry i got a little too ahead of myself
i really had no idea and didnt mean for all this to happen
i know this isnt easy on your part as well and you will have to think this through
but i do hope we can go back to the way we were in the past :)

Tough Decisions

2009-06-05T02:17:00.003+08:00

hmm...ever wondered if you going in the right direction at times?
you may ask around for advice...or perhaps even a solution
hoping people might have experienced the same situation you are going through now
but even after they tell you what their thoughts, it all goes back to wondering even more
and i really dunno what to do
its one those things that can drive you crazy and sometimes becoming a nervous wreck altogether
dont mind me, its about some things i just discussed with rou thats all XD

butterflies in your stomach XD

Glasgow Kiss

2009-05-31T23:44:00.009+08:00

its been sucha happy week
spent time with my new cg and must say they are interesting people :)
got a lift back from hui mien on friday after the combined cgm at expo!! she's a life saver haha
i finally found people who live around the area where i live...or at least go there for one reason or another XD
well i almost felt bad for those living in the west back on fri
especially those like christina, sharon, pb, etc
speaking of pb, he and i went shopping for his shoes on fri before the whole expo thing in town
and well...like always i still got a bit lost hahaha
for those who dunno me that well, i can get lost in town at times XD
then we went to watch monsters and aliens on saturday after service
we ended up laughing like a buncha whackos throughout the whole movie especially when the kids behind us went "oh no" when insectosaurus supposedly died haha XD
on a serious note, they might be somewhat different from W452 in one or two ways...
but yesh yesh i'm very happy with this new family and i must get to know them better on my part
and thank you to people like rouxin, sharon, sarah, tong for always reassuring me, i appreciate it :)

shucks, i got the song i'll be there for you by rembrandts stuck in my head XD

Too Much, Too Young, Too Fast

2009-05-27T00:30:00.003+08:00

you sure took me by surprise but i'm honoured that you're trusting me :)
it certainly feels like the picture above with this new role
there are only 3 things i'm feeling now
1) happy and motivated by the new challenge
2) just worry i wouldnt be able to live up to your expectations
3) a bittersweet feeling for all the homies i'm leaving behind

but still, i'll do my best and wont let you down :)

The Middle

2009-05-25T22:14:00.003+08:00

hiya dudes and dudettes
sorry for the late update cause i really didnt have anything
manslaughter!!!
yesh i almost committed that today
i was mopping the floor today when i accidentally hit the broom my mom left at the balcony
and JERONIMO!!!!
down it went 24 storeys
of course after discovering that, i went down to see if the broom had hit anyone
thankfully it didnt, talk about killer litter XD
but...the broom ended up in 2 pieces
considering the force it had falling from 24 storeys, could honestly say i wasnt too surprised
somehow, someway i managed to patch both pieces back into one :P

you must be wondering what i've doing for the past days or even weeks
well...i was really looking for a job, practically send out resumes almost every week
but i suppose when you only have 3 months or so, chances are really very slim
so i've more or less given up this whole job thing...maybe i'll just go learn something for a change :)
yeap apart from that, i've been gymming about twice a week with an old friend zubin
we usually try to go in the mornings and afternoons
cause them gyms are usually packed with people at nights
and...well lets just say the both of us tend to lose our concentration in what we originally came to do XD
if you cant figure out what i'm trying to say, use your imagination
alright, thats all for now :)

Just do your best, be yourself and dont worry about what their bitter hearts will say :)

All or Nothing

2009-05-16T00:23:00.003+08:00

this post could be a little random
but anyway...its just some reflection on my part
i always get people asking me "why are you so quiet?" or something like that
sure,i guess i'm a guy with not much words
not like chitty chatty guys...for example, josh
which i woulda liked to become...that is if i could choose
in any case, i've always wondered why i'm like that
in fact, i even asked my mom why was i this way and the only thing she said pops was the same
he wasnt a guy who talked much
so i guess its genes?? all that stuff about your 23 pairs of chromosomes
fair enough, then the next question that popped into my mind was then how did the two of you get together in the first place?
of course,i never asked her that XD
i just thought women like guys who talk a lot with them...at least thats my impression

on my side of things
of course i care about you guys and love talking to all of you =D
but its just that sometimes i cant find the...right words to say
you can say its God's way of creating a unique me
but...what's the point of being unique in a way that most people dont like?
or rather cant appreciate
heck, is there even anything to appreciate about me in the first place?
arghh forgeddabt it XD

with you i know that i'm good for something :)

Everlong

2009-05-10T20:34:00.003+08:00

how many times has things been like the picture for us? XD
i'm sure we all have had our fair share but still we know our mothers meant good
a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! to all mothers out there
the drama at service yesterday has been quite a funny one showing all the crazy things our mothers went through to bring us up
indeed its not easy being a parent and i'm thankful to my mom for that =D
i havent got the chance to treat her to a good meal today apart from KFC today
so tomorrow then i'll bring her to jack's place when she's hopefully less busy

yesterday the drive back from my grandpa's house was unlike anything before
my mom was tired so she sat in the back resting
and finally for once, the whole ride was so peaceful without her usual nagging at my driving
there was no "drive with two hands ar!!!" (sorry manual drivers' bad habit) or even "go slower!!!"
she worries too much sometimes
hahaha i told her we should do this more often XD

a friend didnt sound okay yesterday but she didnt wanna talk about it too
i just hope she's feeling better now
hmm...maybe later i'll give her a call
anyway tomorrow's the graduation thingy
and i'm quite nervous about it

if everything could ever feel this real forever :)

Nothing Else Matters

2009-05-04T22:58:00.005+08:00

it feels super long since i came here
life has been pretty much the same but with a few changes
first of all, i'll prolly be enlisting in sep and place is in tekong
OMG
why cant i just go catch theives or be around the german shepherds in the canine unit like josh?
oh well, the hazards of being a male in singapore

secondly, some of you mighta known this but i've been accepted into NTU
i was really surprised cause my results arent all that good as compared to my classmates
in fact, my results are below average....at least to me
its at times like this when you can really feel our heavenly father is watching us from above :)
He never fails us even we expect ourselves to

that sums about most of it
last saturday i went to help out at the drama in the chinese ministry for the first time after service
most of the homies went to watch x-men origins: wolverine XD
but since i watched it already, i was planning on goin home early to rest
then here our good sister sitong asking if i could go help out
oh well...how could i say no??? :P
but i felt bad about not being able to make it to the expo service the next morning with flora cause i promised her i would be goin
thankfully, she was understanding :)
anyway back to the story
so back to the church we went after dinner
and into the auditorium we went
sitong intro-ed me to all her friends there especially those from SOT
most of em came from taiwan
and immediately they reminded me of how horrible my mandarin when i was there and even now XD
seriously, i'm more used to the more ang moh pai environment here in singapore
after all, i was brought up speaking english most of the time at home....and a little bit of hokkien XD
the drama was the lovebusters one but the cast was entirely different
dont worry, i wasnt acting with em...just part of the three men backstage crew
believe it or not, we practiced until 1+ in the morning cause the director wasnt too pleased with the casts' performance
not to mention we gotta reach the church the next morning by 7
i almost fainted when i heard that
hahahaha even cindy also said "omg sam, what have you gotten yourself into this time?" XD
yeap so took a cab back and reached home by 2
i wanted to stay up through the night like i did back during the prayer meeting when i came back that day
but i couldnt tahan after 4 so i went to sleep for about an hour before setting out again
eventually the performance was a smashin success!!!! =D
and guess who i met after the service?
greg was at the lift and he looked so surprised when he saw me hahaha
and steph too!!
i also finally got to see her prince charming bf, no wonder both of them won the competition XD
tiring it was after sleeping only for an hour but there was a great sense of satisfaction and i'm glad to be able to help them :)
hmm...i might just consider joining the backstage crew XD

the past few days i've been learning how to cook from my mom while looking for jobs at home
i know i know its not usually what a guy would do XD
still, its fun when you see the fruits of your labour :)

couldnt be much more from the heart

Silent Hill...

2009-04-16T23:21:00.006+08:00

have you ever watched the movie?
unfortunately, its a completely different experience from playing the game
the other day i just got my hands on the latest installation of this franchise; silent hill: homecoming
a lot more horror compared to the previous 4 silent hill games
i heard it had quite an interesting story line and
there's a 101 ways of killing the monsters around you
speaking of monsters, they resemble to that of the movie
remember the skimpily dressed nurses wielding super sharp scalpels with no faces?
yeap, they are back XD
giant spiders with 4 legs that can act as blades and they got a faceless head too
and finally some crawling creature that looks weird at every angle you look at it...
at least, these are the monsters i've met so far
well..these abominations are taken out using melee weapons most of the time cause bullets in the game are a privilege you cannot afford to waste if you wanna have an easier time with the bosses
i miss the days in silent hill 2 or 3 when there was so much ammunition lying around
..no problem with just getting the shotgun and blowing the monsters' heads off their bodies
honestly, even after so many years of playing this kinda games..
this one scares the crap outta me the most...much more than f.e.a.r 2 and the fatal frame series
i remember playing the first silent when i was just a P4 kid
and i was so scared of sleeping when bedtime came *smack forehead*
the crazy imagination of those hands grabbing you in the dark or seeing one of those monsters at your window
my mom would always ask me, "you funny ar, play this kind of games to scare yourself" XD
speaking of which, i never had any female gamer friends who played this game at all
i dunno, ladies is it the gore or the horror that scares you? =P

anyway, enough about that all that
its so difficult at times
i dunno the words to say
or the things to do in order to bridge the gap
God gimme the wisdom and strength

A Belated Birthday Post....

2009-04-10T00:18:00.004+08:00

first of all, a super duper mega ultra big thank you to all my brothers and church homies for the celebration and the presents
its one of the best i've had yet
i'm 20!!!!
it might be good or bad depending on the way you look at it...
of course looking from cindy and christina's one...it would prolly mean the latter XD
looking at my younger cousins and zubin's brother grow up, i myself am starting to feel old man

and thank you to zu and kenneth for accompanying me to go get me ''new wife'' XD
i'm still currently thinking of a name for her so dont be puzzled when i start asking you for your favourite female names
if you're still clueless, its a guitar
yeah, thinking of all my favourite guitarists and when i held my first one in my own hands...
it kinda felt a little unreal
and the road to their level's not gonna be as easy as i thought after i saw how kenneth tried out the guitars today..
oh i forgot to mention, kenneth's an old time friend of mine when we met back in primary school...
P1 i remember, we were in the same class till P4 then we ended in the same school in secondary school
but not the same class...until sec 3 and sec 4 then we ended up going to the same poly
that guy bought his first electric guitar at P4 and has been playing since (now he has 4 guitars, including acoustic ones too i think)
during our sec school days, he was called the guitar god among us
any problems you have with your guitars, acoustic or electric...he's the man to go to

anyway he asked me who was my favourite guitarist so i decided to might as well do a post on it
yeah man, the one who really inspired me was uh....lets see
Carlos Santana
this dude is old man but he's one of the best in the business
he started out when he was a teenager too i think and went through the hippy age
the good ol' crazy days when drugs were an everyday thing and alcohol was cheap like water XD
this was how he looked like in his 20s i think
most people say his best songs were 'europa' (a full instrumental track) and 'smooth' ( a collarboration with rob thomas)
but i still think 'i'm feeling you' (a collarboration with michelle branch) and 'into the night' (yet another collarboration with chad kroeger) are the best, you should see the mv on youtube
they are my favourite tracks too, never fails to make me smile...for whatever reason
anyway me do hope to play like him one day =)

well thats all i've got, thanks again homies!!! =D

Absou-friggin'-lutely

2009-04-07T00:48:00.003+08:00

i just got back from watching DMC which stands for Detroit Metal City with the guys
if you guessed it had something to do with music, you got it
its a japanese film about a guy chasing his dreams to be musician
like any japanese film or anime, there's a lot of exaggeration in the plots
but its more of comedy so its alright :)
we were laughing so hard at almost every part of the movie
there are some parts that are vulgar to some extent
but i'd still recommend it to anyone who has time on their hands
alright next movies up, handsome suit and fast and furious 4 (oh yeah!!! finally!)

good news!!
my mom's sponsoring my new guitar for a birthday present!!!
like i told josh, no worries
this time its a real guitar, not the one from guitar hero XD
(speaking of guitar hero,
the guys are comin over on wed to play the guitar hero:metallica i just got today
i just hope no hell breaks loose with 5-7 people jammin on one single guitar in a room
heck, i hope nothing breaks at all)
but i still gotta pay for the amp myself *smack forehead*
its been a week since i applied for that job at IRAS but i still havent got any replies...
i need a financial breakthrough GOD!!!!!

and malcolm if you're reading,
about what we were talking about
yesh yesh i know you're concerned,
or maybe just plain kpo (which i hope not :P)
anyway, i do appreciate the concern
i will tell you as soon as i have one in mind
as for now, things have been a little crazy around me
and like i told you its no big deal
i talked to cindy about it so you can go ask her if you really really cannot tahan like what you said XD

strap up and get ready to ride the lighting this saturday homies!!!

and while she looks so sad in photographs, i absolutely love her when she smiles =D

If Today Was Your Last Day

2009-03-27T14:48:00.004+08:00

2 wake sessions, 2 funerals and 2 cremations
1st time for me at least goin through all these in 5 days
its never easy seeing your loved one passing on
one of my best friend's grandma's funeral was today and when they sang the song 'amazing grace'
it just brought back the memories from my dad's...
it was sorta the main song for the funeral back then
come to think of it, it has been almost 13 years since then
funny thing's the song 月亮代表我的心 just kept playing in my head earlier XD
i guess cause it was my mom's favourite song and she kept listening to it for some time after my dad was gone

i miss the times my dad took me to marine parade to fly kites (literally :P),
i miss the times he would get me to sing with him canto pop karaoke songs during the weekend,
i miss the times he would just teach me about the engine parts while we were waiting in the car,
and i sure as hell miss the times he played all the games on the sega 16-bit console with me
unfortunately, all this happened when i was just a small kid and he was gone when i was 7
you never know whacha missin till its gone
but i appreciate the lesson cindy gave me on fatherhood on monday :)
it was a really fruitful one and its nice knowing there's someone looking over you somewhere out there =D

treasure all your loved ones people...
appreciate them for the one and only special person they are
and give them all the love you can!!! =D

Each day's a gift and not a given right
Every second counts cause there's no second try

La-Li-Lu-Le-Lo

2009-03-21T00:35:00.016+08:00

the late nights are really getting to me
i've been sleeping at 4 to 5 in the morning for the past 2 to 3 weeks
and why? you ask
josh always hit the jackpot when he guesses such stuff
yeah,i've been playing my ps3
well...more specifically metal gear solid 4: guns of the patriots
i've completed it a few times but i'm trying to get the octopus emblem which requires no alerts throughout the game, good grief *smack forehead*
ok,i apologize if you're not a gamer
this post is more for my gamer friends
i've been following it since the first one came out back in 98
its one of the games that left a very a deep impression on me, like the final fantasy series if you get what i'm talking about
partly cause of the instrumental song 'enclosure' and the ending song 'the best is yet to come' in mgs1
and apparently this is the last one :(
a lot of the old characters from mgs1,2 and 3 came back in the game
and finally the game creators answered all the "why"s when they left us puzzled at the end of each game when we were wondering what the heck was the plot about
anyway enough talk, here are some pictures from the game...

the main character of the game, snake..or rather solid snake and yes this is the actual graphics when you're playing XD
the wonders of HD and blu-ray *evil grin*

the bosses...
and surprisingly, these are females
victims traumatised by war in their homeland and used by others to become war machines themselves
from the left to right...laughing octopus, raging raven, crying wolf and finally screaming mantis floating above the rest at the top
notice they all have emotions before their animal names, its what drives them to fight
for example, laughing octopus always laughs..even when she is hurting from a wound 0.o

finally a few comparisons in the game with the older series to see how the graphics have improved XD
one of the prettiest characters in the game, meryl silverburgh

yours truly, meryl in mgs1 using ps1

and meryl in mgs4 using ps3

now u see the diff in graphics? 0.o
she looks very pretty if you observe her close up
but i still prefer girls with long hair XD
she still wields her favourite desert eagle wherever she goes, small girl with a big gun XD

and another female character in the game...
she's known as big mama ( i know, i was stunned when i first heard it XD) aka eva
actually she's from mgs3 which took place during the cold war period in the 1960s
very good looking huh?
unfortunately this was her in the 60s when she was still 20+
and oh by the way, mgs3 was using dvd format in ps2 so the disparity in graphics might not be as huge

and her in the present times when she's in her 40s or 50s
omg, so old still wear like that...yucks XD
her favorite phrase;
'i only get off my bike only when i fall dead...or when i fall in love' XD

finally the bad ass character throughout the game
its a long story how liquid (one bad guy) became ocelot (another bad guy) and i shant bore you with the details
liquid's the one in the front with solid snake in the background
this was mgs 1 using ps1 by the way
he actually died in mgs1 but like i said, its a long story how he became one with ocelot
if you notice, both liquid and snake look alike (actually all of them look alike in the ps1 graphics XD)
thats cause both are actually cloned from a guy named big boss which he did appear in mgs4 at the epilogue

ocelot in mgs1 using ps1
couldnt find the one in mgs2 where he looked about the same just slightly better graphics cause it was in ps2
like eva, this is him in his younger days in mgs3
the story is such that mgs1 was in the 1990s while mgs 3 was during the 1960s
directors of the game funny ar?

i think he looks super cool in this outfit
in his 50s and still lookin like a masterpiece
none of those saggy muscles and stuff
fyi, he did have abs and bulging biceps when he took off his shirt to fight XD

alright thats it for me...
anyway,
i've been thinking of using the lol langauge in msn again soon,
havent practiced it for a while now XD

do yew mizz mi?

Dance Your Heart Out

2009-03-16T00:27:00.002+08:00

whoa its been a super long day...
i left the house at 9:30am and i just got back
i feel uber drained...so i'll keep this short

today the church groupies went to sentosa to have some fun playing games :)
the beautiful sand, the rushing waves and the bright sun
we played captain's ball and volley ball there at siloso beach
couldnt play volley ball for nuts so i only played captain's ball
...but it didnt turn out as i expected
my cg was PAWNED!!!! XD
6 to 1 with the only goal scoring only like in the last 2 mins of the game
boy, were we lucky hehe

after that josh, sarah and i headed down to christina's concert at the NLB
my oh my, almost 2 hours of dance performances of different genre
and i'm surprised i didnt fall asleep considering how tired i was...
that silly gal christina's performance was super nice :)
in fact, it was one of the best among the rest
you did well gal, keep up the good work!!!! :)
and she finally got carried by a guy in front of all of us XD
overall i must say it was interesting although some of the groups and the performance coordinators could use some improvement
i also got to meet amanda and siti for the first time!!
now these two gals are a funny bunch alright XD
with chris and felicia too
i must admit the way i met the two of them was a little...weird
for chris was...he saw me at the audience after their performance
he instantly recognized me and came over, 'you must be sammy,i'm chris'
i never even met him in mah life!!
i was still blur like a sotong wondering who was this guy until he said his name while we were shaking hands
then for felicia,
after christina intro her to me
her first words were 'ahh so you're sammy, i know a lot about you'
good Lord!!! like chris, i never met her in mah life as well
obviously christina must have did some introduction about me to both of em....
which i hope didnt include my bad points XD
they really are a nice buncha people and i think it 'd be nice to just sit down and get to know em one day
although it does seem a little impossible with all their busy schedules at school...

there was something that really touched me yesterday
there were things going on here and there and life has been crazy
after service, josh suddenly asked me 'are you ok?'
yes there were things goin on and well....lets just say i was a little down but i definitely didnt show it
in fact i tried to hide it a lot
but yeah what touched me was even beneath the smile on my face, and the all laughing
he could tell something was really wrong
its not easy to do that unless you really understand your friends well
which i admit i can only do that for a few people which i spent years...maybe even a decade with
it really showed how much attention he paid when it came to observing others...or me in this case
then came sitong who asked me the same thing...i guess maybe it was really starting to show
even elyn sms-ed me about the same thing when she was in expo and me in jurong west
damn, thats some woman's intuition she's got XD
i really thank you for all the concern you guys showered on me
and not to worry i'll talk to you guys if there's anything :)
most of all, i thank God for friends like you!!!

i'll still praise the God who gives and takes away

You Always Believed

2009-03-11T22:35:00.003+08:00

i'm so sorry for not updating these past few days
well...partly cause there wasnt much to talk about
quite a number of 21st birthdays this month
plus with all the going out and buying of stuff, i'm flat out broke
apart from the supposedly weekly gymming sessions with josh...
which have become fortnightly XD
i stayed home nowadays either being a bookworm or a gamer
usually more of the latter =P
the book cindy lent me is super interesting
it has taught me a lot of new things...actually more of redefined my train of thoughts
i can do more of lending books like these from her in the future
hahahahaha the joy of reading and learning new things when you dont have to spend a single cent!!! XD

crap
it wasnt supposed to go this way
its not even a week and here i am struggling with it
i felt it wasnt fair to you if i kept going on with no progress
maybe i really wasnt suited for this in the first place
i'm so sorry i had to put such an abrupt end to it like this and i hope i didnt leave you with a poor impression
i do feel very bad about it
but i must thank you very much for the opportunity you gave me even though we were complete strangers :)

you held me through it all and you never let me fall :)

Just Feel Better

2009-03-01T12:49:00.003+08:00

i went to the gym with josh again on friday
boy...like the picture,it wasnt as simple as it looked XD
i tried doing all those routine exercises i did before i went to taiwan but only managed to finish it a part of it
in fact, arms and chest areas hurt like hell now
and that josh was comical
he saw me having trouble doin my last few sets of crunches then he came over as i went up each time, he said..
'no char siew pao, no lo mai gai, no taiwan xiang chang, no ji pai'
it was tough enough doing it and worse when i tried to control laughing while doin XD

there were other things that looked simple...at least it was until recently
all it took was just one 'trigger' to mess up the whole...balance of it
i'm doing my best on this one and i'm not sure how long it will take
this part isnt meant for all the readers, just to those that i've shared with yesterday
pay no attention if you dont understand me here

anyway, cgm and service was really good
we were on the topic of building relationships
its really hard when you think about it, maintaining a good friendship with all your friends
sometimes they just dont have the time for you because of their other friends, school, work, yada yada
and likewise for ourselves as well
i dunno man...at times you try your best to find time with her/him but they just brush you away
well...in any case i just hope to be the best friend i can be to all my friends and be there for em when they need me :)

I'm tired of holding on to all things i oughta leave behind
its really getting old and...i think i need a little help this time...

This Afternoon

2009-02-25T21:10:00.005+08:00

a little something to get past the day :P

dont walk in front of me,
cause i may not follow
dont walk behind me,
cause i'm not sure how to lead
just walk beside me and be my friend always

Better hang on if you're tagging along, cause we will be doin this till six in the mornin' :)

Audience of One

2009-02-23T00:55:00.003+08:00

its been one heck of a busy week
i've been out practically everyday
either catching up with old friends, church or out recky-ing for some things
me will just tell you guys about one or two of these days
i'll never finish if i type everything out XD
and i thank my mom for being so understanding that i couldnt have dinner with her everyday
although i do miss her cooking...
'you never know what you're missin till you've lost it'
eating food outside during the time outside really made me appreciate her cooking
may be weird for a guy but i think i should really try cooking together with her one day in the kitchen XD

on wednesday night we celebrated cindy's birthday at clarke quay!!!
cant really remember the name...mai mason or something like that
supposedly its in french
anyway, some of my cg members and sarah members were there too
it was a night fulla fun and laughter as we watched the games played by cindy and a few others
and the forfeits for losing XD
cindy looked so pretty!!!
she was dressed like a princess with that white dress of hers and the tiara =D
i also met some other people for the first time...
xiao hui, maple, joel and many others which i cant remember their names
shucks, me never been good at remembering many people names at one goXD
and well...in one way or another... i had trouble
hmm..no scratch that, not trouble
more of 'no clicking power' with my cg members
i'm trying my best to integrate with them but its just so...difficult at times
when you dont really get their inside jokes and the silly things they laugh about
it does get lonely and feeling left out at times
and i dont blame em, i guess its part of being the new guy
there's still time and i intend to use it to get to know them better!!!

then yesterday we celebrated another birthday!! my good ol' sister sarah turns 21!!!
well...not yet exactly but soon
we celebrated at costa sands chalet
and it was one helluva good celebration, huat ar =D
hehehe you shoulda seen her when she opened the present our old W331 cg members gave her
she was screaming like crazy i thought she was gonna burst XD
i'm glad she liked it after all that hunting josh and i did at taka last week
the food was also...like ah siao always say, 'up ar!'
which either he meant expensive or high class
aiya sama sama la ar XD as long as you get my flow
it was also a funny night with josh, sam chew and i discussing about a certain someone
someone that makes sam chew shrink in horror and josh's hair on his arms stand XD
hahahaha their faces are always full of it when they see her getting close to them
i dont have any side effects like them...yet =P
ok enough with this crazy talk XD
both of em stayed back in the chalet while i had to head home
yeah, my mom didnt allow me to stay overnight
i didnt want to start an argument with her anyway and she had her reasons..whatever they are for doing so
just hope that i'll be free when i turn 21

i've been thinking of our conversation yesterday and yeah, i'm glad i went ahead to talk to you
it was tough when i thought about how to bring it up to you
and all the things that could go wrong
but thank God it didnt :)
looking back at a year ago,
we really went a little too far ahead of ourselves...or at least i did on my part
silly me thinking it was love at first sight,
and all that led me to feeling like a complete train wreck inside during the past few months
things like the 'love at first sight thingy' probably only happens in fairy tales and movies i guess..who knows?
i'm really thankful all the friends who lended me their listening ear and patience during this time
without em, would never have really recovered
well anyway, i'm relieved we can still be friends
i do hope we can go back to how we used to be all fun and laughter =D
and i'm happy for you :)

days blurred into each other though everything seemed clear

In These Arms

2009-02-15T23:32:00.003+08:00

the reason to never bring animals for weddings XD
anyway, 3 days back into singapore and i still cant believe it myself
it feels so...surreal, like a dream
i had this crazy imagination from time to time of me waking up from this dream and finding myself in my dorm bed
i'm still trying to adjust to the hot and humid weather here
but hey..at least the air here is much much cleaner
and i'm lovin the magnificent view from my room!!! =D

it was valentine's yesterday and heck...yeah me still is single XD
which has its advantages
anyway we had to do a present exchange after service
me got a whole bag fulla snacks and sweets from yizhen
because they start with the letter 's' and it was sweet of her to draw some cute pictures on the package :)
unfortunately, i'm not the type who eat snacks often but i'll still try to finish it
on the other hand, i had to get a present for flora
'e-ni-my-ni-mini-mo' didnt know what she liked so i just went with my intuition
thank goodness she found the forever friends teddy bear cute and liked it =D
after that, some of us had to go off for some reasons
but the rest stayed for pm before having frog porridge for dinner at clementi
i found it quite surprising for some people to not like to eat that
not that its anything bad, just...surprising XD
its not that gross and i have eaten much worse....things
like...well, maybe lets not go there =P
i guess cause my mom kinda like forced me to eat everything she cooked when i was young
so i dont have much trouble eating almost anything...except for bitter gourd *ugh, yuck*
i still have trouble trying to eat that since young
yeah after that, sarah, josh and i went back home while the rest went to party the night away

met up with josh today to do some shopping for....something
then after that we met sitong, sarah and sam chew
all of them except sarah came for a short while before they had to leave
thank you guys really,
i appreciate the time each of you took off to fellowship together despite being so busy =D
yup, so sarah and i went to watch the first of many movies soon after
'valkyrie' at cineleisure
guess who we saw....
our big brother JH was there too XD
then we saw sitong, her sister and her cousin there as well
hahahaha, the way we met sure was funny XD
you shoulda seen sarah's face, she looked so...stunned and guilty at the same time =P
anyway, it was a pretty interesting movie about hitler's germany and treason
it was a very very nice day, thank you to all my homies for making it possible
you would really never know how to appreciate the people around you until you've been away from them for some time

man, i sure got a busy week ahead...

mon: meeting with my grandpa for lunch then gymming with josh

tues: going with kenneth yeo to bras basah to check out some stuff for my new hobby then meeting sarah for more exercise (i know, i cant believe it either XD) and dinner

wed: medical checkup at cmpb ( good grief!!! the distance...) and maybe spending some time with my poly friends in the evening before rushing off for cindy's birthday dinner

thurs: dinner with mah brotherhood near the policeman's house XD

fri, sat and sun as usual...spending time at church and with my homies =D

i'd tell you i'd never leave you and love you till the end of time, if you were in these arms tonight :)

Hmm...

2009-02-15T12:10:00.002+08:00

Basic Principles:
no matter what, no matter when, no matter who,
any man has a chance to sweep any woman off her feet
....you just need the right broom =D

life is not the amounts of breath you take, its the moments that take your breath away

Take Me Away

2009-02-13T14:01:00.006+08:00

Finally!!!
back in home sweet home!!!
I have been waiting so long for this day
a super duper big thank you to JH, Elyn, Josh and mah brotherhood for coming down to the airport to see me
i needed the help with all my stuff anyway XD

typical singaporeans...everything also buy XD

aiyooo i feel so bad for going back with my brotherhood and not the rest....
Josh, Elyn and JH wanted to gimme a surprise, but.... alamaaaaaaaak *smack forehead*
so so so so so so sorry to the three of you
and sitong too...she wanted to come down to the airport on the way home from school
but i told her to go home instead to get some rest,
thank you you silly gal XD
what matters is its from the heart and i appreciate it :)
thank you to everyone else who called and sms-ed
argh geez, i'm feeling a little groggy from the lack of sleep yesterday
after having supper with the brotherhood,
i started unpacking all my stuff and it was already 3+ in the morning by the time i was done
so the stubborn me decided to might as well stay up all the way since i had to leave the house at 5 for pm
*ti ki some more la* i tried sleeping earlier but nope...just cant for some reason
pm was great by the way...never felt so refreshed for so long :)
tomorrow i still have to get up early to go help ouyang
never thought i'd be this busy after i came back

sorry if you were waiting for 'around taiwan in 7 days part 3' but me completely forgot about what happened so i'll just leave it at that

met up with the crazy sarah, cindy, and for the first time, charlene and benny after pm
it was nice talking to them over breakfast...well,over their breakfast because sarah wanted to go to mac XD
first drink ordered in the morning as predicted by sarah (actually you people would prolly guessed it too)...
'auntie, kopi gao ji puey!!'
havent had that since...six months ago 0.o
then at macs sarah wanted to take photos with me
but...not with that kinda hairstyle i had she wasnt
it was horrible and uber untidy
so i could not resist the temptation to go for a haircut earlier!!!
she on the other hand ck tang-ed as much as possible when we were at mac XD
from 9:15 to 9:45 then finally to 10 before she decided to go to work *tsk tsk*
anyway me cant wait to meet the rest of the group later =D

i gotta go meet momomolissa later to pass her her johnnie walker XD
she's super le...december already booked me to buy hard liquor
the wines and beer were taken by mk at DFS too =P
sorry to the rest if you wanted alcohol...gotta book early
like i told edmund
first come, first serve basis...no biaseness XD
speaking of buying things,
shucks..that reminds me,i havent got the valentine's day gift for the gift exchange tomorrow :X
what to buy what to buy what to buy????

I could turn the other way, take control and make a change

Around Taiwan In 7 Days!! (Part 2)

2009-02-08T14:34:00.021+08:00

I just saw this week's service online earlier at noon
couldnt get up in time for the 10am service after going to sleep at 5 in the morning
yesterday ah siao and i went cycling around taipei after midnght until 3 plus in the morning
and i coulda sworn the distance we cycled was like......too much
i'm having a little cramps on my legs and butt because of that...sheesh
anyway Pastor's sermon was hilarious but it was quite an eye opener
indeed, women are complex creatures XD
the things you thought you knew about the opposite sex =P

alright enough with the talking and back to the where we went last week
i remember after anping in tainan, we were going to a place called kenting but before that,
we had a short stopover at kaoshiung for some snacks
this was one of the mrt stations..i think the name was formosa boulevard or something like that

jam-packed as always

i have to say the people in the kaoshiung mrt are less disciplined compared to those in taipei
oh...i prolly havent told you guys yet (although people like Cindy and Chris know since they went before)
the taipei people actually queue up in front of the train doors
and i dont mean those chapalang queues like in singapore...orderly ones, along the lines painted on the floor
not to mention, they wait until those alighting have left before they board the train
seriously, singaporeans should really learn from em instead of blocking the doors and rushing in even before the people can alight
i hope none of you are like that =P

french fries, onion rings and choc mint smoothie =)

after that, it was four or five hour bus journey to kenting
highways, country side views with rice and fish farms along the coast of taiwan
(for some reason, the song 'country roads' by john denver kept ringing in my head during this period XD)
we arrived quite late into the night, into somewhere called 船帆石
and this's the place where we stayed...

interesting lights huh? our room had a pub ambience XD

made with real sand and sea shells...or at least looked like it =P

more activity the next day!!!
mostly beach activities that is...this jet ski started all the comical stuff that happened
dont ask and i wont tell =P

we sat all these alright, super fun =)

including these...

i gotta admit with joanna, we really looked like kukus with the head gear
dont ask me how i got the flowery hawian-style shorts too XD
more pictures of the surrounding area...

alright, thats all for now
i'll update you guys more tomorrow on the final parts of the trip =)

the chorus of one of my personal favourite songs since young...
cause i try and try to forget you girl but its just so hard to do
everytime you do that thing you do
can you guess the song? XD

Around Taiwan in 7 days!!! (Part 1)

2009-02-06T21:06:00.026+08:00

Finally!!!
after almost two weeks of pia-ing my report, its over at last!!
i just gave my prof my report and he said he will take a look at it over the weekend
honestly, even now i'm feeling nervous about my results, i hope i did it right
i can only cross my fingers and pray that he gives good results
i really need em to enter uni

last week, my classmates and i actually went on a trip touring literally the whole Taiwan
yup we visit the eastern, southern and western parts of it
they uploaded most of the photos on fb so you prolly can go take a look
if you're wondering how come we could go outta taipei for so long....
actually Taiwan has one week of public holidays for CNY!!! XD
in the meantime, lemme recall what we did there....
oh and btw, most ( around 98% XD) of the photos are courtesy of ah siao

we first went to Tainan via the high speed rail,
heard it travels like 200+km/hr 0.o
like the name suggests, its an area in the south
let the photos do the talking...

inside the train

we reached there after a few hours...

looks like any other city dont you think...but hold your horses, there's more XD

supper after a long night :)

安平豆花 anyone?

we were all tired from the travelling so we took the rest of the night into the hotel room watching myth busters and some taiwanese variety shows like 我猜
anyway, next morning at the hotel....

breakfast!!! buffet style XD

following that we went 安平 (an ping),

background's an old fortress built by the dutch,
had an uber weird name but i cant remember it though =P
and all the stupid crazy things we did there.... XD

abstract ar...abstract

oei soldier!!! climb the wall!

ok there's more silly things we did but that's enough for now XD
i can show you guys when i get back
after that we went to the lin mo niang park (林默娘记念公园)

she's the one...heard she's also known as the sea goddess
handsome guys, no? XD

its a very nice big place...
when there's a big patch of land and strong wind, there's....

kite flying!!!!

really reminded of the times how my dad used to take me out for kite flying outside our house and in marine parade back in the days when i was just a small kid
in the blink of an eye,
its been almost 13 years since he passed away
but i'm sure he's up above, watching me alongside God :)

anyway, back to the story...
after that we watched the beautiful sunset at the seaside just behind the statue

zomg...this is taking far too long and there's still so much to blog about but i'm so tired
i think i'll stop about the trip for now
this post will prolly have to go into parts 2, 3 and maybe even 4

and oh...i was just talking to jing yi few days ago, catching up and all
she's still the same old friendly and crazily funny person as before
but she has really grown a lot spiritually as compared to the gal i knew back in sec sch
and though she doesnt read my blog, i just wanna say "i'm proud of you jing!!!"
i really thank God for friends like her
not to mention, she's still as pretty as before XD
(okay zu if you're reading this,
we've known each other for almost a decade so we can practically guess each other's actions,
if you're gonna say what i think you're gonna say, DONT START XD)
anyway, seems that gal got a job at a childcare centre after her 'A' levels
and she's enjoying every moment of it
i'm glad she found something that she likes =D

whoohoooooooooo!!!! its less than a week before i go back
but there's so much to do after that *sigh*

spending time with my mom and sis
catching up with all my church homies, mah brotherhood and all my buddies,
meeting my new cg (i still get nervous when i think about this :X)
getting in touch with my new hobbies *evil grin*
oh yeah man, packing up my room to make space for those hobbies
preparing for my final presentation
uni application,
training with josh for the pft ( something tells me its not gonna be easy XD)
last but not least....i would just like to stay at home and rot away for one or two days to feel the comfort of my home =D

Believe in me, cause i was made for chasing dreams :)

Time After Time

2009-01-26T02:57:00.007+08:00

i just got back from having reunion dinner with my classmates in LJ's lab
the weather outside was at 9 degrees!!!
its funny though, the streets outside my school was practically empty
no cars on the roads, no people on the pavements...at least thats what adrian said
zomg, this year feels so different la
no reunion dinner with my family, no ang paos, cant get to see my friends...
i miss home :(
anyway, it was a self-improvised steam boat
but it was good nevertheless thanks to adrian's and mk's shopping for food
after almost half an hour of preparing the food,
washing and defrosting the meat,
trying to cut vegetables with what little kitchen tools we had in the lab,
we finally sat down to eat from 7+pm till 1 in the morning
of course, we didnt eat all the time during the 6 hours (no one can do that right....or can they? XD)
the amount of meat and veg they bought was crazy, it filled almost the whole long rectangular table
but we still managed to finish almost all of it (josh's so gonna kill me for this XD)
okay josh, before you get mad, you have to understand it was our only meal that day
most, if not all of us didnt eat anything since last night before this meal =P
its become sorta habit during the weekend over the past five months *evil grin*
we thought our dinner was kinda without entertainment so we watched a movie marathon of 3 movies in a row with a small com moniter screen in front of us =D
so we ate, watched the movies and talked about many many things
including all the weird things we guys did when we were sleeping back in our dorm
you will probably have laughed your head off if you heard about them
even mine came as a surprise to me XD
gee, i'm so bloated from the food and drinks

first movie we watched was secret
yeah its the one by jay chou
at first i thought it was some whacked-up movie but he really won my respect
not only with the interesting plot but with all the piano playing
actually i really wanted to learn the piano too but i guess i'm a little too old to start learning now :(
oh well...there goes me again XD
then it was followed by army daze
yeap, the movie back from the 90s
'when the chicken learns to swim, the duck will catch the worms' XD
one of my movie favourites and it never fails to make me laugh despite the number of times i watched it
finally, another adrian recommendation; 10 promises to my dog
its a jap movie but it was a really touching story between a girl and her dog :)
i remember i ended up tearing at the movies secret and 10 promises to my dog 0.o

realized i have very not really many photos of my friends and i
should really make it a habit to take some pictures when i get back
i'm counting on sarah and josh to pass the cam-whoring virus to me XD
anyway, me got a really bad sore throat right now and a little headache
hope they dont last long
its goin to be 4 in the morning in a few minutes so i better go get some sleep soon
新年快乐!!!

if you're lost,you can look and you'll find me, time after time
if you fall,i'll catch you, i'll be waiting, time after time =D

Everywhere

2009-01-23T23:39:00.007+08:00

its that time of the year again!!!! =D
and its also time for the numbers in your bank book to start jumping by a few hundred dollars
well...usually it jumps in the negative direction because of the all the spending XD
anyway, some wishing from the awfully small knowledge of mandarin proverbs...
祝你们恭喜发财，万事如意，年年有鱼，龙满精神!!
hope all of you have a blast celebrating cny and a prosperous year ahead :)

so today joanna and i went to our lab for spring cleaning (God,i hate this part of cny =P)
it wasnt exactly nice when you discover much of the lab has not been cleaned for almost 3 to 4 years
you shoulda seen the layer of dust in one of the fume hoods, it was as thick as the cloth i was using, good grief!!
the books also had its own 'presents'
there were some silvery insects came crawling out from some of the older books
and it was hilarious when our good friend joanna kept screaming and jumping XD
some of our seniors said its a type 书虫...which translates to bookworm? 0.o
and this suddenly brought me to think of christina
cause she's a bookworm i guess...and a helluva big one at that XD
me also found a book by one of my favourite authors stephen king among the shelves of books!!!
havent had the chance to read any books for the past few months except the one josh sent to me

the campus has been uber ulu-ated of late cause most of the students went back to their homes for cny
cant get used to the places being so quiet
but at least movies and youtube loads so much faster =P
i've been working on elyn's present since i came back in the afternoon
and people said this type of thing (sorry its a secret in case she pops by my blog, so i'll just refer to it as the 'thing' XD) was supposed to train your patience
so here i am shivering in the 13 degree air, been trying to work out this...thing
BUT the more i work on it, the more i'm going crazy!!!
no worries elyn, i'll finish it by the time i get back.....i hope =/

i've was chatting with sarah from mon to wed
she comes online almost exactly the same time on each of those days...like some clockwork, sheesh =P
thank you kak sayang for your company not just for this week but all the previous times
although we were just chatting and crapping about almost anything and everything,
it really did relieve all the stress :)
sometimes joanna would be wondering why i was laughing like a crazy fella while looking at the com XD
not forgetting you even for just the simple chatting sessions almost every night
and all mah brothers josh, jh and sam for all your advice and encouragement from time to time
all of you helped me one way or another and i'm grateful =D

and oh...helped ouyang to carry out the 'mission' *evil grin*
hope she gets all that she's wishing for on that special day :)
she and i were talking about some things to do with her anniversary with her bf
and she wanted me to help her with something
i think its really sweet of her to do all those things for her bf
may not look like it but i'm a complete sucker for romantic gals =P

P.S. sarah: 'crazy i am,yes i know' XD

cause you're everywhere to me, when i close my eyes its you i see :)

Livin On A Prayer

2009-01-20T23:22:00.006+08:00

alright!! today's post is about video games =D
in fact, this picture reminds me of agni and rudra in devil may cry 3
those two ancient statues with their heads on their swords, pretty comical bunch XD

anyway, i just caught resident evil: degeneration online

pretty nice movie, just that this time the main characters are animated instead of milla jovovich like the previous three
if you're plannin on catching it soon then you should probably skip this part until the next section =P
the movie brought back some old characters from the resident evil game series =)
leon, claire, hunnigun...was wondering why the lady in the red dress, ada wasnt inside
although she just a game character, i must admit she looked hot back in RE4 =X
the japs have a way with drawing female animation characters if you get what i mean =P
at least its back to the usual undead zombies rather than the las plagas infested villagers aka ganados in RE4
and yeah,its the t-virus back in action
not to mention the g-virus and the boss who has a huge eye on his right arm from RE2

and the movie sure brings back the memories from playing the RE series games at night when i was in back in primary school
i still remember the first time i played RE2 and RE3 in the night just after i watched 双天知尊 III (not sure if the words are correct but its the gambling drama with zoey tay and li nan xing in it ) and i ended up not being able to sleep that night XD
hahahaha it took me almost the whole december holidays to finish up the two games because i only dared to play in the day after that night for that period of time
slowly as time passes, i became immune to this kind of horror and i just play this games for fun of it =D
i guess even you would be if you played your fair share of horror rpg games like the silent hill and fatal frame series apart from RE
thinking back, realized how silly i was with that stunned face and sudden jump when a zombie suddenly came into my character's face
the kind that makes you so afraid of going to the toilet or walking in the dark for fear of some zombie grabbing you from the back XD
still, cant wait to play RE5 when i get back!!!!

time sure passes quickly as sarah said today while i was chatting with her but i still feel its a little slow at times
might be because of that someone or that group of people that i missed dearly =/
i had to pass on my work to two new students i met today from the university; jimmy and roland
pretty nice guys but i still have trouble trying to tell them stuff in mandarin
i know i know, 5 months into taiwan and i still cant carry out a proper conversation in pure mandarin XD
i'm still trying
look forward to seeing you guys in another 23 more days!!!

Take my hand and we will make it i swear :)

Believe In Me...

2009-01-18T23:50:00.002+08:00

Believe
Staind
Illusion of Progress

I sit alone and watch the clock
Trying to collect my thoughts
All I think about is you

And so I cry myself to sleep
And hope the devil I don't meet
In the dreams that I live through

Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life's not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams

All the smiles you've had to fake
And all the shit you've had to take
Just to lead us here again

I never have the things to say
To make it all just go away
To make it all just disappear

Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life's not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams

It's my life
It's my choice
Hear my words
Hear my voice
And just believe

I sit alone and watch the clock
Trying to collect my thoughts
And all I think about is you

If you believe in me
Life's not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams

Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life's not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams

100 years

2009-01-15T06:40:00.007+08:00

some of you will probably wonder why here i am blogging at six plus in the morning
it really has something to do with the picture above
sure, i was tired from all the work but
thanks to mk's thunder-like snoring
feels like i'm in one of those WW2 games like the medal of honour or call of duty series where there is heavy artillery and motars shelling the place, barrage after barrage
you know like the allies attack on omaha beach back in D Day, 6th June 1944
only difference is i dont see the ground around me blow up or shake
apart from that difference, mk really makes a good human 5.1 dolby digital system when he's sleeping XD
okay okay,i didnt mean to sound mean
and i dont blame him either because no one would want to be snoring if they could control it =D
then maybe some of you will ask "its been almost five months, havent you got used to it?"
i have i have, its just that for some reason today my brain's not so 'shut' from the outside world
but me will just KO if i'm tired enough
anyway i was actually awakened two hours earlier,
and i gave up trying to go back into sleep few minutes ago so here i am =P

i havent really been updating much cause well...
there's really nothing much to say when you do routine work everyday
one or two of you may have heard,
after a few months of trial and error and ending up with disappointments here and there,
i've succeeded in enclosing the person in the giant bubble ( no picture, but i have a video though)
but the bubble bursts as soon as it caves inwards (probably due to atmospheric pressure or something like that, sometimes i'm not so sure myself XD) and touches the person
so my prof still wasnt satisfied,
this time he wanted something that can hold the bubble for a time limit ( apart from the other experiments i had to do)
in which he suggested...100 seconds 0.0 ( and i thought i heard wrongly when he said that)
thank God joanna came to help me and so we racked our brains on how to do it
and here we have it =)
we just managed to complete this yesterday and we did it without the human inside trial run
it could only last about a minute
so we still have some work to do
but hey, in all things give thanks to Him!!!
at least we are almost there, Praise the Lord =D

see ya in another month!!!

there's never a wish better than this, when you only got a 100 years to live =)

Fade To Black

2009-01-03T20:16:00.007+08:00

after four long months.....
i finally met familiar faces (apart from my classmates) here in taiwan
yup, my cousins came to taiwan and has been touring it since last friday
unfortunately, they only came to taipei late yesterday night and left earlier this afternoon =(
but well at least it was better than nothing
it was really a big relief to see them :)
why do i say that?
really made me reflect about some things in life
the family ties and the friendships that one has around them
those who are around for you when you're in your darkest moments and you need a helping hand
it might not seem much to you guys,
but i really appreciate those who stood by me these times when i'm in taiwan
and sit through online conversations listening to me rambling and complaining about...practically everything
it also made me realize how homesick i was (which in a way, its bad aint it?)

anyway back to what i was saying,
yeah they were living in quite a high class hotel, the howard plaza hotel
invited me for a buffet breakfast at the hotel this morning
i had to get up at 8 this morning and i was soooo not in the mood to go with all the fatigue overwhelming me
was thinking of just going back to bed when my alarm rang
but i'm glad i went in the end
all the fun and laughter really made me forget about all my workload and deadlines
even though it was just a short moment :)
O.o they said i grew even thinner than when they last saw me which was in err....August?
all this while i thought the opposite because of the huge amount of rice i've been eating :P
well,its good news still (not to worry josh, i still exercise...honest!!)
we took quite a number of photos but most of em by a polaroid camera =P
anyway here's one of em...

Dear Lord
i'm still trying my best to handle this situation and while its not easy
please grant me your strength to remain strong
to focus my heart upon you and not of the things around me

出头天

2009-01-02T22:49:00.003+08:00

happy new year to everyone out there!!! :)
and may all your wishes and dreams come true in the coming new year!!

2008 has been really quite a huge hit for me
there were many many happy things that happened during the course of last year
of course, there were also unhappy ones too
but well...lets not dwell on the past and concentrate on the future instead =D
one of the happiest things that occurred to me during the past year was returning into the loving arms of God
and getting to know W331
it really felt sad when i heard the news of it disbanded
but its time to join a new family; W452
oh yeah how could i forget...
a big thank you to sitong for sacrificing her phone bill to call me

the first time during lunch time to speak to W331,
man, i really miss fellowship with them
all the fun and laughter
not forgetting josh and sam's 'wahoooooooooo' XD
wait a min, how did i get involved with the two of them anyway O.o
not to worry, we will meet again in no time!!! :)

and also the second time during dinner to talk to W452 (including sarah also XD)
must admit it really felt intimidating to talk to a buncha dudes and dudettes i never met before in my life
....even over the phone
but turned out they were nice people and didnt bite =P
and a big fool i was to fall for sarah's fake voice!!
*smack forehead* sheesh, must have sounded like an idiot to them over the speaker
but am glad that it brought laughter to them anyway =D
i really do look forward to meeting and getting to know you guys too!!!

As for the brotherhood,
not to worry zu,
i will never forget you guys as well
dinner's on me when i get back as promised!!!
zomg...then its time to go 'left, left, left,right' in a few months for all of us (except shen)
looking at it on the bright side,
at least dont need to stress any brain cells solving some math problem or figuring out science questions for two years XD
after you shave your head and put on your helmet,
just follow orders and do what the sergeant says

on my side of things,i did make some resolutions for 2009
its gonna get tough but perservere i will :)
i wanna say thank you and much love to you guys!!
you people know who you are :)

life's simple
you make choices and you dont look back
人生不怕风浪,只怕自己没志气...

Always Somewhere

2008-12-28T23:25:00.031+08:00

first of all, a happy 2008th birthday to my Lord!! wonder how does it feel to be 2000 over years old :P
i admit the picture i chose had something to do with....healing XD
the past week has been quite a busy week for me so i didnt really have any time to blog and i apologize :)
anyway, it has been quite a fruitful one despite all the workload
sent many sms-es out on christmas back to singapore and i'm glad that many of them replied even though it was expensive :D (no worries if you didnt reply :P)
oh yeah, if you didnt know
apparently taiwan doesnt have any public holidays for christmas
so it was like any other usual day for me; cooped up in the lab for 10 over hours on christmas day
but hey, at least God granted me success for my project :P
big thank you to the W331-ians whom sent me a package from the tiny island!!!
surprised and touched i was
loved the presents and card too :)

then not to mention the long grandmother story email to sarah last friday
i coulda sworn that was the longest email i typed in my life but i'm glad i did anyway
talked about many many things we didnt have the chance to talk about
and that silly girl wants to take me on a shopping spree for clothes!!! XD
i hope you do mean it sarah XD
those of you who know me well enough can tell that i've never been much of a shopper (probably that is the reason why i still get lost in the orchard area at times :P),
ESPECIALLY for clothing and accessories
i get the feeling i'll be carrying more of the things she will buy rather than those bought by me ( if any XD)
but i'm sure it will be fun and i do very much look forward to that day hahahahaha

and an email to you as well
didnt expect your reply to be that long
but it really did cheer me up after such a long day
i'm just feeling happy knowing that everything is alright :)

well enough talking and here the pictures from our journey to 日夜潭
direct translation's in ang moh is called sun moon lake
somewhere in the middle of the taiwanese island close to tai zhong
so here we are after a five hour bus ride...

a view from the hotel's lobby

more pictures of the jetty...

check out our hotel room or rather what li jiong and adrian calls our VIP room...

my bad, wasnt paying attention to the camera...admiring the scenery XD

oh thats patrina by the way, li jiong's gf
came all the way to taiwan to spend her holidays with him (aww :P)
more views from our room...

floating garden le

then we decided to take a boat ride around the lake so here are more pictures..

waiting at the lobby and queuing up for the coffee like typical singaporeans XD

on the boat and ready to go

argh there are many others and this is getting uber tiring (or maybe i'm just plain lazy :P)
i'll post the rest on fb some time later this week
anyway it sounds funny...
but i still find myself having that "bobbing up and down" feeling ( the type that when you go for boat rides) when i stand still or sit down after the return bus ride since yesterday till this afternoon =/
sheesh, it does gets kinda dizzy
josh, now i know how you feel about long bus rides back to m'sia XD

well its back to work again but at least its only a three day work week hahaha :P
even better, no presentation this week!!!!!!

seeing everyone pushing to be part of the cg really makes me wonder about how i'll integrate into this new family when i get back
i admit i had my fears about...many things, and i still do
it has never been easy for me to change some things on such a short notice
but seeing the four of them pushing so hard outta their comfort zone motivates me to do the same as well :)
at least i've taken the first step to know my cgl although online only :(

miss you where i've been

I Wont Last A Day Without You

2008-12-14T23:00:00.006+08:00

this post is specially dedicated to the newly-wed couple,
just wanna say a big CONGRATS to Elyn & Shaun on their holy matrimony!!!!!!! :)
again, i'm super duper mega ultra sorry for not being able to be there
but i'm sure it was superb and flawless XD
God bless the both of you
and lemme come up with some mandarin phrases to express my wishes
er hem...
(forgive me if the words are a little off, my mandarin's still somewhat poor)

恭嘉新婚，
祝你们夫妻俩，
白头偕老，
百年好合，
(and last but not least, how can i forget XD)
早生贵子，
龙凤呈祥

they say a woman looks her prettiest when she's in her wedding dress
and her husband will be looking like a knight in shining armour riding on a white horse
(i suppose instead of a horse, its more of a merc or rolls royce now XD)
cant wait to see the photos，please post em up if you have it!!! :)

can you guess who sang the song for the title of this post?
i think some of my friends will be shocked if they found me listening to such music *evil laughter*
its one of the oldest tracks in my music library with the exception of elvis presley's "are you lonesome tonight?" and chubby checker's "limbo rock"
i know i know, these are literally antiques XD
but i really do find the song a meaningful one :P
sometimes being away from your comfort zone and all may not be such a bad thing
i've really learnt to treasure certain things after....all that has happened
things which i took for granted when i had em,
things i dearly wanted,
things i thought will always be there so i took my own time
sadly, losing some of them in the process of "learning the hard way"
but God gives and takes away
i'll still praise my heavenly father no matter
this trip has definitely changed me...for the better of course :P

P.S: elyn
a promise's a promise, leave a day free for me when i'm back :P

i can take all the madness the world has to give but i wont last a day without you :)

Stained Glass Masquerade

2008-12-08T20:57:00.004+08:00

today is not a holiday!!!
for those of you who are enjoying hari raya back in sg, lucky you!
and there's also no holiday for christmas although they do celebrate it :(

the past week's been getting a little cold
and worst still, it rained today...which means the temperature's goin lower tomorrow!!!
at least its still within the double digit range XD
for those of you who are completely clueless, the temperature's around 10-16 degrees most of the time now
once in a while it will go up to between 18-20
i'll probably end up wearing 3-4 layers of t-shirts come january where it will be in the single digit range XD

seeing all the photos of chris, sam chew, sarah and jh on ouyang's facebook really made me miss you guys
ugh, i really feels so super duper mega ultra bad to miss chris's birthday and upcoming elyn's wedding
not to mention miss celebrating with them christmas, new year and CNY
i miss them so much i even think about them i fall asleep and at times, dream about em too
*sigh* it was really a bad time to get out of sg aint it? :(
please please do take more photos and send me !!!
=/ must not be emo, stay positive sam!!

last weekend we went to the taipei IT fair near the taipei 101 tower
it was something like sg's one but we didnt buy anything from it anyway
it wasnt exactly cheap and some of them were even more expensive than those in sg
then after dinner we went to the marketplace supermarket
and finally....combing so many parts of taipei's supermarkets,i finally found my detergent!!!!
er....ok i know it sounds weird to those who dunno what am i talking about
but i can only use one type of detergent to make the giant bubble....or at least for playing safe XD
then something really weird happened...
all of us automatically walked over to the alcohol section
although we arent much of drinkers (with the exception of mk )
our good friend mk almost ended up buying a barcadi and baileys
but anyway we ended up buying more beer and storing it up in our cabinet for er...soon

it was probably due to the friday night before we ended up drinking when it got a little cold
adrian, li jiong and i went to family mart to get some beer (mk was out er....doin something)
and the rest of them woulda told you my face looked really like a tomato after a big can of taiwan beer
but i was still sober,honest :P
then they argued which drunk person will say they are drunk?
hahahahhahaha we even tried the sg traffic police alcohol test in our dorm XD
must have sounded like a buncha crazy people in the rooms beside us with the way we laughed
for those of you drivers who still havent kena stopped at those routine checkpoints yet
sometimes when they havent got the breath analyser
you gotta walk in a straight line with one leg in front of the other,
something like an improvised cat walk to see if you can balance yourself
....and i failed, not once but twice! XD
but we all thought there was a chance that test had to do more with balance rather than alcohol
which means i dont have balance =.=
anyway i completely dont touch alcohol when i drive so nothing to worry about :)
well, thats about it

selamat hari raya untuk mereka meraikan ia
(pardon me if its a little off,malay's kinda rusty now XD)

when i take a look around, everybody seems so strong and i know they will soon discover that i dont belong

P.S: happy belated 19th birthday to chris!!!! :)

Thunder

2008-11-30T20:50:00.005+08:00

ok, i know this picture just gives you the wrong ideas but i just keep laughing when i think about a cat playing around with their owner's lingerie XD
me too lazy to post the photos taken at the steamboat yesterday and the trip to the taipei zoo todayso i'll post it some other time....if i do remember =P

during the past few weeks i've been praying about something that has been bothering me for quite some time
on fri, i thought i heard His answer to me through a song
i've had my doubts
pardon me for asking only elyn, josh and jh about it cause they were the only ones online that day
even after asking them i still didnt know if it was just purely me or it came from Him
then it came again when i was watching a scene of an anime
its at times like this when the song lyrics and the video just suddenly came ringing at you
even though you heard and seen it many times
cause well...when the answer turns out to be exactly what you want,
i suppose one will keep wondering if it was just themselves thinking about it or did it really came from Him
i wont say i'm 100% sure now but i've a clearer picture of where i'm heading....i think *scratch head* =/

"i try to read between the lines, i try to look into your eyes and i want a simple explanation for what i'm feeling inside"

I'm Feeling You

2008-11-21T23:02:00.011+08:00

Finally!!!! the weekend is here!
been crazily buried in work and staying in the lab for almost 11 hours everyday trying to get that ppt done
and THANK GOD he's satisfied this time
that old man's a hard dude to please
for that matter, i'm only just a poly student
not a uni student studying for his master's degree ya know
all that work load's gonna come back again on monday again
better enjoy this weekend to the max first!!!! :)

speaking of teachers....
joanna and i was given the task of improving our vietnamese friend, cong's (its pronounced as com, dont ask me why XD) english about a month ago
cong arrived at our lab just a few weeks after us to study for PhD in surface tension
puzzles me why he came all the way to a chinese speaking country to do that *scratches head* =/
we did ask him why but he always said, "i have friend in ntust, he say good"
he's married with a kid back in vietnam and plans to go back being a teacher after he graduates
which is er.....3 or 4 years from now
both of us had so much trouble communicating with him at first that we had to resort to hand signs and even drawings so that we each could just get the gist of what the other was saying XD
we teach him everyday by giving him newspaper articles to read and essays to write
then of course, comes that 'life-shortening' process of marking them the next day XD
he's improved quite a lot compared to when he first came
he still has trouble writing sentences with the tenses, grammar, vocab and all those stuff whatever that is
but at least we can communicate through speaking now XD
and well...lets just say teaching english hasnt been easy especially when one starts to lose patience from the lack of sleep (i meant both of us k =P)
although these teaching sessions still get funny at times :)
man...i've to say i'm impressed with the way our teachers taught us back in kindergarden and primary schools
it sure requires lots of patience and understanding to teach
to all the teachers and teachers-to-be out there; 佩服了!!
this photo was taken today in the lab when we were marking his essay...

look at miss joanna wang's peik ceik (its hokkien) face XD

hahahahahaha, she looks pissed alright
so sorry joanna, i just cannot help but keep laughing when i think about you explaining all that sentence structure thingy to him and he says "why like that? i dont understand" every time
after all this time, he has become quite close to us,
even brought coffee for us from vietnam few days back
wooohooo!!! :D

i've been feelin so excited about the asia conference
but cant see it online :(
can somebody please send the sermon notes that you have taken down?
argh...anybody buying the dvd? XD

oh yeah, the temperature here has also dropped quite a lot nowadays
probably what got me down with a cold and sore throat
the lowest it went was about 12 degrees on wed
everyday, its shivering like crazy when the cold wind blows into our faces
but mk and i still do walk around half naked (topless, dont think in the other direction XD) in our dorm at times
cant imagine when it comes winter time in january when the temperature's gonna drop to 8 degrees..sheesh

"gor...yong...san...ni...itch...GO!!"
initial d for the win!!
went back to watching it just a few days back
can never get enough of it
always drives the adrenaline through my veins whenever it comes to cars drifting
and the trance music just gets the mood back into eurobeat fever
well...i dont exactly watch the anime purely because of the cars...although they do play a big part *evil grin*
sometimes the characters are just plain silly and hilarious =P
and believe it or not, they do teach some valuable....lessons in life
i really really have to try this sport one day :D

speaking of music,
now i'm really fond of carlos santana's music
well...i only enjoy those that he collaborates with other artists
like chad kroeger, michelle branch (she's got really pretty eyes XD) and steven tyler
his electric guitar tunes just...stands out from the rest
havent got to the stage of appreciating his latin rock music though
in fact, he's my inspiration to mastering the electric guitar when i get back
i dunno, maybe its just me =/
jc was saying he prefers eric clapton's acoustic guitar playing style
not to mention those who like the other famous guitarists such as kid rock, buckethead, kirk hammett, herman li and who could ever forget, the one and only legendary slash
even so, i think its safe to say that we all agree on one thing;
each of them have their own unique style of playing the guitars
oh by the way...the mv rockstar by nickelback is good for laughs too XD

oh, i'm feelin the way you cross my mind :)

Reflections

2008-11-16T13:24:00.015+08:00

heelllloo once again!!!
for those wondering about my previous post (which i removed)...well, dont worry about it
i've looked on the bright side of things
come whatever may but in Him i'll never lose my hope =)
work hard now i must!!! =P

oh yes, the pictures to 台中
not much diff from taipei but definitely lesser people squeezing around

walking along ntu (national taiwan uni, not nanyang technological uni XD) to the train

the 火車/高铁 (this is what they call the bullet train) station

the train in the background is 火車 and no, there are no smoking chimneys and coal XD
anyway, we still had to take a three hour bus ride via the highway to our destination
feels different traveling intrastate though
so we checked into a hotel first and found a pretty decent one

finally after two and a half long months, a proper and soft bed!!!!! =P

rather than all that sleeping on the mattress on the hard floor zzzzz
so after that....
shop and...
eat and...
eat and
eat and
eat!!!!

look at the stuff we ended up buying
most of us just bought a shoe (or in mk's case a bag)
but our good friend joanna shopped like there was no tomorrow!!
when it comes to shopping for women,tsk tsk =P
the ones on the table are the sun biscuits (pardon me, direct translation XD)

yesterday i felt a sudden guiltiness...
listening to nickelback's "if today was your last day" on repeat mode
really made me become more...like chris used to say, more reflective
i really felt bad for missing all the special events to my friends like elyn's wedding and chris's birthday
even the national holiday events, christmas and CNY...
i remember all the happy times and the sad times where we shared our shoulders for each other to cry on
i never got to tell you guys how much i appreciate each and every one of you
and thank God for all of you as well =/

tell all your friends and loved ones how much you love and appreciate them
give them a smile or a hug even
even small things like this will brighten up their days and make them feel appreciated =)

if today was your last day and tomorrow was too late, could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Hold On The Line

2008-11-07T23:54:00.003+08:00

just got off the phone with good ol' josh
alamak, all of them W331 homies got drunk O.o
and earlier i was waiting for them to come online to webcam
sheesh...felt like a fool sitting in front of the com trying to kill time for 4 hours
its alright, i'm a guy with a big heart and they are all forgiven XD
i do regret not being able to see them one last time while i'm here in taiwan
but i'm done feeling upset and down
thanks to my good friend joanna for the comforting yesterday (sorry mk, dont whack me XD)
this was what she said;
" though you guys might go your separate ways, your friendships lasts forever and that is what really matters "
(not exactly those words, somewhere along those lines)
yeap, thank you joanna!!!
and thank you adrian (aka ah seow XD) for being so understanding
that reminds me, HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY BRO!!!!
may all your wishes and dreams come true :)

To my W331 homies:
don't think you can escape me when i get back *evil laughter*
i'll pay each of you guys a visit at your homes even if it means walking there from my home =P
in the meantime like what my 大妹 said,
since i'm here in taiwan already, might as well enjoy myself here :)
(on the weekends only unless you consider researching and experimenting with bubbles enjoying XD)

having said that,
although its just a short time period of 7 months and 17 days when i first met you guys during easter 2008,
(not to worry josh, i'll never forget what you did and i'm FOREVER thankful for my big brother)
its has really been happy and wonderful journey for me with all you dudes and dudettes
nothing any of you all say or do will ever push me away from you i can promise you that
all of your smiles and laughter will always be kept locked deep in my heart :)
and we MUST continue to meet up k
let's continue to grow in Him and work for His kingdom!!!

amidst my homesickness blues a few days back,
i heard this song "hold the line" by toto on the movie called click (yes, i watched it for the 3rd time =P)
adam sandler never fails to make me laugh
anyway for some reason the song seemed to cheer me up :)
if you thinking who on earth is this toto,
wonder no more...its a band from the 70s XD
oh man...i love the way steve porcaro (the band's pianist) combined the piano with bobby kimball's vocals and steve lukather's playing of the electric guitar
it has a very catchy tune that gets me addicted XD
anyway if you're interested, the link's below;

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MsIQNUWK2LM

i'll be going to tai zhong tomorrow and will only be back on sun
leave an email if you guys need anything :)

Someday

2008-11-06T19:58:00.004+08:00

homesickness...its a bad feeling to experience alright
i dunno why its gotten so bad when i was fine the past two months
its at times like this when i miss every tiny little thing from the familiar view of the army camp from my room window to all the familiar faces around me
on the bright side of things,
i've learned to treasure the friends around me
and i promise to treat my friends even better when i get back :)
not that i dont treat them well but....argh, you get the idea XD

thank God for you around
although it was just a simple chat on the phone about anything and everything,
it really made me feel at home,
like a shepherd who has found his lost sheep.
time just seemed to slow down and i never realised we had talked for so long
i enjoyed talking with you so much!!!!!! :)
i wished it could have been longer
but duty calls for you XD
thank you to my 大妹 for being so companionable
you got rid of that horrible feeling
and even created a smile on the inside :)

Forever And Always

2008-11-05T14:46:00.007+08:00

blargh, i hate goodbyes...
6 months, 16 days and we have to part to our own separate ways
*sigh* sad news but for the greater good
to my W331 members:
each of you contributed in your own special way in making me feel like a family,
walked through this journey together with me
and i thank you all for that
for whatever mistakes i made,
i ask for your forgiveness
and all of you will always remain a special part of me
alright, alright enough of this emo-ing before i start "unloading the blues" again

wassup with school nowadays?
well...i've got a new project that involves making bubbles XD
i know you guys must be thinking,
"what in heck's name, you fly all the way to taiwan to make bubbles?"
lets just say the bubbles i'm supposed to make are a little bigger...about the size of an adult human
in fact, i need to encapsulate a person, who wants to be my model when i get back to Singapore? :P
if you dont get what i'm talking about,
this picture should do the trick...
something like that...
but more er...improvised
i'll not go into what its gotta do with surface tension,
would probably bore you guys to death XD

life in taiwan has gone through many and i mean MANY changes
here are four of em for starters...
1) the uni life here is very different from poly, you no longer get spoon-fed (sheesh, i would assume the unis in Singapore are also like that)

2)sleeping times getting later, about 3a.m. on weekdays and 6a.m. during the weekends sometimes even 8a.m. XD but at least the amount of time i sleep remains constant at 5-6 hrs a day :)

3)managed to get rid of my (some people would call it bad :P) coffee addiction. Most probably due to being lazy to walk out a distance to get hot water. i only drink like once a week now but i still cant say no to coffee XD

4)meal times. from 3 late meals a day to only 2 meals a day now. one in the morning and one er...whaddya call a meal in between lunch and dinner? lunner? :P anyway, you get the idea. funny thing is its not cause i'm hungry that i eat but its cause i get the feeling i'm on the verge i'm getting gastric so i eat to avoid that horrible feeling. speaking of meals, i'm so SICK of the food here and i miss the food back home in Singapore like carrot cake and laksa.

can't complain man, gonna be here another 98 days T-T

yesterday, a security guard came to my dorm..my friends and i call him the "uber friendly uncle"
cause...well, for starters..he's really friendly
and he was the one who introduced everything about the dorm to us when we first reached the school
so we kinda felt closer to him compared to the other guards
in any case, he said one of our neighbours snapped
well..he didnt exactly say snapped but he used his hand to tap the side of his head XD
he said this exact words when doing that motion,
"他頭腦有問題,不要跟他有來往."
this whole...thing seemed to be quite serious
two guards were patrolling the dorm corridor the whole night
even 小黑 (the guard's dog if you dunno who is it XD) was on standby at the near the dorm entrance
that neighbour guy's a fellow Singaporean from NUS Electrical Engineering
the rest of the guys and i did get to know him a few weeks back
we said hi when we saw each other in the dorm corridors
he was looking fine and all normal
the last time i heard, he came here for attachment and was planning to return during CNY
but he has to leave the school dorm today for....whatever he did
*sigh* sad case don't you think?
for what supposed to be an attachment turns out to ruin not only his academics but his whole life

i tell you some of my dorm mates were so paranoid hahahahaha (sorry for the sudden change in mood XD)
they were so afraid of going out to take a shower for fear he might attack 'em
li jiong even latched our room door
and this was his favourite phrase to me yesterday;
"this is very serious, sam...what if he came in and killed all of us?"
everytime i heard him say that,
i end up bursting out in laughter XD
honestly, i couldnt tell if he was joking or dead serious cause of that funny face of his he always puts on whenever he said that

anyway, a friend asked me yesterday what my blog post titles meant so in case you've been wondering too,
its just the names of the songs i felt...connected with when i'm typing the post
i need music around me for some reason, thats why you ALWAYS see me with my mp3 :P
i know its weird...
when i'm studying...or driving
even the expression of feelings, i prefer to use music to express 'em XD

yeap anyway, thats all for today...gotta get back to work :)

Country Roads, Take Me Hooooooooome....

2008-11-02T14:03:00.005+08:00

I've been feeling so troubled since yesterday after i got the news that our cg is splitting
my jaw was literally hanging open
i just couldnt get it off my chest
i've never had trouble sleeping but i just couldnt seem to fall asleep in peace yesterday night
i would get up like every hour or two
and my mind would drift to all those happy times we spent together
before falling asleep again
the happy faces keep re-appearing in my mind
and i'm just on the edge of the cliff called crying
its the worst when you're just so faraway from them
and there's just no chance to say goodbye in person or give each of em a big hug
they are the reason i look forward to going back to sg
to see them every week and hear their laughter
and now...
it feels...feels like a part of me just died :(
all the happiness and laughter in there becoming nothing more than a void
they are all like family to me
W331 members...if you read this,
hope all of you got my email
dont forget to webcam with me one more last time on fri

Hearts Burst Into Fire
Bullet For My Valentine
Scream Aim Fire

I'm coming home!
I've been gone for far too long!
Do you remember me at all?

I'm leaving
Have I f***ed things up again?
I'm dreaming
Too much time without you spent!

[Pre-chorus:]
It hurts!
Wounds so sore!
Now I'm torn
Now I'm torn

[Chorus:]
I've been far away
When I see your face
My hearts burst into fire!
Hearts burst into fire!

You're not alone
I know I'm far from home!
Do you remember me at all?

I'm leaving
Do you wait for me again?
I'm screaming
No more days that I just spent

[Pre-chorus]
[Chorus]

[Interlude:]
My bed's so cold, so lonely
No arms, just sheets to hold me

Has this world stop turning?
Are we forever to be apart?
(Forever to be apart)

[Pre-chorus]
[Chorus]

I'm coming home
I've been gone for too long!
(I'm coming home)
Do you remember me at all?

Do you remember me at all?
I'm leaving
I'm screaming
I'm dreaming

HEARTS BURST IN TO FIRE

Decadence

2008-10-31T22:35:00.004+08:00

Friday...
it seemed like the day to look forward to every week
to see my beloved W331
but didnt get to see any of 'em online for the past 3 weeks
Oh well, they must have their reasons...

my lab always seem to be full of "activities"
a rat ran past joanna's foot today
seems it is a sorta...PR in the lab XD
PR as in permanent resident
predictably for a gal,
she freaked out and jumped outta her seat
i was doing my best to control myself from bursting out laughter
sorry joanna XD
its not like the rat didnt ran past my foot
after all, my seat is just next to hers
i was surprised at first but i just continued doing my work seconds later
the seniors said they were trying to catch the rat for a few months...if not years already
so i couldnt be bothered anyway
quite frankly, i'm alright with it runnin around as long as it doesnt bite me XD

this week's been uber bad bad BAD!!!!
getting screwed over 3 times in a row, would you get disappointed?
heck, i'd be pretty surprised if you don't
the presentation today didnt went as well as i hoped it would
in fact, its the worst so far
if this keeps up.....i don't even wanna think about it
i tried my best but i still can't get what that "guy" wants
at least, thank God for brothers like Adrian around
although it was just a simple meal between the two of us out at 士大夜市，
i felt...relieved after that

Lord, Lord where are you? i need you =(

East To West
Casting Crowns
The Altar And The Door

Here I am Lord,
And I'm drowning
In your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where you found me
And it echoes in my mind,
Keeps me awake tonight

I know you cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before you now as,
As though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away
From you leaving me this way
Jesus can you show me
Just how far is the east from the west
Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been
Rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest,
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day the war begins
Endless reminding of my sin
And time and time again your truth is drowned out
By the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away,
From you leaving me this way

Jesus can you show me,
Just how far the East is from the West
Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
Cause you know
just how far the East is from the West
From one scarred hand to the other.

I know you've washed me white,
Turned my darkness into light
I need your peace to get me through,
To get me through this night
Can't live by what I feel
But by the Truth your work reveals
I'm not holding on to you,
But you're holding on to me,
You're holding on to me

Jesus you know
Just how far the East is From the West
I don't have to see the man I've been,
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West,
From one scarred hand to the other
Just how far
The East is from the West
From one scarred hand to the other

yew spik teh LOL language too?

2008-10-29T23:04:00.016+08:00

first of all, so sorry for not updating for so uber long
life has been pretty normal and repetitive on the weekdays so there's really nothing much to say except the weekend
cant exactly remember what was the order of the outings...blargh, does it matter? XD
pai seh ar adrian bro, i ninja-ed some photos from your blog
well, here we have it...yang ming mountain
not exactly what i had in mind of a tourist mountain spot but its a pretty quiet and serene place
good spot to clear out your mind too
ya know might consider retiring to a place like this later....much later in life
but i guess not exactly this mountain XD
wonder what the heck we are looking at?
well nothing actually...just a buncha crazy guys acting emo
our good friend adrian calls em "abstract photo" XD
I think the drivers driving pass us behind wudda thought we are looking for gold in the flowers!
anudda one of em "abstract photos"
if we keep this up....cant imagine how we're gonna pose for the photos back in sg
anyway, forgeddabt it XD
here are some scenery photos...
there's the smaller waterfall
according to adrian and mk who came here before, the water seemed bluishly murky and lots of sediment had accumulated there
as for the bigger waterfall, i didnt take any photos cause...well, shit happens XD
next up, huaxi street night market

anudda tourist spot, famous for selling snakes as food
like snake soup...stuff like that
we didnt eat that if you wondering,aint cheap
we settled for teppanyaki instead
the boss's a pretty friendly guy
he was goin to japan this week, sponsered by his daughter who's an air stewardess
not bad right?
i havent even been to the land of the rising sun, i'm a poor guy XD
yup there's all to it about our outing during the weekend

recently, i've been quite hooked up to the LOL language
christina and sarah will vouch for that cause it seems i've been driving them crazy with the words i use XD
i think its pretty creative and who knows? i might incorporate em into my blog postings *bwahahahaha*
alright i gotta get back to doin work, see you guys around :)

Ties That Bind

2008-10-14T00:40:00.017+08:00

this picture reminds me of the times when i had to deal...i meant take care of those nieces and nephews of mine XD
thinking of 'em just gimme the creeps
you can say they are THE reason why i prefer dogs over children hehe

here are some pics from fri

it was Taiwan's national day, 10/10, noticed the flags?

some scenery photos of 九份

now for the food!!!

好 Q 的排骨麵

uber big watermelon!!

can you guess what this is?nair mind,the pictures a little messy to tell anyway
its smelly tofu
if you're wondering,its smelly alright and yes, i ate it...after much persuasion from the rest
it wasnt so bad, really...there was no trace of the smell after eating it
still, i try my best not to touch them if possible XD

anyway, since elyn wanted to see more photos of my everyday life
here it isthis is my table at the lab,well..not much of a table but at least something to get started
those papers lyin around my laptop are yesh, reports and journals
and those pile of books on the right, i had to read finish half of em last month...crazy life, dont you think?

today me started doin experiments finally!!!
there was a lot to learn but thankfully my senior's a patient guy

uber many samples of er...whatever it is XD

like every chemistry lab, there will be some hazardous materials involved
for mine, chemicals and more chemicals!!
ya know the usual, hydrochloric acid, sulphuric acid, ammonia and yada yada
turns out they are quite concentrated
99% ethanol too

tadaa!!! acid cocktail anyone?

these chemicals are not really strong to the point where you see smoke when it drops onto the ground
but strong enough to create a new hole on your body
who knows? i might not just come back with holes in my shirts and jeans
but prolly holes in my hands as well XD

the contents of this bottle is the main culprit for making surface tension lab students notoriously well known for the holes in their shirts and pants
behold!! 100% HCl solution.
this one has fumes when it drops onto the ground
well, it can melt even glass and some metals

so whaddya think of my working place?
pretty nice place to get holes all over and get your limbs dissolved huh XD
this is just the lab for preparing chemicals, there's another one for doin experiments which i'll try to get some photos for you guys

honestly, till now i still cant get used to the taiwanese mandarin here
mixing chemicals to form a solution is called 配药
sheesh...i know i know
my mandarin was cui from the start
prolly with the way i was brought up at home speaking in english and hokkien
even a friend said my hokkien had an ang moh accent
what in....

alright i think i'll stop here
update you guys another time

Starchaser

2008-10-10T23:04:00.005+08:00

for all of you who were wondering, hahaha XD
i was joking about being lonely in the previous post
yea my buddies do have to talk their gfs
but i'll find things to occupy myself XD

today we went to a town called 九份
actually on a mountain, something like genting highlands
but the journey up and down takes a whooping one and a half hours each
then we went to another 夜市
er...but i forgot the name already
rumoured to be the biggest in taipei or taiwan
but it was raining so we came back early anywayXD
i'll post about the photos and things we did anudda time
cause i need the photos from our good friend, sarge seow

for those of you crazy guitarists and rock lovers,
i've taken quite a liking to dragonforce's new single; heroes of our time
like all their songs, their lyrics sometimes dont make sense at all XD
its the solos and shredding that i fall in love with each time i listen to it
you'd be surprised at how fast their fingers move after seeing it on youtube XD
if you've played their song through the fire and flames on guitar hero 3 expert mode,
you will get what i mean,
my fingers almost dropped off trying to keep up with the notes XD
i could only get 100% on easy mode and that's only 3 different notes!

oh, i forgot to post this in the previous post
me's memory is seriously deteriorating
i'm getting old XD
anyway, there's both good news and bad news
hahaha,the good news first...
finally given the green light to start doing experiments in the lab!!!!
now life's not so boring with reading papers and reports everyday
for the bad news,i've got two
first up, presentations every week are still on
and the prof wants us to read the reports at a much faster pace
second, according to my seniors,
my shirts and jeans are gonna be full of holes when i start doing the lab work :(
why? try guessing the reason and i'll tell you if your guess is right XD
i'll betcha (not including those in the taiwan oiap) you will never guess the reason

P.S. Sitong: yesh, webcaming with you guys on friday is on the top of my priority list every week when it comes to the weekend

Dream for all eternity,
we stand,
rise above the universe tonight!!

When A Man Loooooves A Woman...

2008-10-09T22:51:00.005+08:00

blaaaarrrggghhhh, its been getting pretty lonely these days
why? you ask me
every night, two of them guys will talk to their gfs through webcam
hahaha, its a big joke if you ask me
all of them happened to be attached except for me
come 10pm everyday,
youtube will the one who gets my attention
*sigh* solitude...something so common yet so dreaded
like people always say, shit happens...
there's no one to blame but the cupids above XD

I tear my heart open and I sew myself shut
my weakness is that I care too much

Stand By Me

2008-10-06T00:40:00.007+08:00

really miss my good ol' cg members
although we've just been together for only 6 months,
they feel like family
they have given me so many sweet memories and
i'll always cherish them
last week after the video call,
the blues got hold of me

look what i found,
reminds me of the old days back when i just came to know 'em
this brought out even more of the blues

awww...those were the days, from the masquerade party

speaking of which, can somebody send me them photos from the ktv and the masquerade party puh-lease?

even kept the card you guys gave me on the shelf so that i see it everyday :)

listening to Stand By Me by Ben E. King right now
and i feel so much like crying my eyes out :(
another five more months to go but

I MISS YOOOOOOOOUUUUUUU GUYS SOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!

i've been gone for far too long, do you still remember me at all?

Memories

2008-10-01T22:58:00.002+08:00

动力火车 - 第一滴泪

终于被你推到心碎的边缘
我看见你的眼说再见

从未得到一句爱我的誓言
却送上我爱你一万年

早已习惯被你傀儡的缠绵
你要我怎么做我都无言

如果分手难免请喂我一个吻
在毁掉我之前

为你流下第一滴泪
那热泪烫伤我的脸
再也无颜面对明天
一想你就到深渊
为你流下第一滴泪
我爱上痛哭的滋味
当你吻我颤抖的嘴
我的心忽然被撕裂

Storm

2008-09-29T16:45:00.020+08:00

finally i get the chance to blog
the presentation last fri was good!!
although i couldnt answer one or two of the questions the prof asked,
he did say there was an improvement and thank heavens he was in good mood
joanna's one wasnt so smooth but he took the patience to explain to her
hope she didnt feel too bad about it
this week i gotta start on the new research project but with that damn typhoon raging outside how the heck am i supposed to get to the library?

oh and sat we went to 士林夜市,
the very same one that sells the chicken cutlet and mee sua back in sg
you'd be surprised at the amount and types of food,not to mention branded goods also
but but but whether if its genuine or not,well....thats another story
anyway,here are the photos

the famous 胡椒饼,took me and adrian to queue for half hour before we got 3

just a family of 3 manning the store but i can assure you they earn tens of thousands a night (i mean NT not SGD XD)

冰糖胡!! those with a sweet tooth,i'm sure you will love it

we only bought a stick of the strawberries one and joanna had the honour of eating the first
this are some pictures of the main 夜市

最有名的士林炸鸡排，as big as her face!!! not to mention cheap too XD

barbecued stuff...somewhat like teppanyaki but they use the good ol' charcoal and grill instead

God knows where i was looking, cant remember why i wasnt looking at the camera anyway XD

Speaking of God, look what we found
a taiwanese band singing amazing grace in hokkien XD
not kidding, haha
the stage's made outta a made-shift van
these guys are really devoted, peforming in the strong rain and wind
wished i could play the electric guitar as well as em, even a little i would be contented
i made a solemn promise to myself to learn how to play it well when i get back
blargh, its five months away and here i am already thinking about this...stupid me

oh yeah, when i get a little bored or down here
i will watch the mind your language on youtube
its that show back from the 1970s
and i will laugh my head off like a mad person
or at least thats what my friends said about me XD
and i've also taken quite an interest in the song storm by lifehouse
hence the title for this post

to my cg members,
i finally went to the new life church here in taipei
didnt take pictures cause i arrived there just on the dot after like getting lost a couple of times
you wouldnt believe it but i cudda sworn that place looks like an underground pub from the outside and there's even something like a bar inside
at least that was what it looked like since i only saw it and didnt ask about it
the washroom has a sink that...i didnt know how to use haha
its not the usual you see in public places and it took me a few minutes to figure out how the mechanism works
will update you guys with the pictures another time

well, back to work
here we go again

A World That Defies Logic

2008-09-26T02:56:00.003+08:00

been a long week with all the research
studying reports, looking up all sorta reference books and scouring the web for info...
right now its at 3am in the morning
and i still havent finished preparing for my presentation later
it can get pretty stressful when you have to give a uni professor a presentation every week on a topic he can prolly chant with his eyes closed and meet his expectations simultaneously,
let alone impress him
thats not the end yet, i was given another new research topic today by one of the seniors
and this one is gonna need even more researching than all the previous ones
which means i'm gonna be seein the NTU (not the one in sg XD) library across the street more often these days

mk, ad and jo went to play basketball in the evening earlier
apparently the game seemed to mean a lot to someone cause he/she was pretty stressed too
at least that was what it looked like to me
and i felt so bad for not joining 'em cause i went to sleep
i was feeling so tired from the lack of sleep this whole week,
sleeping only like 4+ hours everyday
didnt want to risk KO-ing cause i felt a little dizzy this afternoon and i still had a lot to do
i wont make any excuses and for that all i can say is i'm awfully sorry

surface tension= a + b+ c
where
a is the stress,
b is the time and,
c is gg-fication

So Scared

2008-09-21T19:38:00.018+08:00

Tomorrow's the start of another tiring week
last week's presentation was very bad
in fact, it was so bad i felt kinda like a lost kid
but i just hope this week's one will be better with all the effort i've put in

this week we went to somewhere close to the city centre
at least thats what THEY told me
behold...taipei 101, the tallest building in the world
at least, for now
we did go up that tower but rest of my friends havent passed me the photos yet
if you're wondering, its not free!!! gotta pay around SGD$20 just to go up but its a once in a lifetime experience
oh yeah, inside i tell you those who love shopping,
you will definitely love it there...but it might not be so healthy for your bank accountXD
all the famous brands there..Bvlgari, LV,Ralph Lauren,Chanel,Gucci,Omega and many more i cant remember
even the food (apart from mac) there is like what the malaysians say 够力，够力
i only got some photos of the night view there

a view of the tower from the inside

so i'll prolly go upload it on the next post or something
anyway, before that we went to the 国父记念馆 near the city hall of taipei
yeah like the name of the memorial, its to remember one of their forefathers, Sun Yet Sen
i think he's the founder of taiwan or something like that
never went to pay attention to the details XD

here's him

not to mention the guards who stand guard in front of him
they switch shifts every hour after a kinda parade

looks like some wax model huh? but its a real person!!

soldiers marching in to switch shifts

their navy, military and air force take turns to do the shifts
i think the ones in green are military but not too sure about those in blue
dont ask me why but i noticed their helmets and bayonets seemed surprisingly shiny XD
more pictures of mr sun

i got lazy after that so no more
but here are other random pictures
those 3 always walking around so fast, dunno whether did they even look at the artifacts haha
this's the laws and principles for the reconstruction of the taiwanese government
hmmm...somewhat like the mao zedong's principles for the chinese people if you will
but this is the taiwanese version of it
and if you browse through it, you will see majority of it are for in favour of the people (为了人民)
after staring at that piece of tablet for 10 mins and finished reading only 8 outta the 18 or 19 of em, i gave up XD

just 3 weeks only and here i'm already missing...someone
but i guess she prolly doesnt feel the same way anymore
i suppose when you dunno what's gonna happen and keep thinking of the countless...scenarios that can happen
will scare even the strongest man on earth
for the past weeks i've been troubled by something related to it and unfortunately, i still am
thats the reason why i didnt go out with my poly mates on fri night and today
sorry guys,i was just....wasnt in the right mood to go out
besides, an even number of people is easier to handle when you're out eating
and one less person prolly wouldnt have made a difference anyway

holding on is hard but letting go is even tougher

When Angels Fly Away

2008-09-14T00:19:00.005+08:00

again sorry for not updating for this few days
the internet has been down in my dorm until just recently
and i was pretty down with my results for the past sem
i try my best not to show it
but i'll get over it in a few days...well,hopefully

anyway, can you imagine cooped up in a room with nothing to do for almost 72 hours?!
if that doesnt drive you nuts,
maybe a couple of children running around and screaming ought to do the trick (for my case) XD
oh and if you're wondering why i was stuck in my dorm,
there was a typhoon named like sinlaku or sinluka or something like that runnin around
the raining was pouring on and off together with the strong winds
if you cant imagine how strong the winds were,
think about shrubs being uprooted which was what happened to my school ones
at least it didnt reach the stage where you see cars flying around XD
Thank God it changed direction and its headed to somewhere else in the pacific ocean

my presentation yesterday...well,i dunno if it was something good or bad
the prof said i my presentation had a lot of details,
and the part i explained on the CCD chip, he was completely clueless
but at least he said "既然你有做你的研究，我相信应该是对的吧"
i've got another one on friday
this time i gotta finish reading up a report
and if it couldnt get any worse, an online reference book on surface tension in CHINESE!!!
while i was reading it today, i finally gave up and tried using an online translator
even so, the english was kinda inaccurate
not to mention i havent finished this...
just hope i can finish 'em in time =(
oh yeah, if you need to reach me via my phone
number's 0983131546

every tear i cried, You hold in your hand
you've never left my side though my heart is torn

海阔天空

2008-09-12T23:24:00.016+08:00

sorry to all ya loyal readers out there for not blogging this past few days
been really busy with preparing for my presentation this comin mon
as if the release last sem results on the same day ain't enough
and if you're wondering, yes the title is a very old song by beyond back in the 80s XD

yeap, i finally met my prof in charge this week back on tues i think
i was quite intimidated at first...
i mean after all, i'm just a poly student and he's a university prof.
he turned outta be quite a nice guy...at least for now.
for this whole week,
i've been in the lab doing my presentation slides and reading reports along with joanna
its really tough to just dive into something you completely have no idea about
unlike when in poly, there's really no-spoon feeding here
you either make it or you break it
then after that, all five of us have been heading to the pool room，撞球室 (direct translation so pardon me if it sounds weird),
as in pool with the cue and balls not the swimming pool although there's an indoor one XD
i'm still trying to hone my pool skills playing with the pros li jiong and mk
*smack forehead* i forgot to take pictures of the pool room,will take it next time =)

enough talk, here are some pictures for the foodies out there XD
we didnt really go out these few days so the pictures were all taken in school haha

one of joanna's lunch this week; jap curry beef with rice wrapped in egg

beef noodles!!!the bowl was larger than the size of my face so can you imagine how big it was?XD

jap curry ramen, delicious!!!

the two jap food are from my school canteen but the beef noodles are from NTU which is not too far, just across the street

one of our seniors bought this from a stall nearby yesterday i think,

this is called golden cow horns (金牛角）

looks a little like croissants if you ask me but it had a strong butter taste
quite tough on the outside but pretty soft on the inside

wait, wait there's more!!!
there are 7-11s in our school
wait till you see what they sell...

cornflakes!! quite attractive packaging huh XD

you aint seeing things, its really huge!! i think its like 750ml or one litre and it only costs like SGD$3. ta ta ta ta XD
no worries, i havent been drinking
i'm not exactly a good drinker like some people i know
not part of my lifestyle and i dont intend to start it anyway

zomg, all the different sizes and types of vitagen-like drinks

who's got constipation? XD
next is my favourite!!

yup, starbucks coffee!! around SGD$3.25

dont worry elyn, i havent even touched coffee for almost a week
quite a miracle dont you think? given my beyond hope coffee addiction in the past
alright thats all i have for food in this post

before i forget, here's a picture of 小黑
not too sure if its a he or she but it guards the entrance to the gals dorm
very obedient to the security guards and quiet too
speaking of which, there are many dogs around the school
they are all very quiet and dont go runnin around barking at others like the dogs in s'pore (oops, no offence to the dog owners...esp chris XD)

before i go, there's a typhoon hittin taipei on the 14th according to the news
already earlier the wind was unusually strong and the rain was like on and off
*1980s drama on the deathbed voice* if i might die here in taipei, know that i love all of you
you people know who you are!! XD

oh, for the sake of those who dunno who's joanna..i think you refer to some of the previous posts to see her picture and she's also the one named shangying who tags on my blog
dunno why she didnt want to use her ang moh mia when she tags *scratches head*

anyway, i'm having question marks all over when i talked to the prof in mandarin
so i prolly need to polish up on my mandarin so i'm trying to do everything as cheena as possible
read chinese books, listen to chinese music and er...thats about it
if possible talk to me on msn in mandarin
and i'm giving you guys the honour of scolding me if i reply you in ang moh when you talk to me in mandarin XD

back to doin work...see ya!! =)

他们说城市里男人不坏，女人不爱，怎麽想也不明白。。。

Indestructible

2008-09-09T22:10:00.003+08:00

been quite a slack day
i headed back for nap after lunch and guess what?
there was an EARTHQUAKE!!!
according to my friends..or rather ms joanna wang,it only lasted like 2 sec
you must be wondering why i used "according to..." and not me
i didnt exactly feel the tremor cause i was sleeping
i was so tired for some reason
and not to mention me being a heavy sleeper...
i was sleeping like a P-I-G *oink oink* XD
doubt it woulda made any difference even if it lasted a min

this sounds weird but i'd like o experience a real earthquake one day
of cause, something minor and not like those can cause tsunamis

if A is success in life, then the formulae is A= X + Y + Z
where X is work
Y is play
and Z is keeping your mouth shut
-Albert Einstein

Fear Of The Dark

2008-09-08T23:08:00.005+08:00

today i spend the first few hours of my new sem really studying
supposedly it was supposed to start last week but we've been slacking
cause we havent found the course we wanted to do and ended up exploring the school or around taipei

as i mentioned in my previous post i chose surface tension with joanna
yeap, so we spend about 2 hours reading some reference book which proved somewhat too chim
and another 3 hours after lunch watching two seniors do their experiments
both experiments were kinda time consuming considering they only finished like a quarter to half when we left
sheesh...who knows when they finished?
i took a pic of the second experiment
its pretty cool when the senior dropped a drop of water onto a substance called surfactant
the water repelled from it!!!
he showed us a couple of videos showing how the water will react
there are some that repelled,
others will change the shape of the puddle of surfactant
yeah literally like from a circle, the whole puddle moves to just a corner
i havent got a video of it but i'll show you guys if i managed to get my hands on it

after coming back from dinner for one or two hours,
i decided to go for a run
yeap, the usual "oily" feeling came back again XD
considering i havent exercised for more than 2 weeks
and all that unhealthy food i've been eating
at first i saw adrian running and he said he just came back from the NTU side
i was ti ki and wanted to run around our school instead

digressing a little bit
oh, if you still dont know which uni i'm attached to, its NTUST not NTU
and here's the address if you need to mail me anything:
National Taiwan University of Science & Technology
43 Keelung Road
Taipei, 106, Taiwan
Dormitory 1, Room C126
i havent got a prepaid card for my phone yet cause i gotta wait for one of the seniors to get it for us
so please dont call me yet..unless you wanna pay a bomb XD
but i'll call you guys when i get the chance

back to where i was running,
scared the crap outta me when i ran past a cemetary earlier
i tell you i was so scared i was praying when i ran past it
here's a self drawn map of it
the arrow's where i ran
oh yeah, people were also kinda staring me when i ran past them
they looked like they had a big "?" on top of their heads
i think i'm watching too much anime XD
but anyway, they looked surprised
speaking of it, i never seen people jogging along the streets hmmm....
the distance was quite long
i think i ran around 2+ to 3 km
the elementary school looked kinda abandoned,
i mean there were like broken windows and the front porch looked like full of weeds
i actually had an erie feeling when i ran past it already but i thought it was just me
cause the streets were surprisingly getting quieter and quieter
low and behold,
when i turned into the street between the school and cemetary (i still didnt know there was a cemetary yet),
6 outta 13 street lamps were down but i just kept goin on
...until i saw the cemetary on the opposite
then i was thinking to myself, "crap!!! run faster run faster!!"
it gets kinda scary when you're not familiar with area and the only things you hear are your footsteps, breathing and the wind
worst of all, at the end of the street was a dead end!!!
SHIIIIITTT!!!!
i had to make a detour and take my chances through a narrow street (looked more like a wide alley actually)
but thank God it lead back to the school
i dont wanna imagine what will happen if it had led me to another place

哎哟望着天空拜一拜呀，别想不开，老天爱笨小孩。。。

HOME!!! I WANNA GO HOME!!! :(

2008-09-07T01:15:00.017+08:00

our dorm has been having quite a nostalgia for old music
we've been like turning on those music through our laptop speakers loud enough to fill the room
i thought mine was like the oldest songs one could listen to in this day and age
with those like michael learns to rock, eagles, scorpions, beyond and even 刘德华
seems mk beat me to that record, he has really super duper old antique music all the way back as far as the 1920s
elvis presley and the beach boys, many others i cant remember

the five of us went to a birkenstock store yesterday somewhere just opposite our school
oh yeah, you can see joanna's eyes lit up when we went in
from what they say, its a lot cheaper here in taiwan compared to back home
the cost was around SGD$60 but there were ex ones also like SGD$130 and above
it didnt really surprise me when i didnt know what that brand was
(F.Y.I. if you're a noob like me on such stuff, birkenstock is actually a brand of slippers)

partly cause i also rarely have the chance to spend money on branded goods
when it comes to stuff like that,
i only can use the money i saved to buy anything else outside of our my daily meals
make no mistake about it, my mom doesn't give me extra money to buy such stuff
those of you who can ask your parents to get you things that you want,
like getting a car,
extra money when going out with your friends,
you might not think its much, but count your blessings
i dont even get any extra money except for my daily allowance
for that very same reason, you see me somewhat stingy at times.
i know i know
some of you might disagree with my methods of saving up on money.
to some of you, looks are probably more important so you spend more on fashion
but looking decent is enough for me.
i dont see the need to wear branded goods all over...at least thats for me
(thats prolly why you see me in tees, jeans and slippers when i go to school most of the time XD)
some might say they want to look good
everyone has their reasons so who am i to judge?

i know i promised some pictures from my dorm in the previous post
but i'm just too lazy to take anymore photos so i'm takin it from adrian's blog XD
sorry bro!!
quite cui right?
but aiya onglee six months, wont die la

lemme recall where did we go for the past few days...
argh, my memory really is failing me
i think i need to get an organiser soon...
oh yes, we went to the taipei zoo

this is the entrance

this is the tram we took to the first section of the zoo
the zoo is uber huge, nothing like those those in sg
we spent like 3 to 4 hrs and only walked around the mammals and reptiles area
there's another 3 sections i think, we will prolly go again some other day when we get our student card
you ask why?
cause its only NT$5 if you're a student which is only like SGD$0.25!!!
here are some pics i took and we also took a cable car to get to the zoo!!
all the different types of er...dung outside the toiletXD

yup, thats about it
sorry if you were expecting pictures of animals but i was too lazy to take any of 'em
besides, they said NO cameras
i'll prolly try the next time, ya know..test the system XD

thats about it for today
gotta get up early for some reference book reading on surface tension tomorrow
see ya!! =)

when your soul's grown cold and all hope has run dry...

天意

2008-09-04T20:51:00.007+08:00

five days into taiwan and i'm starting to miss the tiny s'pore island already
especially my friends, family and my BED!!!! (thats why i chose that pic XD)
the past few days have still been quite slack cause the prof is still not back yet
but i'm deciding to do a subject called surface tension
it involves investigating how a water droplet spreads when it falls onto a surface
i heard a CCD camera is to be used,
some kinda high tech equipment that can take 2900 to 3000 pictures in a sec!!
nuts-ness

ok, my mandarin is uber xi bei cui to the max
i can barely read all those shop names on the street and food stall menus,
it would be a miracle if i could read the whole thing without finding any words i dunno
well the past few days its been raining here in taipei
and the temperature really like drops like 3-4 degrees after the rain
i was glad at first it when rained
but later for some reason,
it slowly became depressing
i was reminded of the many unhappy events that happened this year
some of which i would gladly pay anything...well,almost about anything to forgeddabt it

anyway, i'll update you guys more on the life in taiwan when i can find time to go exploring :D

如果说一切都是天意一切都是命运
终究已注定
无情无爱此生我认命

Taiwan Here I Come (part 2)

2008-09-01T17:04:00.027+08:00

ya know this picture reminds me of chris for some reason
maybe cause she's a foodie XD
anyway,today's entry will be more on pictures of food i got yesterday
the whole group of us went somewhere called 淡水
its something like the harbourfront of s'pore and there's a whole lotta food stalls there
can't imagine?
think around 4 km full of food and game stalls
but the food types were kinda repetitive

oh and there's also the milk tea which is quite cheap like NT$30 and the size is like about one and a half times those in s'pore
funny thing is the milk tea tastes bland but its the pearls that is sweet >.< believe it or not, this is their train station
the trains are something like our mrt but they travel much much faster
from one end of taipei to the other in just 45 mins!!

one of the scenic spots, the mountain area is called ba li island or something like that

remember i said there were many game stores right?
there were arcades also but the games are not like those in s'pore
here are some pictures of 'em

joanna and li jiong playing some scoring basketball games

it was like only SGD$0.50 per game!!
they were like spamming that game until they got tired

look what I found!! I took this specially for Josh

there were many other games to do with pokemon I think
lets move on...
quite a cute picture of three pups
and it was in the arcade!

from what i see, dogs can like go anywhere in taiwan except eateries, restaurants, etc.

lets see, what did we do next?...

oh yeah, there was a famous tall ice cream in the area
we found it!!

its not like the type of ice creams you find in s'pore where its creamy and soft
this one's more like just frozen syrup without all those coagulating agents, so it melts rather fast
dont get what i mean?

melts uber fast!!

i think its abt SGD$1
we were like forcing ourselves to eat it after a while cause it was like putting pure ice into your mouth

after that we tried our luck at another game stall,
the air gun shop, seems quite famous in the area
using pellet guns to shoot at balloons
most of the shops were using either desert eagle or glock model look-alikes

mummy look!!! guns!! bad bad people

there are semi automatics also
not too sure what model rifles these are...
all five of us scored like 95 points and so we redeemed a couple of....prizes
i stole the next pic from joanna's blog..so sorry joanna!!!
low and behold...
i tell you we looked like fools walking down the streets with those big balloons
but its cute XD

if you think thats the end,hehe...
after that, we went to the fisherman's wharf to see the sunset
one of the famous landmarks there is the picture below

this is called 情人橋

aww...
the wind is also shiok to the max!!
its a pretty romantic place ya know
here are some views from the bridge,
nice place huh?
i think i can consider this place if i'm gonna propose to a gal in the future HAHA

oh and there were lots of artists there
if you're wondering what i'm talking about
yup,you aint seeing things
got a picture of me drawn
but my hair looks a little messy in the picture
argh, musta been the wind!!!
okok now for the sunset pictures

alright i think i'll stop here for now
i've got a runny nose, sore throat and to top it off, a fever also
i think its because of the change in weather

if you're wondering why i've got so much time to explore taiwan...
truth is the prof in charge of us took leave until wed cause he had to hospitalized for some medical reasons
i'll be updating more pics tomorrow, see you guys around!!

Taiwan Here I Come!!! (part 1)

2008-08-31T23:16:00.013+08:00

first of all, i'm so sorry if you guys were expecting me to update yesterday
after everything was settled i was sooooo tired
thank you to all those who came to sent me off at the airport
very much appreciated the effort
in fact, i think you guys were the biggest group there to show up
i was really touched to see so many people caring for me
i mean..my thinking was like its just a flight away for six months who woulda cared?
anyway, thank you all once again
for those who couldnt or didnt make it...
well, you have your reasons and i've learnt to be a forgiving person
in any case, i'm won't hold any grudges against u guys
oh and yeah, i'm so sorry i didnt have the time to spend with you guys
stupid me left my passport at home *smack forehead*
thank God i reached the airport in time
i was speeding like crazy on the tpe after the jam

to my cg:
glad to really see all of you guys
if you havent heard, yes i did cry when i read the card
thank you very much for it
not to mention the cg shirt as well,
simple and yet beautiful
and of course the chocolate cookies!!!
(i havent touched it yet cause i'm starting to have a bad sore throat XD)

to my brotherhood:
pretty surprised to see so many of you
only thought zu, shen and kok was gonna turn up
in any case still happy to see all of ya
hope you guys do well for your final sems in poly

to my poly friends:
glad to see you dudes too
and am sure gonna miss all our laughter and bickering
but nair mind, cause i've got the two rhinos here with me in taiwan

here are the two rhinos on the plane

you coulda prolly guessed we were playing big 2 for the whole flight
you must be thinking buncha crazy people we are
lack of entertainment drives one to do that XD
i couldnt get a good picture of joanna and li jiong cause they were dozing off the whole journey
haha, buncha funny people i tell you
well,i'll post some pics of them the next time
taiwan is uber hot i tell you..for now at least
34 degrees C and humid to the max with no wind!!

we met our seniors mr cloud (dont ask me what kinda name is that cause i'm as puzzled as you are) and mr qi...i think

mr cloud and mr qi

i was so hungry i just dove right into dinner and forgetting to take photos
anyway, we had sorta like a pepper lunch kinda thingy but on hot piece of rock
the food here in this kinda eateries aint cheap
that meal's about NT$120,about SGD$6
i'll show pictures of my dorm another time
its uber cui
think s'pore between 1970s and 1980s
that kinda buildings
at least there's air con in the room

anyway, there are quite a few things i notice about how taiwan is different from s'pore

1) roads are very very dusty
you can practically see the dust floats around for 2 or 3 secs when a car zooms past you!

2)super helluva lots of scooters
i tried countin the number of scooters that passed me in ten secs and guess what,
turned out to be 8 or 9

3) the girls here around my age group are quite good looking
um...no offence to the girls back in s'pore
but they really are better looking here, and friendlier too!!
ok la,i'll have to say that some s'pore girls are pretty and friendly too
but as a whole, they will prolly kena owned by the taiwanese gals

4) dogs dogs dogs
i saw dogs everywhere and only one stray cat after 48hrs
even saw a golden retriever runnin around

ahh,me super duper tired now
cant think of anymore to type
i think i'll update tmr again XD

What Hurts The Most

2008-08-30T01:10:00.008+08:00

finally, the day has come for me to go to taiwan
its like my last few hours here in s'pore
i've never left home alone for sucha long time
the most when i was in india for two weeks

from mon all the way till yesterday,
i'm thankful for the friends who showed concern for me
going out for dinners with me
even sending me messages
fear not for i'll keep in contact with all of you
at least...i'll try
still dunno how busy i'm gonna be there

first of all, i would like to thank the cg
i'm sorry for missing some of your birthdays at the EOY
namely Jin Hong and Chris
all this time each of you have played a part in making me feel at home
and i really treasure the friendship we had
not to mention all the fun and laughter
i'm very thankful for all of you
i was really touched when all of you came for the dinner on tues
mabbe it wasnt much to some of you, it really meant a lot to me
although its been like only 5 to 6 months
you guys have become a very special part of my life
somewhat etched into my heart like a carving onto a stone tablet

next, the brotherhood
the lovable buncha soccer fanatics
its been so many years since we know each other
some since our pri and sec days
i thank y'all for always being there when i'm feeling down
and for the times i needed your advice on life
though we may not say much to each other about such stuff
i know you guys care and i do for you dudes as well
you guys ROCK!!!

last but not least, the friends and bros from poly
these three years have been really wonderful to have you walking by my side
we may have our disagreements on the way we do things
and even can be a little ti ki at times
but at the end of the day,
we'd still be the friends that we were

recently,i had a friend who had some relationship problems
well,although she was hurt pretty bad emotionally
i hoped the advice and company made her feel
she still has friends and a God who cares about her

Perserverance Is The Key

2008-08-25T23:17:00.008+08:00

today wasn't exactly productive
but ahhh..no reason why i should not just relax after the exams
not to mention the new sem starts next week for another six months
been watching anime almost the day
and just for the record,
i only played RO for half an hour
so please for goodness sake,
i'm NOT addicted!!!! XD

also had a talk with ouyang earlier
yup, she's chris's neighbour on the hill
she seems a nice person although somewhat hyper at times
but aint most girls like that? *scratches head*
we had a talk on...well, something taboo
i rather not mention it here

last but not least, met the brotherhood today!!
it wasn't full but the usual people were there and here they are...

shen and his gf, xinyi

kok

zubin

unfortunately, they were all so caught up playing some soccer game on their psp
the only time they stopped was during dinner
speaking of which, dinner was pizza treated by shen's mom
argh, all this eating of fast food and the past few days dining outside
makes me feel really exceptionally oily
i think i better head down to the gym tomorrow before meeting the cg for dinner
anyway looking back, how long has it been since i know shen and his mom?
man, it was since P1 back in KCP
11 years later here we are on the way to becoming working adults
time sure passes fast

109 hours and 20 mins from now and i'll be on my way to taiwan :(

Drift Fever

2008-08-23T23:02:00.002+08:00

the exams are finally over!!!
like what adrian said,
you can pat yourself on the back for the job done
well, good or bad...its not something to think about anymore
and like elyn said,
since you've already done your best and there's nothing more you can do,
just leave it into His hands and continue to have faith in all that we do

so to treat ourselves for all the hard work these past few weeks
mund, lim, mk, ah teck and i went to catch a movie at J8 yesterday
we watched a thai movie called 4bia
yeah its 4bia instead of "phobia"
most of you woulda guessed its a horror movie
its about 4 short horror stories
but i won't spoil it for those wanna catch it at the movies by telling the story here
its pretty good if you can "appreciate" horror movies
unlike the lady in front of us who kept screaming whenever the ghost appeared
and i can imagine lim scaring the crap outta himself taking photos when using the phone camera
hehehe (part of the movie plot was about it)

i think outta all the ghost movies i've seen,
best of all was still nang nak
a horror film about a love story
anyway, i think the thais and japanese still make the best horror films
hollywood horror movies really cannot make it compared to 'em
not to mention most of them are re-makes

i've been quite hooked onto the initial D anime series lately
and their music as well...the typical techno heavy beat that you will find in most car racing games
yes yes,its mostly about cars but there were other things like friendships, dreams and love life in it also
i remembered a scene where takumi (the main character) saw the girl he loved being so close with another guy
of course he was heart broken...sheesh,which guy wouldn't?
heck, if it was me i woulda been heart shattered...not broken
i guess to a girl, when she is close to a guy friend doesn't mean she likes him
but there are guys who let their imaginations run wild and..you can figure out the rest
i do admit i'm guilty of being like that at times XD
its my way of showing that i care for her
but people will say "you're just jealous!"
then well, what can i say?

there is no disguise that can conceal love for long where it exists or simulate it where it does not
-Francois De La Rochefoucauld

Can You Give Me Hope?

2008-08-21T12:39:00.005+08:00

the exams for the past few days havent been goin great exactly
in fact, its the worst exam i've ever taken
i don't feel confident about the answers at all like how i used to be
but its a little too late to turn back aint it?
already 3 down and 1 left
i just hope things arent as bad as i imagine them to be
i'd be happy if i can score an average of B grade for all the subjects
and maintain my GPA...if possible
if not, my hopes of entering uni are dashed....

its amazing how when you've got some thing down, other things also come crashing down on you
all them bad things just seem to come at one go
what they are, i rather not mention it here

Ya know, i was reading this article in the newspapers today on breastfeeding
i know whacha thinking but i was reading for general knowledge XD
anyway, i always thought breastfeeding was just...breastfeeding
nothing complicated but that article really showed me how ignorant i was
there was all sorta reasons both medical and psychological why moms don't breastfeed nowadays
and all those bacteria and viruses involved...sheesh
if you're interested, go check it out on 21/8 edition of mind your body
especially the ladies, the information might come in handy one day for all you know

the final countdown is within your own grasp

Strike First, Think Later

2008-08-18T19:55:00.004+08:00

i went for pm again this morning
and i tell its really dreadful dragging yourself outta bed at 5 in the morning
especially when you've got so much on your mind
still, i'm glad i've been going everyday for the past week and today
although i can't go anymore for da rest of this week cause of the exams :(
i really felt refreshed after each session,
like the tiredness all just slipped away to somewhere
if you haven't gone for any of it, whaddya waitin for?

studying for the exams can get really stressful
especially when you've got such competitive classmates
thats why i'm glad Chris introduced RO to me
good for relieving stress after studying for long hours
i'm still a little blank on the game,
sometimes i swear i feel like a complete noob sauce
but she's been very patient teaching me all sorta stuff in the game
THANK YOU Chris!!!!

well,i havent really got much to blog about so i'll stop here
time to get back to studying :)

when you're courting your dream girl, an hour seems like a second
but when you're sitting on a hot cinder, a second seems like an hour
that's the law of relativity -Albert Einstein

No Equal, No Weaker

2008-08-14T17:44:00.007+08:00

too many matters at hand to leave behind
*sigh* and there's only another 16 more days left....

no past,
no future,
no problems,
just the moment

life's simple,
you make choices,
and you don't look back
all that matters is you know what you want
and goin after it

Respect All, Fear None

2008-08-11T15:01:00.003+08:00

first of all, a very big congrats to Josh for passing his TP test.
always knew you could do it and am very proud of you bro!
now its time to get your favourite car hehe; the Mitsubishi Lancer EX.

sarah and i went to the pm at JW this morning.
it sure was difficult dragging yourself outta bed at 5 in the morning but I'm glad I did anyway. still, it felt weird only two people from our cg going there.
although it was only an hour, it was a fantastic time there and they even offered breakfast after the whole event.
not to mention the starbucks voucher they gonna give out if you go five times.
unfortunately, although I'm a sucka for coffee, I don't really go to starbucks often.
(time to be the good guy XD) anybody wants my voucher?
for starters, God answered both of our prayers for you passing your TP test Josh so you better thank Him.
i'm sure there are more answered prayers to come in due time.

after that I went to Mac at JP to do some studying.
i was quite surprised to find so many students there considering it was only around 8:30am
anyway, after i went to get my hair cut...no, shaved would be the right word.
yes, its back to the "botak" hairstyle back in my sec sch days
like what I told Sarah, the barber i always go to since my sec sch days mostly work with shavers.
in fact, he never used scissors to cut my hair even when it was long.
now that's what i call skilled.
oh yeah, my good ol' barber whose shop's called Donald Duck.
if you're wonderin if I'm kiddin about the shop name,well wonder no more

the next section may sound a little nasty to some people
if you cant take people giving you advice i suggest you just skip the next part.
i'm NOT scolding anyone here nor am i holding any grudge,
just telling them to keep their words in check.
i'm also not gonna mention names lest it damage friendships but i'm sure you will know if you're one of 'em.

"your life is very boring le"
this is one of those sentences i really hate people for saying.
sure, you might find what someone likes doing is boring
but everyone is unique and have their own interests so who are you to judge?
call them oversensitive if you want but when a person's in a shitty mood
or they are feeling down inside for one reason or another
but just not showing it on the outside
and with you saying this to him/her,
you're asking for the person to blow up and your friendship to turn sour.
for all you know, that very same person whom you find boring might find your life boring as well.

"you very kiam siap (kiam siap = stingy) le"
if you think the previous one was bad,
i hate people the MOST for saying this.
next time you wanna say that, think about it;
can you be sure that this person is really stingy and
not going through some kinda financial difficulties?
or perhaps they want to save for the future?
we all have our own pocket money but not all of this are equal.
you might have more and i thank God for that
but not all of us are as privileged as you are.
even i sometimes have my own financial difficulties
and when my friends tell me not to be so stingy,
i'll really get pissed off.
you might not think twice spending money on a certain subject like food or fashion or in my case, car magazines
but not everyone spends their money like the way you do.

Next time when you wanna say something like that in the future,
put yourself in the person's shoes
and think about the possibilities for him/her rejecting the offer
instead of criticizing him/her and making a joke outta them.
it may just be a joke to you and you might not mean any harm
but to them it might hurt.

you tried your best and you failed miserably.
the lesson is "never try"

Abolition...

2008-08-09T23:33:00.005+08:00

Helllloooooo y'all loyal readers!
sorry havent been updating recently cause of the busy weeks in school
and the recently introduced game XD

well, first up last week was FOP!!
first time i went and honestly taken aback by the number of people there!
man,the whole indoor stadium was full.
the message by mike connor was really good
and it wouldn't have been complete if not for the music by the parachute band and hillsong united.
their songs are great but i think i still prefer casting crowns
"who am i?" and "east to west" are my all time personal favs

enough talk! here are the pictures :)

Nattarat the thai boi

Chris and JH getting busy calling people

Even Elyn has to get her hands dirty *sigh*

i think Chris has a photo of herself along with JH and me too.
anyway, the service was fun
but i'm not too enthusiastic about chasing the last train home those two days.

school hasn't been a bed of roses like some of 'em in uni
especially when you've got 3 tests in a week!
not to mention they were consecutive ones with 2 papers on the second day.
nevertheless,it was a good revision for the comin' exams
and i thank God for studying almost all the right questions.
speaking of school,time sure is passing very quickly.
another 21 more days and i'll be off to Taiwan for the next 6 months :(
i said it before and i'll say it again, i'll miss everyone!

last but not the least
i wanna thank jh for being able to confide with him in some things
don't get me wrong,its not that i don't trust the rest of the cg
in fact, you guys are one of my strongest supports in life
but perhaps he might be the only one to understand what i'm going through
its not easy to always act as if nothing happened on the outside
when i feel like someone is constantly stabbing me on the inside
there are some things i'm not proud of in my life
but its not something that i can reason with
especially when its beyond my control.

its like climbing out of one hole into another

How Did We Begin?

2008-07-29T18:36:00.003+08:00

ok people, here's another quiz i'm doing.
when i scanned through the questions, it seemed to have quite a lotta questions on love compared to the rest i have done before.

if i had to guess, i think the person who created this quiz is probably in love or something like that. you will get what i'm talking about when you do it.

and this came along with it;

tag 6 others whom you want to do the quiz, those who were tagged cannot refuse.
if you wanna do it and post it on your blog, be my guest.

well, here goes nothing...

1. Is there any languages you will want to learn in the future?
lets see...for starters, i'm thinking of three.
malay, french and japanese.

2. Do you play or intend to learn any musical instruments?
i play a little on the drums but i'm thinking of learning how to play the electric guitar :)

3. Which type of musical instrument will you prefer your life partner to be able to play?
haha for some reason, a lotta people have asked me this before.
violin or piano will be it.

4. What is your favourite song?
i've been going through mostly my old music data base and i have to say
Sweet Child O' Mine by Guns N' Roses still the best.

5. What is your favourite colour?
black or blue.
sounds like someone getting whacked.

6. Day or Night?
night definitely!!!
i'm not a big fan of the sun especially with the rising temperatures.
besides, i have a dream which is lying down under a sky of stars.

7. What is your favourite animal?
tigers.
i fell in love with the cubs since i got those tiger cub soft toys redeemed from Esso back when i was a kid XD

8. What is your dream job?
with the way i'm into cars, its somewhere in the motorsport area.
perhaps drifting or rallying?

9. How do you prefer to express your feelings to someone you love?
jeez, quite a sudden change in the direction of questions.
anyway, lets continue..
i'm not good with words so poems are out.
i also try not to touch art unless i really have to so pictures are also out.
it will have to be music and the lyrics of the song :)

10. What is your ideal romantic place in Singapore?
somewhere away from all the traffic and crowd.
mount faber? or on top of the UOB tower?
actually the chinese and japanese gardens might just work too but there's just too many damn mosquitoes!!

11. Have you been lovesick before? How does it feel like?
of course, who hasn't?
its pretty bad. i would end up thinking about her day in day out and got no concentration to do anything else.
worse thing is there's not much you can do about it; the more i tried not to think of her, the worse it got :(

12. Is there anything else that amazes you about the opposite sex?
plenty!! i'll just name two for now.
the first is their mood swings...sheesh.
one moment, they can be laughing with you
and the next they can be hysterical.
one wrong word or move, you get yourself shredded, hacked, pulverised..you get the picture.

the second one may not be such a comfortable subject for some but heck..
the amount of money they put into buying lingerie.
correct me if i'm wrong, only they will see it so why buy something so expensive?
hmmm...you got me puzzled :/

13. If the person you have been waiting for goes into a relationship with another guy/gal, what will be your reaction?
gee...this will break the heart of even the strongest man on earth.
of course it will hurt like hell
but i guess the ideal thing to do is to keep a straight face and say the words "i'm happy for you".
after that i'll probably drink alcohol till i drop or find something else to do in order to numb the pain.

14. Will you prefer fall in love with a friend or a complete stranger?
of the course the first.
i mean you gotta know someone in order to fall in love with them right?
looks do play a part but they are secondary to character...at least for me.

15. Are you in love currently? Which part of him/her do you love about the most?
i was hoping there wouldn't be a question like this.
if you have to know..the answer's yes.
hmm..i love her eyes the most. she's got beautiful eyes :)

16. What is your favourite movie on love?
i haven't watched many love movies
but 50 first dates will be the one.
it always give me the "aww..." kinda feeling.
what really amazes me is how the adam sandler has to win drew barrymore's heart every time he meets her.

well, thats about it.
have fun doin it XD

When its all said and done, it gets hard but it won't take away my love..

I Tried But I Just Can't Look Away

2008-07-26T23:58:00.010+08:00

As you might have guessed,this entry has something to do with a birthday and yes its my grandfather's birthday. Today was his 83rd brithday and his 8 daughters decided to celebrate it for him at home!! 2 of my aunts couldn't make it cause they had something on but he's one happy active guy despite his age. Man, 10 daughters!! Can you believe that?! One more daughter is all he needs to form a female soccer team, sheesh. Here's a picture of my niece Shauna, she's only 8 months old I think. Its the first time I'm seeing her and look at the sweet smile on her face,awww....
That still doesn't change my opinion about kids ok, I still ab-so-bloody-lutely perfer dogs rather than kids. Look at those terrifying monsters in the background (the ones on the left)!! They were running all over the house and screaming at the top of their lungs. My Mom said I was exactly like them when I was their age maybe even worse and by that, I was stunned O.o

PED is finally over!! Not that the workload is completely finished but a heavy load's gone for sure. The printing costed a bomb cause we print wrongly for some alignment mistakes. We did over 300 pages for that report and sadly I must say, I did not contribute much to it. Most of it was Edmund's hard work. Edmund if you're reading this, once again I apologize for the wrong data keyed in and for going offline so early. I'm not gonna make any excuses for what I did and I am truly sincerely super duper mega ultra sorry. Nevertheless I thank God for the all the hard work and effort all of us put in to complete the report.

Five months of hard work!!

Moving on, my Mom's stuck on dramas again. This time its not only on Korean ones but Taiwanese and Hong Kong ones as well. I was just sitting one side doing my stuff while she watched this show on a love story, when she started cursing and swearing at a guy in the show. I was like "Here we go again...she's sure to ask me about whether was I like him in any way." True enough, she asked me about it. The drama was about this guy who backed outta a loved triangle so that the woman he loves can be happy with another guy that she loves. "Sam ar, will you do that if you were him?" she asked and my answer, "er...and if I do?". That was a fatal answer as you mighta guessed. There she went on about how this is a dog eat dog world, how silly I was and blah blah blah..you get the picture. I was thinking oh Lord help me. Obviously, I didn't bother arguing with her cause after all these years...the best way to stop her nagging was to just keep your mouth shut and listen (even if it meant going into one ear and coming out through the other XD). Jokes aside, I woulda seriously done what I told her. After all, loving a person is wanting them to be happy right? sometimes even if it meant not being with you I guess..Well, at least thats what I feel.

Anyway, cgm on Fri was good!! I have to apologize to the rest for making them wait outside for a while cause I was asleep with earphones stuck into my ears. I'm so sorry!! It was quite a good change though. That means I can see them one last time during that week when I'm leaving!! Come to think of it, they really have become an important part me. I really wouldn't know what to do without them. One thing's for sure, I wouldn't trade them for anything and I thank God for bringing them into my life!! Thats all!

Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again...

Wore It Proud For The Sake Of My Sanity

2008-07-22T20:28:00.011+08:00

Yes, this is what I'm feeling now. It will end soon, just a teenie weenie more to go. This post will be quite long but BUT I'm gonna add another two pictures as part of becoming the camera trigger happy guy that I promised. Anyway, I recently came across a really old song in my music database. So Far Away by Staind. It brought back the memories of sec sch and my bros,still remember the good ol' days Zubin?

How you used to limp around in a crutch back in sec 2 and Shen and I had to help you around?

The days we spent at Raffles Town Club with the brotherhood?

Here's the chorus part of the song;

Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

First up, Sunday was a pretty good day starting with cgm and Chris brought her own homemade apple crumble!! It tasted pretty good but she said it wasn't good enough cause the apples weren't sweet. Man, she's got high expectations. After that, we went for lunch before I headed to school. You ask me "what the heck are you goin to school for on a Sun?" I took this picture without them guys realizing, look at how concentrated they are...wait a min, all of them were doing work except Mk cause he was playing PSP.
PED!! Its Process Engineering Design if you don't know what's it. It was already 7+pm then. For me, it was only about 4-5hrs but ah Teck, MK and Edmund's been there since 11am. Josh came slightly later than I did but he stayed with us till the end as well. The mosquitoes there also seem to like me better than the rest, I got 5-6 bites but the rest didn't even get bitten, sheesh...Anyway, after that we went to Bukit Timah Road Market for dinner before heading home.

There wasn't anything much yesterday except Mk, Adrian and I went to get our visas at the PSA building in Harbourfront. The journey there took longer than we were in the PSA building, we only like spent 10 mins inside while the journey there was about an hour, not to mention the time spent going back home. Speaking of school, here another picture I took during one of the lab sessions. The one and only absolutely "tao nao pai" siao po momomolissa..
Can't remember when I took it and why did I even take it in the first place. Here's your picture on my blog Momomolissa but its not the one in your bikini hahahaha.

Finally, today with the ICP test and NAPFA (oh yeah, thank you Jas for the ride home..I think I would have KO'ed if I had to take the bus at that kinda timing) on the same day plus the low energy level was really "gao lat". Nevertheless, I thank Him for watching over me despite me feeling a little giddy in the morning. The test wasn't really done well but it wasn't bad either, the results will be revealed eventually. As for the NAPFA, I congratulate all who participated and especially those managed to get the silver award so they can skip BMT for 2 months. Unfortunately, I'm not one of 'em but I can try again when I get back from Taiwan which means I must exercise there..what the heck? Its not impossible but its gonna be hard to resist over-eating there with all the good food thats for sure.
Surprisingly, I managed to do 3 pull-ups and according to Bala, it was the standard full one not like those who chao keng(maybe I sounded like I was pointing fingers at some people but I'm not). I know its nothing to boast about to people like ah Lim and Josh, they can do 10 and maybe even more!! But it was quite an achievement for me considering that I couldn't even do half back in March. I still have to thank the Lord for that, its not by my strength but by His spirit.

Hmm...I realize I'm beginning to thank God for a lotta things, even for small things like His daily protection. For this, I thank the friends who brought me back to Him. You guys know who you are. He was always there with me but I just took Him for granted in the past. I only hope He can forgive me and continue to stay with me always.

I can't be home tonight but I'll make it back,its alright...

What It Means To Be In This World?

2008-07-19T23:22:00.005+08:00

About the previous post, if you're wondering..think about it no more. I've decided on the course of action to take and it was the right thing to do. Its not the end of the world but there are just some things in life you gotta let go.

If you saw the news earlier, a typhoon just hit Taiwan!! Geez, the flood there's like..crazy! Hope its not like that during my stay there but who am I trying to kid? What are the chances of no typhoon during the monsoon season?

My mom went "You better bring thicker clothes there, it was so cold there when your father and I went for our honeymoon there." The moment she said that, I burst out laughing and asked her, "how old were you when it was your honeymoon?" I admit I should be sucka punched for bringing her age into the subject. Yes but anyway, that was like 30 years ago. The weather has changed a lot since 30 years ago. You don't have temperatures soaring above 32 degrees in Singapore 30 years back and the sea level was also probably much lower then. Why did I suddenly go into geog?Sheesh...I sounded like my geog teacher back in sec sch.

In any case, the point is sometimes parents worry too much. I tell my mom I going there for six months to do some research work and she's acting like I'm going to war with all the food and clothes she's telling me to stock up on.

From today onwards, I'm gonna get a little trigger happy with my (actually not mine but can use can already la) digicam and hp cam so don't be shy when I take photos of you guys. I know it will feel weird when a guy who usually don't take pictures take pictures all of a sudden. Reason's cause I don't have much pictures with me and hey,in case you might not know I really treasure every bit of the friends around me!!

When its beyond your control, sometimes its just best to let go...

Mess

2008-07-18T21:46:00.011+08:00

Before you go on reading this post, although I'm probably just talking to myself...I'd appreciate it when you see me don't go; what where why when who and how about this post. In fact,I don't even wanna talk about it!! You can discuss it with whoever you want till dawn for all I care when I'm not there. If you know you can't resist the temptation to ask me, I suggest you just go on surfing the net and skip this post. I'll be fine after a few days, hopefully...

Since you decided to go on reading, here goes...

Sam, Sam, Sam....

Life is too unpredictable,
it could be there one week and gone the next.
You feel like crap now, don't you?
You have heard it on radio, saw it in movies, even read it in books
Of all the damn holes and drains you could have fallen into,
you just had to fall into this abyss called love.
You were asking for it right from the start!!
You should have gotten the hint when she told you earlier,
yet you never know when to stop till the freight train runs you over.
Perhaps you keep asking yourself,
"what's happened to her? Its obvious she's changed..."
but deep inside you know what she desires to do is the right thing,
you should be happy for her and even proud of her.
As a matter of fact, ask yourself what's really causing you to feel this way?
to feel like playing the good ol' game of Russian Roulette with five bullets instead of the usual one...

Ego Mos Usquequaque Diligo Vos

2008-07-16T19:48:00.008+08:00

Like the picture above, I had one really really really nasty dream last night. I got up shivering and ended up with an extremely heavy heart. Guess that explains why I never had the appetite to eat anything today since I got up even till now. It was something like the previous dream I had about the cg at Josh's house but this time it revolved around one person and it was a whole lot super duper mega ultra worse. Anyway, I won't bore you guys anymore explaining the details of my dream, you can ask me in person if you really wanna know.

Today Adrian, MK and I went to get our letter for the OIAP. Its pretty long including all the insurance stuff. We're goin to make the visa at the Taiwan Embassy in the PSA building this coming Friday. If MK manages to book the air tickets without anything going awry, we would be leaving on the 30th Aug around 1p.m. I know them cg guys have service later that day so I guess I won't be seeing them till I get back. Just hope Zubin and the brotherhood can make it that day. Oh well, I won't blame anyone even if no one sends me off although coming to think of it..its a kinda sad case don't you think? *sigh*

Six months's pretty long time if you think about it. Thats 165 days; 3960 hours; 237,600 minutes and 14,256,000 seconds. What is this? I haven't even left yet and here I am counting the time before I can see her again. Sheesh...how can I explain this fear I feel inside?

啊　給我一杯忘情水
換我一生不傷悲,
就算我會喝醉,
就算我會心碎,
不會看見我流淚

I'm Forever Yours Faithfully

2008-07-14T17:16:00.002+08:00

I had cramps in my leg muscle at the gym today while cycling on the bicycle machine and ended up pulling the muscle. Actually I already had the feeling in my guts my legs couldn't continue anymore but I was too ti ki (metal teeth in hokkien for those who don't know) to stop. I continued until I pulled a muscle then at that time it was really too painful to continue.

Some of you guys reading this may think I'm just a crazy guy who doesn't know his limits. Truth is whenever I feel like givin up in sports, I always remembered my dragonboat senior's words; "if its not called tough, it ain't called training" and "push yourself to the limit then you will know how far you can go" and this was the motivation that kept me goin even though the pain was there. As for today, maybe it wasn't such a good idea after all. I was limping the whole way home and even now it hurts like hell.

Anyway, on the way home guess who I saw on the bus? The very same group JJC gals I mentioned in one of my posts were sitting at the same spot. If you read my blog often you would know that the previous time I met 'em, they were walking about...let's just say they were fulfilling their curiousity but in a not so glamourous way. If you're dying to hear what they were talking about this time, sorry to disappoint you but I fell asleep almost immediately after I sat down just in front of 'em. Besides,why would you wanna know for?

Thats all for now.

another 45 days remaining...
surprisingly,I'm not as eager to go as I should be. In fact I feel the opposite.

Never Regretted One Bit Of It

2008-07-13T10:35:00.004+08:00

Story Of My Life
Bon Jovi
Have A Nice Day

Yesterday’s a memory,
Another page of history,
You sell yourself on hopes and dreams
That leaves you feeling sideways.
Tripping over my own feet,
Trying to walk to my own beat,
Another car out on the street trying to find the Highway
Yeah, Are you going my way?

This is the story of my life
And I write it everyday.
I know it isn’t black and white
And it’s anything but grey.
I know that no I’m not alright, but I feel ok cos
Anything can, everything can happen
That’s the story of my life

I gonna write the melody
That’s gonna make history,
And when I paint my masterpiece I swear I’ll show you first.
There just ain’t a way to see who and why or what will be
Till now is then
It’s a mystery, it’s a blessing and a curse
Or something worse.

This is the story of my life
And I write it everyday.
I know it isn’t black and white
And it’s anything but grey.
I know that no I’m not alright, but I feel ok cos
Anything can, everything can
I been thinking and maybe
You can help me write the story of my life
What do you say?

This is the story of my life
And I write it everyday,
And I hope you're by my side when I’m writing the last page.

This is the story of my life
And I write it everyday.
I know it isn’t black and white
And it’s anything but grey.
I know that no I’m not alright, but I feel ok cos
Anything can, everything can,
I been thinking baby we can…
This is the story of my life,
The story of my life,
The story of my life,
This is the story of my life,
The story of my life,
This is the story of my life .

I wanna write the story of my life with you by my side,
and with you in every page of it...