Abolition...

Helllloooooo y'all loyal readers!
sorry havent been updating recently cause of the busy weeks in school
and the recently introduced game XD

well, first up last week was FOP!!
first time i went and honestly taken aback by the number of people there!
man,the whole indoor stadium was full.
the message by mike connor was really good
and it wouldn't have been complete if not for the music by the parachute band and hillsong united.
their songs are great but i think i still prefer casting crowns
"who am i?" and "east to west" are my all time personal favs

enough talk! here are the pictures :)

Nattarat the thai boi

Chris and JH getting busy calling people

Even Elyn has to get her hands dirty *sigh*

i think Chris has a photo of herself along with JH and me too.
anyway, the service was fun
but i'm not too enthusiastic about chasing the last train home those two days.



school hasn't been a bed of roses like some of 'em in uni
especially when you've got 3 tests in a week!
not to mention they were consecutive ones with 2 papers on the second day.
nevertheless,it was a good revision for the comin' exams
and i thank God for studying almost all the right questions.
speaking of school,time sure is passing very quickly.
another 21 more days and i'll be off to Taiwan for the next 6 months :(
i said it before and i'll say it again, i'll miss everyone!


last but not the least
i wanna thank jh for being able to confide with him in some things
don't get me wrong,its not that i don't trust the rest of the cg
in fact, you guys are one of my strongest supports in life
but perhaps he might be the only one to understand what i'm going through
its not easy to always act as if nothing happened on the outside
when i feel like someone is constantly stabbing me on the inside
there are some things i'm not proud of in my life
but its not something that i can reason with
especially when its beyond my control.



its like climbing out of one hole into another

How Did We Begin?

ok people, here's another quiz i'm doing.
when i scanned through the questions, it seemed to have quite a lotta questions on love compared to the rest i have done before.

if i had to guess, i think the person who created this quiz is probably in love or something like that. you will get what i'm talking about when you do it.

and this came along with it;

tag 6 others whom you want to do the quiz, those who were tagged cannot refuse.
if you wanna do it and post it on your blog, be my guest.

well, here goes nothing...

1. Is there any languages you will want to learn in the future?
lets see...for starters, i'm thinking of three.
malay, french and japanese.

2. Do you play or intend to learn any musical instruments?
i play a little on the drums but i'm thinking of learning how to play the electric guitar :)

3. Which type of musical instrument will you prefer your life partner to be able to play?
haha for some reason, a lotta people have asked me this before.
violin or piano will be it.

4. What is your favourite song?
i've been going through mostly my old music data base and i have to say
Sweet Child O' Mine by Guns N' Roses still the best.

5. What is your favourite colour?
black or blue.
sounds like someone getting whacked.

6. Day or Night?
night definitely!!!
i'm not a big fan of the sun especially with the rising temperatures.
besides, i have a dream which is lying down under a sky of stars.

7. What is your favourite animal?
tigers.
i fell in love with the cubs since i got those tiger cub soft toys redeemed from Esso back when i was a kid XD

8. What is your dream job?
with the way i'm into cars, its somewhere in the motorsport area.
perhaps drifting or rallying?

9. How do you prefer to express your feelings to someone you love?
jeez, quite a sudden change in the direction of questions.
anyway, lets continue..
i'm not good with words so poems are out.
i also try not to touch art unless i really have to so pictures are also out.
it will have to be music and the lyrics of the song :)

10. What is your ideal romantic place in Singapore?
somewhere away from all the traffic and crowd.
mount faber? or on top of the UOB tower?
actually the chinese and japanese gardens might just work too but there's just too many damn mosquitoes!!

11. Have you been lovesick before? How does it feel like?
of course, who hasn't?
its pretty bad. i would end up thinking about her day in day out and got no concentration to do anything else.
worse thing is there's not much you can do about it; the more i tried not to think of her, the worse it got :(

12. Is there anything else that amazes you about the opposite sex?
plenty!! i'll just name two for now.
the first is their mood swings...sheesh.
one moment, they can be laughing with you
and the next they can be hysterical.
one wrong word or move, you get yourself shredded, hacked, pulverised..you get the picture.

the second one may not be such a comfortable subject for some but heck..
the amount of money they put into buying lingerie.
correct me if i'm wrong, only they will see it so why buy something so expensive?
hmmm...you got me puzzled :/

13. If the person you have been waiting for goes into a relationship with another guy/gal, what will be your reaction?
gee...this will break the heart of even the strongest man on earth.
of course it will hurt like hell
but i guess the ideal thing to do is to keep a straight face and say the words "i'm happy for you".
after that i'll probably drink alcohol till i drop or find something else to do in order to numb the pain.

14. Will you prefer fall in love with a friend or a complete stranger?
of the course the first.
i mean you gotta know someone in order to fall in love with them right?
looks do play a part but they are secondary to character...at least for me.

15. Are you in love currently? Which part of him/her do you love about the most?
i was hoping there wouldn't be a question like this.
if you have to know..the answer's yes.
hmm..i love her eyes the most. she's got beautiful eyes :)

16. What is your favourite movie on love?
i haven't watched many love movies
but 50 first dates will be the one.
it always give me the "aww..." kinda feeling.
what really amazes me is how the adam sandler has to win drew barrymore's heart every time he meets her.

well, thats about it.
have fun doin it XD

When its all said and done, it gets hard but it won't take away my love..

I Tried But I Just Can't Look Away

As you might have guessed,this entry has something to do with a birthday and yes its my grandfather's birthday. Today was his 83rd brithday and his 8 daughters decided to celebrate it for him at home!! 2 of my aunts couldn't make it cause they had something on but he's one happy active guy despite his age. Man, 10 daughters!! Can you believe that?! One more daughter is all he needs to form a female soccer team, sheesh. Here's a picture of my niece Shauna, she's only 8 months old I think. Its the first time I'm seeing her and look at the sweet smile on her face,awww....
That still doesn't change my opinion about kids ok, I still ab-so-bloody-lutely perfer dogs rather than kids. Look at those terrifying monsters in the background (the ones on the left)!! They were running all over the house and screaming at the top of their lungs. My Mom said I was exactly like them when I was their age maybe even worse and by that, I was stunned O.o

PED is finally over!! Not that the workload is completely finished but a heavy load's gone for sure. The printing costed a bomb cause we print wrongly for some alignment mistakes. We did over 300 pages for that report and sadly I must say, I did not contribute much to it. Most of it was Edmund's hard work. Edmund if you're reading this, once again I apologize for the wrong data keyed in and for going offline so early. I'm not gonna make any excuses for what I did and I am truly sincerely super duper mega ultra sorry. Nevertheless I thank God for the all the hard work and effort all of us put in to complete the report.

Five months of hard work!!

Moving on, my Mom's stuck on dramas again. This time its not only on Korean ones but Taiwanese and Hong Kong ones as well. I was just sitting one side doing my stuff while she watched this show on a love story, when she started cursing and swearing at a guy in the show. I was like "Here we go again...she's sure to ask me about whether was I like him in any way." True enough, she asked me about it. The drama was about this guy who backed outta a loved triangle so that the woman he loves can be happy with another guy that she loves. "Sam ar, will you do that if you were him?" she asked and my answer, "er...and if I do?". That was a fatal answer as you mighta guessed. There she went on about how this is a dog eat dog world, how silly I was and blah blah blah..you get the picture. I was thinking oh Lord help me. Obviously, I didn't bother arguing with her cause after all these years...the best way to stop her nagging was to just keep your mouth shut and listen (even if it meant going into one ear and coming out through the other XD). Jokes aside, I woulda seriously done what I told her. After all, loving a person is wanting them to be happy right? sometimes even if it meant not being with you I guess..Well, at least thats what I feel.

Anyway, cgm on Fri was good!! I have to apologize to the rest for making them wait outside for a while cause I was asleep with earphones stuck into my ears. I'm so sorry!! It was quite a good change though. That means I can see them one last time during that week when I'm leaving!! Come to think of it, they really have become an important part me. I really wouldn't know what to do without them. One thing's for sure, I wouldn't trade them for anything and I thank God for bringing them into my life!! Thats all!

Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again...

Wore It Proud For The Sake Of My Sanity

Yes, this is what I'm feeling now. It will end soon, just a teenie weenie more to go. This post will be quite long but BUT I'm gonna add another two pictures as part of becoming the camera trigger happy guy that I promised. Anyway, I recently came across a really old song in my music database. So Far Away by Staind. It brought back the memories of sec sch and my bros,still remember the good ol' days Zubin?

How you used to limp around in a crutch back in sec 2 and Shen and I had to help you around?

The days we spent at Raffles Town Club with the brotherhood?

Here's the chorus part of the song;

Now that we're here,
It's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here its so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive and I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

First up, Sunday was a pretty good day starting with cgm and Chris brought her own homemade apple crumble!! It tasted pretty good but she said it wasn't good enough cause the apples weren't sweet. Man, she's got high expectations. After that, we went for lunch before I headed to school. You ask me "what the heck are you goin to school for on a Sun?" I took this picture without them guys realizing, look at how concentrated they are...wait a min, all of them were doing work except Mk cause he was playing PSP.
PED!! Its Process Engineering Design if you don't know what's it. It was already 7+pm then. For me, it was only about 4-5hrs but ah Teck, MK and Edmund's been there since 11am. Josh came slightly later than I did but he stayed with us till the end as well. The mosquitoes there also seem to like me better than the rest, I got 5-6 bites but the rest didn't even get bitten, sheesh...Anyway, after that we went to Bukit Timah Road Market for dinner before heading home.

There wasn't anything much yesterday except Mk, Adrian and I went to get our visas at the PSA building in Harbourfront. The journey there took longer than we were in the PSA building, we only like spent 10 mins inside while the journey there was about an hour, not to mention the time spent going back home. Speaking of school, here another picture I took during one of the lab sessions. The one and only absolutely "tao nao pai" siao po momomolissa..
Can't remember when I took it and why did I even take it in the first place. Here's your picture on my blog Momomolissa but its not the one in your bikini hahahaha.

Finally, today with the ICP test and NAPFA (oh yeah, thank you Jas for the ride home..I think I would have KO'ed if I had to take the bus at that kinda timing) on the same day plus the low energy level was really "gao lat". Nevertheless, I thank Him for watching over me despite me feeling a little giddy in the morning. The test wasn't really done well but it wasn't bad either, the results will be revealed eventually. As for the NAPFA, I congratulate all who participated and especially those managed to get the silver award so they can skip BMT for 2 months. Unfortunately, I'm not one of 'em but I can try again when I get back from Taiwan which means I must exercise there..what the heck? Its not impossible but its gonna be hard to resist over-eating there with all the good food thats for sure.
Surprisingly, I managed to do 3 pull-ups and according to Bala, it was the standard full one not like those who chao keng(maybe I sounded like I was pointing fingers at some people but I'm not). I know its nothing to boast about to people like ah Lim and Josh, they can do 10 and maybe even more!! But it was quite an achievement for me considering that I couldn't even do half back in March. I still have to thank the Lord for that, its not by my strength but by His spirit.

Hmm...I realize I'm beginning to thank God for a lotta things, even for small things like His daily protection. For this, I thank the friends who brought me back to Him. You guys know who you are. He was always there with me but I just took Him for granted in the past. I only hope He can forgive me and continue to stay with me always.

I can't be home tonight but I'll make it back,its alright...

What It Means To Be In This World?

About the previous post, if you're wondering..think about it no more. I've decided on the course of action to take and it was the right thing to do. Its not the end of the world but there are just some things in life you gotta let go.

If you saw the news earlier, a typhoon just hit Taiwan!! Geez, the flood there's like..crazy! Hope its not like that during my stay there but who am I trying to kid? What are the chances of no typhoon during the monsoon season?

My mom went "You better bring thicker clothes there, it was so cold there when your father and I went for our honeymoon there." The moment she said that, I burst out laughing and asked her, "how old were you when it was your honeymoon?" I admit I should be sucka punched for bringing her age into the subject. Yes but anyway, that was like 30 years ago. The weather has changed a lot since 30 years ago. You don't have temperatures soaring above 32 degrees in Singapore 30 years back and the sea level was also probably much lower then. Why did I suddenly go into geog?Sheesh...I sounded like my geog teacher back in sec sch.

In any case, the point is sometimes parents worry too much. I tell my mom I going there for six months to do some research work and she's acting like I'm going to war with all the food and clothes she's telling me to stock up on.

From today onwards, I'm gonna get a little trigger happy with my (actually not mine but can use can already la) digicam and hp cam so don't be shy when I take photos of you guys. I know it will feel weird when a guy who usually don't take pictures take pictures all of a sudden. Reason's cause I don't have much pictures with me and hey,in case you might not know I really treasure every bit of the friends around me!!

When its beyond your control, sometimes its just best to let go...

Mess

Before you go on reading this post, although I'm probably just talking to myself...I'd appreciate it when you see me don't go; what where why when who and how about this post. In fact,I don't even wanna talk about it!! You can discuss it with whoever you want till dawn for all I care when I'm not there. If you know you can't resist the temptation to ask me, I suggest you just go on surfing the net and skip this post. I'll be fine after a few days, hopefully...





Since you decided to go on reading, here goes...

Sam, Sam, Sam....

Life is too unpredictable,
it could be there one week and gone the next.
You feel like crap now, don't you?
You have heard it on radio, saw it in movies, even read it in books
Of all the damn holes and drains you could have fallen into,
you just had to fall into this abyss called love.
You were asking for it right from the start!!
You should have gotten the hint when she told you earlier,
yet you never know when to stop till the freight train runs you over.
Perhaps you keep asking yourself,
"what's happened to her? Its obvious she's changed..."
but deep inside you know what she desires to do is the right thing,
you should be happy for her and even proud of her.
As a matter of fact, ask yourself what's really causing you to feel this way?
to feel like playing the good ol' game of Russian Roulette with five bullets instead of the usual one...

Ego Mos Usquequaque Diligo Vos

Like the picture above, I had one really really really nasty dream last night. I got up shivering and ended up with an extremely heavy heart. Guess that explains why I never had the appetite to eat anything today since I got up even till now. It was something like the previous dream I had about the cg at Josh's house but this time it revolved around one person and it was a whole lot super duper mega ultra worse. Anyway, I won't bore you guys anymore explaining the details of my dream, you can ask me in person if you really wanna know.

Today Adrian, MK and I went to get our letter for the OIAP. Its pretty long including all the insurance stuff. We're goin to make the visa at the Taiwan Embassy in the PSA building this coming Friday. If MK manages to book the air tickets without anything going awry, we would be leaving on the 30th Aug around 1p.m. I know them cg guys have service later that day so I guess I won't be seeing them till I get back. Just hope Zubin and the brotherhood can make it that day. Oh well, I won't blame anyone even if no one sends me off although coming to think of it..its a kinda sad case don't you think? *sigh*

Six months's pretty long time if you think about it. Thats 165 days; 3960 hours; 237,600 minutes and 14,256,000 seconds. What is this? I haven't even left yet and here I am counting the time before I can see her again. Sheesh...how can I explain this fear I feel inside?


啊　給我一杯忘情水
換我一生不傷悲,
就算我會喝醉,
就算我會心碎,
不會看見我流淚