Audience of One

its been one heck of a busy week
i've been out practically everyday
either catching up with old friends, church or out recky-ing for some things
me will just tell you guys about one or two of these days
i'll never finish if i type everything out XD
and i thank my mom for being so understanding that i couldnt have dinner with her everyday
although i do miss her cooking...
'you never know what you're missin till you've lost it'
eating food outside during the time outside really made me appreciate her cooking
may be weird for a guy but i think i should really try cooking together with her one day in the kitchen XD

on wednesday night we celebrated cindy's birthday at clarke quay!!!
cant really remember the name...mai mason or something like that
supposedly its in french
anyway, some of my cg members and sarah members were there too
it was a night fulla fun and laughter as we watched the games played by cindy and a few others
and the forfeits for losing XD
cindy looked so pretty!!!
she was dressed like a princess with that white dress of hers and the tiara =D
i also met some other people for the first time...
xiao hui, maple, joel and many others which i cant remember their names
shucks, me never been good at remembering many people names at one goXD
and well...in one way or another... i had trouble
hmm..no scratch that, not trouble
more of 'no clicking power' with my cg members
i'm trying my best to integrate with them but its just so...difficult at times
when you dont really get their inside jokes and the silly things they laugh about
it does get lonely and feeling left out at times
and i dont blame em, i guess its part of being the new guy
there's still time and i intend to use it to get to know them better!!!

then yesterday we celebrated another birthday!! my good ol' sister sarah turns 21!!!
well...not yet exactly but soon
we celebrated at costa sands chalet
and it was one helluva good celebration, huat ar =D
hehehe you shoulda seen her when she opened the present our old W331 cg members gave her
she was screaming like crazy i thought she was gonna burst XD
i'm glad she liked it after all that hunting josh and i did at taka last week
the food was also...like ah siao always say, 'up ar!'
which either he meant expensive or high class
aiya sama sama la ar XD as long as you get my flow
it was also a funny night with josh, sam chew and i discussing about a certain someone
someone that makes sam chew shrink in horror and josh's hair on his arms stand XD
hahahaha their faces are always full of it when they see her getting close to them
i dont have any side effects like them...yet =P
ok enough with this crazy talk XD
both of em stayed back in the chalet while i had to head home
yeah, my mom didnt allow me to stay overnight
i didnt want to start an argument with her anyway and she had her reasons..whatever they are for doing so
just hope that i'll be free when i turn 21

i've been thinking of our conversation yesterday and yeah, i'm glad i went ahead to talk to you
it was tough when i thought about how to bring it up to you
and all the things that could go wrong
but thank God it didnt :)
looking back at a year ago,
we really went a little too far ahead of ourselves...or at least i did on my part
silly me thinking it was love at first sight,
and all that led me to feeling like a complete train wreck inside during the past few months
things like the 'love at first sight thingy' probably only happens in fairy tales and movies i guess..who knows?
i'm really thankful all the friends who lended me their listening ear and patience during this time
without em, would never have really recovered
well anyway, i'm relieved we can still be friends
i do hope we can go back to how we used to be all fun and laughter =D
and i'm happy for you :)


days blurred into each other though everything seemed clear