Let It Go

I realised I've been MIA for quite a while both online and on my blog haha
my apologies, been busy with work during the day
and when i get home, the only thing I want to do is to relax
well, what's been happening of late...
there was a W480 vs W452 badminton tournament...at least it was supposed to be one until we just played for the fun of it XD
zu came along as well
waa..sure feels like old times during our sec school days when we would go play during the weekends XD
all of the pics are on fb alrdy so go take a look if you've got the chance
this is my favourite shot personally...although i'm not too sure who took it

i think the person who took the angle of this shot quite...abstract ar

"i take, i take, i taaaaake!"

then we had our (or rather my) first cgm at Maple's house after the SOS bs
hehe for the first time in my 1 1/2 years in CHC, cgm was soooo near!! XD
hopefully, the upcoming one I can drive there
still, thank you to Maple who opened her house for us
pretty quiet but nice place I must say

oh yesh, how could I forget
our W331 reunion with Elyn to celebrate her birthday!
she didnt look like she changed much after so long haha
except for the fact she looks very stylish with her specs and much thinner XD
we had steamboat at bugis last thursday
it feels so long since we actually all sat down together and had time to have fun :)
unfortunately our good friend Christina was quarantined at home *smack forehead*
nair mind, we will all get out together again sometime soon =D

its been so long since i felt this way once again
and I thought friendship was both ways, not just one person making the effort to know the other all the time
it gets discouraging at times
I do care about you...in fact, too much at times
but this...this has to stop
Its getting too tough for me to handle
all the thoughts of you at night,
wondering what you're doing or who you're thinking of...
its not easy but i'm trusting it into the Lord's hands

I'll just need to let it go

To Never Lie, Cheat or Steal

if you must lie,
lie in the arms of your loved one

if you must cheat,
cheat death

if you must steal,
steal away from bad company

why does it take just a minute to say hello but forever to say goodbye?

transformers 2!!! man,i think no one would disagree if i said it was one of the best movies this year
the effects are pretty stunning for a movie
its one of those few movies that left a deep impression on me
anyway, the college part in the movie...*evil laughter*
a handful of curious teenagers + their raging hormones...you do the math XD
i've heard....about things about the college life in the US :P
*singing busted's song* "thats what i go to school for.." XD
haha i was just kidding around
i shall not spoil it for those who havent watched it yet but its a must see movie...debinitely

i was just checking out the videos on youtube and i think you gotta watch this haha
those crazy arabs
i always wondered what they did with all the revenue they earned from their oil wells
perhaps you should turn off the speaker if you not a fan of techno music XD
but still its interesting..and there's more where that came from

youch...thats gotta hurt when you land on your head like this XD
this one's gonna be a long post so bear with me
first up!! Josh's 21st!
we celebrated it on sunday night at jeremy's condo, backyard bbq style XD
sarah and i went there early to set the place up, blowing balloons, hanging up decorations, etc.
since there was no pump we had to blow the 20+ balloons ourselves
you shoulda seen our faces after we blown the balloons haha
our faces were so red!!! :P
thankfully, reinforcements (or rather without the 's') arrived :P

ta-da!!! our lovely christina arrived!!

but she did her cards first so aiya...nair mind XD
heyy...i just realized she went down quite a bit ar
perhaps the workout from the dance?? haha
speaking of the dance...oh shucks so sorry my dear,
i couldnt make it for the one tonight and i feel so bad about it =/
and speaking of going down...cindy said i grew thinner hahahaha XD
anyway back to it
His family also came all the way down from m'sia to celebrate with him too...awww
i didnt take much pictures because i ended up getting my hands dirty with charcoal and cooking the food
...as always, but its always better to give than take right? :)

the birthday boy's cake!

pardon the bad quality ar,
poor lighting and taken with phone camera = cant expect too good pictures
alamak, he was looking at a different direction
ahh nair mind
anyway, hope we made this birthday a memorable one and you enjoyed it brudda!! :)
May God continue to bless you in ebbreething you do!

its funny how our friendship started back in poly
in fact, he and i actually werent too close in the first year and even the first half of the second year
prolly because of our first lab assignment together
there were lots of misunderstandings then
and i have to admit i was also quite immature then along with the other guys
the other guys and i always thought he was kinda....crooked cause of his metrosexuality
ok josh i repent!!! dont whack me! XD
we were more of the 'hi,bye' kinda friends
but when the second half of year 2 started we started to grow closer through projects, fellowshipping, etc.
that was when he brought me to chc and i got saved....again
since then he has always been a big brother i looked up to :)
then came year 3...sheesh who could forget the days we reached school at 8am for lessons and stayed until 10+ or 11pm in school to do our fyp
then our favourite food for dinner at the SIM canteen,'auntie ar, wanton mee ji pao'
as the deadline drew nearer, we were staying later until we ended up doing till 4+am (at home of course XD)
i think during that time many friendships were really put to the test
it was either you make it or break it, not to mention that relationships that also ended
that was how huge the pressure was from all the competition
even after all that, i'm glad we still remained the best of friends

ok some people have been asking me about hannah, the gal you see in the tag area
she's a really good friend of mine, more like a sister haha =D
she and i go way back to pri school...pri 5 to be exact when we first became classmates
hmm..she was boyish in some areas but she's still a great gal in ways more than one XD
she always liked to play catching back in pri sch when we ran all over the school carpark with our other friends and were all sweaty after recess
what else...ahh yesh, she watched WWE also haha back then it was called WWF
and i think her favourite was the rock..."can you smeeellllll what the rock is cookin?" XD
not to mention she watches soccer too, die hard man-u fan
dun mind me talking about this han haha
dont let all this fool you, she's our pri and sec school 校花 if you will
very popular with the guys
how we got to know each other...i really think its God 's plan if you ask me
thing is a very close brudda of mine, zubin actually liked her a lot for quite long...a few years, cant really remember the exact number
and me on the other hand, had a crush on one of hannah's good friend for 8 years (0.o i know haha)
who is it? not important, she's a very spiritually strong woman now and happily attached too, i'm happy for her :)
so yeah, coincidental? the only reason i can think of is the one above :)


....cause who i am hates who i've been

Happy Father's Day!!!!
make sure you remember to wish your dad XD
yesterday's service was a pretty good one haha
the drama was hilarious but what really left an impression on me was the sermon
although short but deep :)

sometimes i suppose we all let our carnal nature take over in more than one ways
and we end up demanding from God miracles, answers about visions, etc.
but have you ever wondered why He did things the way He did?
the answer: maturity
lemme give you the same analogy pst tan used...
he said his daughter always asked him for ice cream
and in exchange for that ice cream, she would have to do her homework
of course this is the part most kids hated, haha i was one of em
doing homework -> good results -> success in education -> good job -> good pay
and with the good pay...yup you guessed it,
you can eat ice cream everyday if you wanted
heck, no one will stop you even if you ate one each hour
its the same way with us and God,
we always want something immediate, NOW!!
try looking at things from His perspective,
all the trials He put us through is to mould our character and help mature us
as the bible says, God never lets a trial go to waste
what we want might not be for the best of our interest but hey, He knows best right? :)
its gonna be tough but patience is the key
thats something i'm gonna have to work on too XD

i'm a guy. Since when do we ever get things right the first time?

i just got back from watching the taking of pelham 123 with kok and shen
and i still have work tomorrow!!!
shucks, at this rate i'm going
i'm gonna fall sick one day
the movie was quite interesting though surprisingly full of vulgarities and with an ending a bit too abrupt

speaking of work, lots of people have been asking me why did i take this warehouse assisstant job
alright just to clear all these...misunderstandings
sure its tough and the pay's a little low
but i dont detest the job and i also wont say i like the job too
both are too extreme words to use
i take it more as an experience, to see what one does in this kinda job
so that in the future,i can choose the job i want more easily :)
of course, being the motorhead that i am...my dream job would be a racer
anyway, back to what i was saying
the job is actually quite enjoyable because of my colleagues
they come from all walks of life before they got this job and not to mention they are pretty funny XD
my supervisor can shout from one end of the warehouse to another of his old kaki not to play around in hokkien and the other guy will shout back something funny
btw, my supervisor is a malay XD
i know whacha thinking...i dunno how he mastered mandarin and hokkien so fluently even sometimes i converse with him in hokkien as well
everyday there's laughter goin around and thats something i dont think you will find in most work places
so yeah...thats all i have for you

i'm trying to fight it but i just cant help it

lots been happening this week and even more next week
sharon and elis left for HK yesterday morning,
saw them off at the airport along with elis's family and bf..turned out to be quite sentimental haha
i hope they are getting used to the environment there
and although its only like 2 days...i'm starting to miss her XD
angela and i did a card for her,
and i dunno how it got passed around until it ended up in someone else's hands instead of hers XD

this what i drew before angela took it home to colour and decorate it

unfortunately,didnt get a picture of the card when it was done
i must say we did a pretty good job and thank goodness sharon liked it
i was afraid she might find it too..kiddy XD
hui mien was asking me to draw her a calvin and hobbes card when it came her birthday haha
it wouldnt have been a problem in the past but now my drawing skills are not as good so we will see XD

celebrity weekend was great!!
although i'm not exactly a mandarin pop fan, it was quite an exciting two hours there in church with some of the big names like FIR, vaness wu, liu geng hong...
reminded me of new year's eve in taiwan when all the famous singers came out to perform at the parade square near the taipei 101 building :)
back then it was so crowded i couldnt even see my own feet!
and when the crowd was jumping to a song,you'd better jump along or risk getting knocked over by those crazy fans XD
after dinner, cindy was talking to me about um...a certain something
but it certainly did knock some sense into that thick skull of mine
what she said was very true and
i really thank God for giving me such a wonderful sister who always shared her thoughts and disciples me so patiently :)

anyway,today i went to mandai in the early evening to pay my dad a visit at the coloumbarium
after that i was on my way home when i decided to stop at the nearby reservoir to watch the sunset
must say it was a beautiful view :)
lots of couples were cuddling around the bench area so i figured it was better to view from the car :P

speaking of cars, a friend was asking me how did i pass the tp (traffic police for those who have no clue) test
and well...there was really nothing to say except to keep practicing
at least that was what i did, there was
even so,after passing the test i forgot most of the stuff that i learnt
i just look at the rear and side mirrors only and dont bother checking the blind spots anymore
i assured him he will prolly learn more bad habits than good ones when he starts driving on his own
what do i mean? some examples...
1)driving with one hand on the steering (guilty XD)

2)taking off your shoes or whatever you are wearing on your feet (not guilty)

3)the occasional cursing and swearing when a car suddenly stops in front to pick up or alight passengers (guilty)

4)exclaiming "confirm sure woman driver!" when the driver in front is hesitant in changing lanes or have problems parking (guilty, sorry to all those female drivers out there haha XD)

5)and of course who can forget the ever favourite: speeding (guilty)

shucks, 4 outta 5
i'm definitely not the kinda driver the government will want to use when promoting safe driving XD
alright thats all for now, i will fill guys in more some time later

Up Around The Bend

i went with the W452 and W480 homies today for dinner at clarke quay
i shant go into the details but although i just saw them W452 homies last week, it feels like a long time
yesh i admit i do miss them one way or another but most of all i miss cindy!!!!
not to worry rou, u're still my respected cgl :)
we went to celebrate matt's upcoming...oops, no more upcoming,its his birthday today XD
and of course sharon's farewell dinner
after that, they went to the nearby pub called helipad for drinks 0.o
i know, the name sure sounds interesting aint it?
when i first heard it, i was picturing a couple of people squatting around an actual helipad on the roof of central drinking beers and your usual hard liquors like chivas, scotch yada yada XD
unfortunately i didnt go with em because i was feeling kinda tired from all the work

on the working side of things, the warehouse was busy like crazy today
constantly moving around with goods and pasting labels on several hundreds of items for the past 8 hours
shucks, my fingers feel kinda sore and some of the skin are actually peeling off!!!
i wanted to use the pallet jack as a skateboard when it was almost time to get off work but the thought of the executive supervisor catching me...well, didnt seem too nice XD

i wanna thank two people for helping me to understand some stuff if not i'll still be feeling dejected and lost
first up, ah tong for always being there to hear me out whenever i needed a listening ear and advice, you will always be one of mah besh sisters around XD
and yesh you too rou, for explaining and clearing things up...i appreciate it :)

i'm sorry i got a little too ahead of myself
i really had no idea and didnt mean for all this to happen
i know this isnt easy on your part as well and you will have to think this through
but i do hope we can go back to the way we were in the past :)

Tough Decisions

hmm...ever wondered if you going in the right direction at times?
you may ask around for advice...or perhaps even a solution
hoping people might have experienced the same situation you are going through now
but even after they tell you what their thoughts, it all goes back to wondering even more
and i really dunno what to do
its one those things that can drive you crazy and sometimes becoming a nervous wreck altogether
dont mind me, its about some things i just discussed with rou thats all XD


butterflies in your stomach XD

Glasgow Kiss

its been sucha happy week
spent time with my new cg and must say they are interesting people :)
got a lift back from hui mien on friday after the combined cgm at expo!! she's a life saver haha
i finally found people who live around the area where i live...or at least go there for one reason or another XD
well i almost felt bad for those living in the west back on fri
especially those like christina, sharon, pb, etc
speaking of pb, he and i went shopping for his shoes on fri before the whole expo thing in town
and well...like always i still got a bit lost hahaha
for those who dunno me that well, i can get lost in town at times XD
then we went to watch monsters and aliens on saturday after service
we ended up laughing like a buncha whackos throughout the whole movie especially when the kids behind us went "oh no" when insectosaurus supposedly died haha XD
on a serious note, they might be somewhat different from W452 in one or two ways...
but yesh yesh i'm very happy with this new family and i must get to know them better on my part
and thank you to people like rouxin, sharon, sarah, tong for always reassuring me, i appreciate it :)

shucks, i got the song i'll be there for you by rembrandts stuck in my head XD

Too Much, Too Young, Too Fast

you sure took me by surprise but i'm honoured that you're trusting me :)
it certainly feels like the picture above with this new role
there are only 3 things i'm feeling now
1) happy and motivated by the new challenge
2) just worry i wouldnt be able to live up to your expectations
3) a bittersweet feeling for all the homies i'm leaving behind

but still, i'll do my best and wont let you down :)

The Middle

hiya dudes and dudettes
sorry for the late update cause i really didnt have anything
manslaughter!!!
yesh i almost committed that today
i was mopping the floor today when i accidentally hit the broom my mom left at the balcony
and JERONIMO!!!!
down it went 24 storeys
of course after discovering that, i went down to see if the broom had hit anyone
thankfully it didnt, talk about killer litter XD
but...the broom ended up in 2 pieces
considering the force it had falling from 24 storeys, could honestly say i wasnt too surprised
somehow, someway i managed to patch both pieces back into one :P

you must be wondering what i've doing for the past days or even weeks
well...i was really looking for a job, practically send out resumes almost every week
but i suppose when you only have 3 months or so, chances are really very slim
so i've more or less given up this whole job thing...maybe i'll just go learn something for a change :)
yeap apart from that, i've been gymming about twice a week with an old friend zubin
we usually try to go in the mornings and afternoons
cause them gyms are usually packed with people at nights
and...well lets just say the both of us tend to lose our concentration in what we originally came to do XD
if you cant figure out what i'm trying to say, use your imagination
alright, thats all for now :)

Just do your best, be yourself and dont worry about what their bitter hearts will say :)

All or Nothing

this post could be a little random
but anyway...its just some reflection on my part
i always get people asking me "why are you so quiet?" or something like that
sure,i guess i'm a guy with not much words
not like chitty chatty guys...for example, josh
which i woulda liked to become...that is if i could choose
in any case, i've always wondered why i'm like that
in fact, i even asked my mom why was i this way and the only thing she said pops was the same
he wasnt a guy who talked much
so i guess its genes?? all that stuff about your 23 pairs of chromosomes
fair enough, then the next question that popped into my mind was then how did the two of you get together in the first place?
of course,i never asked her that XD
i just thought women like guys who talk a lot with them...at least thats my impression

on my side of things
of course i care about you guys and love talking to all of you =D
but its just that sometimes i cant find the...right words to say
you can say its God's way of creating a unique me
but...what's the point of being unique in a way that most people dont like?
or rather cant appreciate
heck, is there even anything to appreciate about me in the first place?
arghh forgeddabt it XD

with you i know that i'm good for something :)

Everlong

how many times has things been like the picture for us? XD
i'm sure we all have had our fair share but still we know our mothers meant good
a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! to all mothers out there
the drama at service yesterday has been quite a funny one showing all the crazy things our mothers went through to bring us up
indeed its not easy being a parent and i'm thankful to my mom for that =D
i havent got the chance to treat her to a good meal today apart from KFC today
so tomorrow then i'll bring her to jack's place when she's hopefully less busy

yesterday the drive back from my grandpa's house was unlike anything before
my mom was tired so she sat in the back resting
and finally for once, the whole ride was so peaceful without her usual nagging at my driving
there was no "drive with two hands ar!!!" (sorry manual drivers' bad habit) or even "go slower!!!"
she worries too much sometimes
hahaha i told her we should do this more often XD

a friend didnt sound okay yesterday but she didnt wanna talk about it too
i just hope she's feeling better now
hmm...maybe later i'll give her a call
anyway tomorrow's the graduation thingy
and i'm quite nervous about it

if everything could ever feel this real forever :)

Nothing Else Matters

it feels super long since i came here
life has been pretty much the same but with a few changes
first of all, i'll prolly be enlisting in sep and place is in tekong
OMG
why cant i just go catch theives or be around the german shepherds in the canine unit like josh?
oh well, the hazards of being a male in singapore

secondly, some of you mighta known this but i've been accepted into NTU
i was really surprised cause my results arent all that good as compared to my classmates
in fact, my results are below average....at least to me
its at times like this when you can really feel our heavenly father is watching us from above :)
He never fails us even we expect ourselves to

that sums about most of it
last saturday i went to help out at the drama in the chinese ministry for the first time after service
most of the homies went to watch x-men origins: wolverine XD
but since i watched it already, i was planning on goin home early to rest
then here our good sister sitong asking if i could go help out
oh well...how could i say no??? :P
but i felt bad about not being able to make it to the expo service the next morning with flora cause i promised her i would be goin
thankfully, she was understanding :)
anyway back to the story
so back to the church we went after dinner
and into the auditorium we went
sitong intro-ed me to all her friends there especially those from SOT
most of em came from taiwan
and immediately they reminded me of how horrible my mandarin when i was there and even now XD
seriously, i'm more used to the more ang moh pai environment here in singapore
after all, i was brought up speaking english most of the time at home....and a little bit of hokkien XD
the drama was the lovebusters one but the cast was entirely different
dont worry, i wasnt acting with em...just part of the three men backstage crew
believe it or not, we practiced until 1+ in the morning cause the director wasnt too pleased with the casts' performance
not to mention we gotta reach the church the next morning by 7
i almost fainted when i heard that
hahahaha even cindy also said "omg sam, what have you gotten yourself into this time?" XD
yeap so took a cab back and reached home by 2
i wanted to stay up through the night like i did back during the prayer meeting when i came back that day
but i couldnt tahan after 4 so i went to sleep for about an hour before setting out again
eventually the performance was a smashin success!!!! =D
and guess who i met after the service?
greg was at the lift and he looked so surprised when he saw me hahaha
and steph too!!
i also finally got to see her prince charming bf, no wonder both of them won the competition XD
tiring it was after sleeping only for an hour but there was a great sense of satisfaction and i'm glad to be able to help them :)
hmm...i might just consider joining the backstage crew XD

the past few days i've been learning how to cook from my mom while looking for jobs at home
i know i know its not usually what a guy would do XD
still, its fun when you see the fruits of your labour :)

couldnt be much more from the heart

Silent Hill...

have you ever watched the movie?
unfortunately, its a completely different experience from playing the game
the other day i just got my hands on the latest installation of this franchise; silent hill: homecoming
a lot more horror compared to the previous 4 silent hill games
i heard it had quite an interesting story line and
there's a 101 ways of killing the monsters around you
speaking of monsters, they resemble to that of the movie
remember the skimpily dressed nurses wielding super sharp scalpels with no faces?
yeap, they are back XD
giant spiders with 4 legs that can act as blades and they got a faceless head too
and finally some crawling creature that looks weird at every angle you look at it...
at least, these are the monsters i've met so far
well..these abominations are taken out using melee weapons most of the time cause bullets in the game are a privilege you cannot afford to waste if you wanna have an easier time with the bosses
i miss the days in silent hill 2 or 3 when there was so much ammunition lying around
..no problem with just getting the shotgun and blowing the monsters' heads off their bodies
honestly, even after so many years of playing this kinda games..
this one scares the crap outta me the most...much more than f.e.a.r 2 and the fatal frame series
i remember playing the first silent when i was just a P4 kid
and i was so scared of sleeping when bedtime came *smack forehead*
the crazy imagination of those hands grabbing you in the dark or seeing one of those monsters at your window
my mom would always ask me, "you funny ar, play this kind of games to scare yourself" XD
speaking of which, i never had any female gamer friends who played this game at all
i dunno, ladies is it the gore or the horror that scares you? =P

anyway, enough about that all that
its so difficult at times
i dunno the words to say
or the things to do in order to bridge the gap
God gimme the wisdom and strength

A Belated Birthday Post....

first of all, a super duper mega ultra big thank you to all my brothers and church homies for the celebration and the presents
its one of the best i've had yet
i'm 20!!!!
it might be good or bad depending on the way you look at it...
of course looking from cindy and christina's one...it would prolly mean the latter XD
looking at my younger cousins and zubin's brother grow up, i myself am starting to feel old man

and thank you to zu and kenneth for accompanying me to go get me ''new wife'' XD
i'm still currently thinking of a name for her so dont be puzzled when i start asking you for your favourite female names
if you're still clueless, its a guitar
yeah, thinking of all my favourite guitarists and when i held my first one in my own hands...
it kinda felt a little unreal
and the road to their level's not gonna be as easy as i thought after i saw how kenneth tried out the guitars today..
oh i forgot to mention, kenneth's an old time friend of mine when we met back in primary school...
P1 i remember, we were in the same class till P4 then we ended in the same school in secondary school
but not the same class...until sec 3 and sec 4 then we ended up going to the same poly
that guy bought his first electric guitar at P4 and has been playing since (now he has 4 guitars, including acoustic ones too i think)
during our sec school days, he was called the guitar god among us
any problems you have with your guitars, acoustic or electric...he's the man to go to

anyway he asked me who was my favourite guitarist so i decided to might as well do a post on it
yeah man, the one who really inspired me was uh....lets see
Carlos Santana
this dude is old man but he's one of the best in the business
he started out when he was a teenager too i think and went through the hippy age
the good ol' crazy days when drugs were an everyday thing and alcohol was cheap like water XD
this was how he looked like in his 20s i think
most people say his best songs were 'europa' (a full instrumental track) and 'smooth' ( a collarboration with rob thomas)
but i still think 'i'm feeling you' (a collarboration with michelle branch) and 'into the night' (yet another collarboration with chad kroeger) are the best, you should see the mv on youtube
they are my favourite tracks too, never fails to make me smile...for whatever reason
anyway me do hope to play like him one day =)

well thats all i've got, thanks again homies!!! =D

Absou-friggin'-lutely

i just got back from watching DMC which stands for Detroit Metal City with the guys
if you guessed it had something to do with music, you got it
its a japanese film about a guy chasing his dreams to be musician
like any japanese film or anime, there's a lot of exaggeration in the plots
but its more of comedy so its alright :)
we were laughing so hard at almost every part of the movie
there are some parts that are vulgar to some extent
but i'd still recommend it to anyone who has time on their hands
alright next movies up, handsome suit and fast and furious 4 (oh yeah!!! finally!)

good news!!
my mom's sponsoring my new guitar for a birthday present!!!
like i told josh, no worries
this time its a real guitar, not the one from guitar hero XD
(speaking of guitar hero,
the guys are comin over on wed to play the guitar hero:metallica i just got today
i just hope no hell breaks loose with 5-7 people jammin on one single guitar in a room
heck, i hope nothing breaks at all)
but i still gotta pay for the amp myself *smack forehead*
its been a week since i applied for that job at IRAS but i still havent got any replies...
i need a financial breakthrough GOD!!!!!

and malcolm if you're reading,
about what we were talking about
yesh yesh i know you're concerned,
or maybe just plain kpo (which i hope not :P)
anyway, i do appreciate the concern
i will tell you as soon as i have one in mind
as for now, things have been a little crazy around me
and like i told you its no big deal
i talked to cindy about it so you can go ask her if you really really cannot tahan like what you said XD

strap up and get ready to ride the lighting this saturday homies!!!

and while she looks so sad in photographs, i absolutely love her when she smiles =D

If Today Was Your Last Day

2 wake sessions, 2 funerals and 2 cremations
1st time for me at least goin through all these in 5 days
its never easy seeing your loved one passing on
one of my best friend's grandma's funeral was today and when they sang the song 'amazing grace'
it just brought back the memories from my dad's...
it was sorta the main song for the funeral back then
come to think of it, it has been almost 13 years since then
funny thing's the song 月亮代表我的心 just kept playing in my head earlier XD
i guess cause it was my mom's favourite song and she kept listening to it for some time after my dad was gone

i miss the times my dad took me to marine parade to fly kites (literally :P),
i miss the times he would get me to sing with him canto pop karaoke songs during the weekend,
i miss the times he would just teach me about the engine parts while we were waiting in the car,
and i sure as hell miss the times he played all the games on the sega 16-bit console with me
unfortunately, all this happened when i was just a small kid and he was gone when i was 7
you never know whacha missin till its gone
but i appreciate the lesson cindy gave me on fatherhood on monday :)
it was a really fruitful one and its nice knowing there's someone looking over you somewhere out there =D

treasure all your loved ones people...
appreciate them for the one and only special person they are
and give them all the love you can!!! =D

Each day's a gift and not a given right
Every second counts cause there's no second try

La-Li-Lu-Le-Lo

the late nights are really getting to me
i've been sleeping at 4 to 5 in the morning for the past 2 to 3 weeks
and why? you ask
josh always hit the jackpot when he guesses such stuff
yeah,i've been playing my ps3
well...more specifically metal gear solid 4: guns of the patriots
i've completed it a few times but i'm trying to get the octopus emblem which requires no alerts throughout the game, good grief *smack forehead*
ok,i apologize if you're not a gamer
this post is more for my gamer friends
i've been following it since the first one came out back in 98
its one of the games that left a very a deep impression on me, like the final fantasy series if you get what i'm talking about
partly cause of the instrumental song 'enclosure' and the ending song 'the best is yet to come' in mgs1
and apparently this is the last one :(
a lot of the old characters from mgs1,2 and 3 came back in the game
and finally the game creators answered all the "why"s when they left us puzzled at the end of each game when we were wondering what the heck was the plot about
anyway enough talk, here are some pictures from the game...

the main character of the game, snake..or rather solid snake and yes this is the actual graphics when you're playing XD
the wonders of HD and blu-ray *evil grin*

the bosses...
and surprisingly, these are females
victims traumatised by war in their homeland and used by others to become war machines themselves
from the left to right...laughing octopus, raging raven, crying wolf and finally screaming mantis floating above the rest at the top
notice they all have emotions before their animal names, its what drives them to fight
for example, laughing octopus always laughs..even when she is hurting from a wound 0.o

finally a few comparisons in the game with the older series to see how the graphics have improved XD
one of the prettiest characters in the game, meryl silverburgh

yours truly, meryl in mgs1 using ps1

and meryl in mgs4 using ps3

now u see the diff in graphics? 0.o
she looks very pretty if you observe her close up
but i still prefer girls with long hair XD
she still wields her favourite desert eagle wherever she goes, small girl with a big gun XD

and another female character in the game...
she's known as big mama ( i know, i was stunned when i first heard it XD) aka eva
actually she's from mgs3 which took place during the cold war period in the 1960s
very good looking huh?
unfortunately this was her in the 60s when she was still 20+
and oh by the way, mgs3 was using dvd format in ps2 so the disparity in graphics might not be as huge

and her in the present times when she's in her 40s or 50s
omg, so old still wear like that...yucks XD
her favorite phrase;
'i only get off my bike only when i fall dead...or when i fall in love' XD

finally the bad ass character throughout the game
its a long story how liquid (one bad guy) became ocelot (another bad guy) and i shant bore you with the details
liquid's the one in the front with solid snake in the background
this was mgs 1 using ps1 by the way
he actually died in mgs1 but like i said, its a long story how he became one with ocelot
if you notice, both liquid and snake look alike (actually all of them look alike in the ps1 graphics XD)
thats cause both are actually cloned from a guy named big boss which he did appear in mgs4 at the epilogue

ocelot in mgs1 using ps1
couldnt find the one in mgs2 where he looked about the same just slightly better graphics cause it was in ps2
like eva, this is him in his younger days in mgs3
the story is such that mgs1 was in the 1990s while mgs 3 was during the 1960s
directors of the game funny ar?

i think he looks super cool in this outfit
in his 50s and still lookin like a masterpiece
none of those saggy muscles and stuff
fyi, he did have abs and bulging biceps when he took off his shirt to fight XD

alright thats it for me...
anyway,
i've been thinking of using the lol langauge in msn again soon,
havent practiced it for a while now XD


do yew mizz mi?

Dance Your Heart Out

whoa its been a super long day...
i left the house at 9:30am and i just got back
i feel uber drained...so i'll keep this short


today the church groupies went to sentosa to have some fun playing games :)
the beautiful sand, the rushing waves and the bright sun
we played captain's ball and volley ball there at siloso beach
couldnt play volley ball for nuts so i only played captain's ball
...but it didnt turn out as i expected
my cg was PAWNED!!!! XD
6 to 1 with the only goal scoring only like in the last 2 mins of the game
boy, were we lucky hehe


after that josh, sarah and i headed down to christina's concert at the NLB
my oh my, almost 2 hours of dance performances of different genre
and i'm surprised i didnt fall asleep considering how tired i was...
that silly gal christina's performance was super nice :)
in fact, it was one of the best among the rest
you did well gal, keep up the good work!!!! :)
and she finally got carried by a guy in front of all of us XD
overall i must say it was interesting although some of the groups and the performance coordinators could use some improvement
i also got to meet amanda and siti for the first time!!
now these two gals are a funny bunch alright XD
with chris and felicia too
i must admit the way i met the two of them was a little...weird
for chris was...he saw me at the audience after their performance
he instantly recognized me and came over, 'you must be sammy,i'm chris'
i never even met him in mah life!!
i was still blur like a sotong wondering who was this guy until he said his name while we were shaking hands
then for felicia,
after christina intro her to me
her first words were 'ahh so you're sammy, i know a lot about you'
good Lord!!! like chris, i never met her in mah life as well
obviously christina must have did some introduction about me to both of em....
which i hope didnt include my bad points XD
they really are a nice buncha people and i think it 'd be nice to just sit down and get to know em one day
although it does seem a little impossible with all their busy schedules at school...


there was something that really touched me yesterday
there were things going on here and there and life has been crazy
after service, josh suddenly asked me 'are you ok?'
yes there were things goin on and well....lets just say i was a little down but i definitely didnt show it
in fact i tried to hide it a lot
but yeah what touched me was even beneath the smile on my face, and the all laughing
he could tell something was really wrong
its not easy to do that unless you really understand your friends well
which i admit i can only do that for a few people which i spent years...maybe even a decade with
it really showed how much attention he paid when it came to observing others...or me in this case
then came sitong who asked me the same thing...i guess maybe it was really starting to show
even elyn sms-ed me about the same thing when she was in expo and me in jurong west
damn, thats some woman's intuition she's got XD
i really thank you for all the concern you guys showered on me
and not to worry i'll talk to you guys if there's anything :)
most of all, i thank God for friends like you!!!

i'll still praise the God who gives and takes away

You Always Believed

i'm so sorry for not updating these past few days
well...partly cause there wasnt much to talk about
quite a number of 21st birthdays this month
plus with all the going out and buying of stuff, i'm flat out broke
apart from the supposedly weekly gymming sessions with josh...
which have become fortnightly XD
i stayed home nowadays either being a bookworm or a gamer
usually more of the latter =P
the book cindy lent me is super interesting
it has taught me a lot of new things...actually more of redefined my train of thoughts
i can do more of lending books like these from her in the future
hahahahaha the joy of reading and learning new things when you dont have to spend a single cent!!! XD

crap
it wasnt supposed to go this way
its not even a week and here i am struggling with it
i felt it wasnt fair to you if i kept going on with no progress
maybe i really wasnt suited for this in the first place
i'm so sorry i had to put such an abrupt end to it like this and i hope i didnt leave you with a poor impression
i do feel very bad about it
but i must thank you very much for the opportunity you gave me even though we were complete strangers :)


you held me through it all and you never let me fall :)

Just Feel Better

i went to the gym with josh again on friday
boy...like the picture,it wasnt as simple as it looked XD
i tried doing all those routine exercises i did before i went to taiwan but only managed to finish it a part of it
in fact, arms and chest areas hurt like hell now
and that josh was comical
he saw me having trouble doin my last few sets of crunches then he came over as i went up each time, he said..
'no char siew pao, no lo mai gai, no taiwan xiang chang, no ji pai'
it was tough enough doing it and worse when i tried to control laughing while doin XD


there were other things that looked simple...at least it was until recently
all it took was just one 'trigger' to mess up the whole...balance of it
i'm doing my best on this one and i'm not sure how long it will take
this part isnt meant for all the readers, just to those that i've shared with yesterday
pay no attention if you dont understand me here


anyway, cgm and service was really good
we were on the topic of building relationships
its really hard when you think about it, maintaining a good friendship with all your friends
sometimes they just dont have the time for you because of their other friends, school, work, yada yada
and likewise for ourselves as well
i dunno man...at times you try your best to find time with her/him but they just brush you away
well...in any case i just hope to be the best friend i can be to all my friends and be there for em when they need me :)


I'm tired of holding on to all things i oughta leave behind
its really getting old and...i think i need a little help this time...

This Afternoon

a little something to get past the day :P

dont walk in front of me,
cause i may not follow
dont walk behind me,
cause i'm not sure how to lead
just walk beside me and be my friend always

Better hang on if you're tagging along, cause we will be doin this till six in the mornin' :)

Audience of One

its been one heck of a busy week
i've been out practically everyday
either catching up with old friends, church or out recky-ing for some things
me will just tell you guys about one or two of these days
i'll never finish if i type everything out XD
and i thank my mom for being so understanding that i couldnt have dinner with her everyday
although i do miss her cooking...
'you never know what you're missin till you've lost it'
eating food outside during the time outside really made me appreciate her cooking
may be weird for a guy but i think i should really try cooking together with her one day in the kitchen XD

on wednesday night we celebrated cindy's birthday at clarke quay!!!
cant really remember the name...mai mason or something like that
supposedly its in french
anyway, some of my cg members and sarah members were there too
it was a night fulla fun and laughter as we watched the games played by cindy and a few others
and the forfeits for losing XD
cindy looked so pretty!!!
she was dressed like a princess with that white dress of hers and the tiara =D
i also met some other people for the first time...
xiao hui, maple, joel and many others which i cant remember their names
shucks, me never been good at remembering many people names at one goXD
and well...in one way or another... i had trouble
hmm..no scratch that, not trouble
more of 'no clicking power' with my cg members
i'm trying my best to integrate with them but its just so...difficult at times
when you dont really get their inside jokes and the silly things they laugh about
it does get lonely and feeling left out at times
and i dont blame em, i guess its part of being the new guy
there's still time and i intend to use it to get to know them better!!!

then yesterday we celebrated another birthday!! my good ol' sister sarah turns 21!!!
well...not yet exactly but soon
we celebrated at costa sands chalet
and it was one helluva good celebration, huat ar =D
hehehe you shoulda seen her when she opened the present our old W331 cg members gave her
she was screaming like crazy i thought she was gonna burst XD
i'm glad she liked it after all that hunting josh and i did at taka last week
the food was also...like ah siao always say, 'up ar!'
which either he meant expensive or high class
aiya sama sama la ar XD as long as you get my flow
it was also a funny night with josh, sam chew and i discussing about a certain someone
someone that makes sam chew shrink in horror and josh's hair on his arms stand XD
hahahaha their faces are always full of it when they see her getting close to them
i dont have any side effects like them...yet =P
ok enough with this crazy talk XD
both of em stayed back in the chalet while i had to head home
yeah, my mom didnt allow me to stay overnight
i didnt want to start an argument with her anyway and she had her reasons..whatever they are for doing so
just hope that i'll be free when i turn 21

i've been thinking of our conversation yesterday and yeah, i'm glad i went ahead to talk to you
it was tough when i thought about how to bring it up to you
and all the things that could go wrong
but thank God it didnt :)
looking back at a year ago,
we really went a little too far ahead of ourselves...or at least i did on my part
silly me thinking it was love at first sight,
and all that led me to feeling like a complete train wreck inside during the past few months
things like the 'love at first sight thingy' probably only happens in fairy tales and movies i guess..who knows?
i'm really thankful all the friends who lended me their listening ear and patience during this time
without em, would never have really recovered
well anyway, i'm relieved we can still be friends
i do hope we can go back to how we used to be all fun and laughter =D
and i'm happy for you :)


days blurred into each other though everything seemed clear

In These Arms

the reason to never bring animals for weddings XD
anyway, 3 days back into singapore and i still cant believe it myself
it feels so...surreal, like a dream
i had this crazy imagination from time to time of me waking up from this dream and finding myself in my dorm bed
i'm still trying to adjust to the hot and humid weather here
but hey..at least the air here is much much cleaner
and i'm lovin the magnificent view from my room!!! =D

it was valentine's yesterday and heck...yeah me still is single XD
which has its advantages
anyway we had to do a present exchange after service
me got a whole bag fulla snacks and sweets from yizhen
because they start with the letter 's' and it was sweet of her to draw some cute pictures on the package :)
unfortunately, i'm not the type who eat snacks often but i'll still try to finish it
on the other hand, i had to get a present for flora
'e-ni-my-ni-mini-mo' didnt know what she liked so i just went with my intuition
thank goodness she found the forever friends teddy bear cute and liked it =D
after that, some of us had to go off for some reasons
but the rest stayed for pm before having frog porridge for dinner at clementi
i found it quite surprising for some people to not like to eat that
not that its anything bad, just...surprising XD
its not that gross and i have eaten much worse....things
like...well, maybe lets not go there =P
i guess cause my mom kinda like forced me to eat everything she cooked when i was young
so i dont have much trouble eating almost anything...except for bitter gourd *ugh, yuck*
i still have trouble trying to eat that since young
yeah after that, sarah, josh and i went back home while the rest went to party the night away

met up with josh today to do some shopping for....something
then after that we met sitong, sarah and sam chew
all of them except sarah came for a short while before they had to leave
thank you guys really,
i appreciate the time each of you took off to fellowship together despite being so busy =D
yup, so sarah and i went to watch the first of many movies soon after
'valkyrie' at cineleisure
guess who we saw....
our big brother JH was there too XD
then we saw sitong, her sister and her cousin there as well
hahahaha, the way we met sure was funny XD
you shoulda seen sarah's face, she looked so...stunned and guilty at the same time =P
anyway, it was a pretty interesting movie about hitler's germany and treason
it was a very very nice day, thank you to all my homies for making it possible
you would really never know how to appreciate the people around you until you've been away from them for some time

man, i sure got a busy week ahead...

mon: meeting with my grandpa for lunch then gymming with josh

tues: going with kenneth yeo to bras basah to check out some stuff for my new hobby then meeting sarah for more exercise (i know, i cant believe it either XD) and dinner

wed: medical checkup at cmpb ( good grief!!! the distance...) and maybe spending some time with my poly friends in the evening before rushing off for cindy's birthday dinner

thurs: dinner with mah brotherhood near the policeman's house XD

fri, sat and sun as usual...spending time at church and with my homies =D

i'd tell you i'd never leave you and love you till the end of time, if you were in these arms tonight :)

Hmm...

Basic Principles:
no matter what, no matter when, no matter who,
any man has a chance to sweep any woman off her feet
....you just need the right broom =D

life is not the amounts of breath you take, its the moments that take your breath away

Take Me Away

Finally!!!
back in home sweet home!!!
I have been waiting so long for this day
a super duper big thank you to JH, Elyn, Josh and mah brotherhood for coming down to the airport to see me
i needed the help with all my stuff anyway XD

typical singaporeans...everything also buy XD

aiyooo i feel so bad for going back with my brotherhood and not the rest....
Josh, Elyn and JH wanted to gimme a surprise, but.... alamaaaaaaaak *smack forehead*
so so so so so so sorry to the three of you
and sitong too...she wanted to come down to the airport on the way home from school
but i told her to go home instead to get some rest,
thank you you silly gal XD
what matters is its from the heart and i appreciate it :)
thank you to everyone else who called and sms-ed
argh geez, i'm feeling a little groggy from the lack of sleep yesterday
after having supper with the brotherhood,
i started unpacking all my stuff and it was already 3+ in the morning by the time i was done
so the stubborn me decided to might as well stay up all the way since i had to leave the house at 5 for pm
*ti ki some more la* i tried sleeping earlier but nope...just cant for some reason
pm was great by the way...never felt so refreshed for so long :)
tomorrow i still have to get up early to go help ouyang
never thought i'd be this busy after i came back

sorry if you were waiting for 'around taiwan in 7 days part 3' but me completely forgot about what happened so i'll just leave it at that

met up with the crazy sarah, cindy, and for the first time, charlene and benny after pm
it was nice talking to them over breakfast...well,over their breakfast because sarah wanted to go to mac XD
first drink ordered in the morning as predicted by sarah (actually you people would prolly guessed it too)...
'auntie, kopi gao ji puey!!'
havent had that since...six months ago 0.o
then at macs sarah wanted to take photos with me
but...not with that kinda hairstyle i had she wasnt
it was horrible and uber untidy
so i could not resist the temptation to go for a haircut earlier!!!
she on the other hand ck tang-ed as much as possible when we were at mac XD
from 9:15 to 9:45 then finally to 10 before she decided to go to work *tsk tsk*
anyway me cant wait to meet the rest of the group later =D

i gotta go meet momomolissa later to pass her her johnnie walker XD
she's super le...december already booked me to buy hard liquor
the wines and beer were taken by mk at DFS too =P
sorry to the rest if you wanted alcohol...gotta book early
like i told edmund
first come, first serve basis...no biaseness XD
speaking of buying things,
shucks..that reminds me,i havent got the valentine's day gift for the gift exchange tomorrow :X
what to buy what to buy what to buy????

I could turn the other way, take control and make a change